Friday, September 04, 2026
the glut of gall among the soon to fall
The irony is rich. Sexual predators and pedophiles carry leashes and court sanctioned threats to women to stay within the confines of male confining ideology and lurid control. Have kids, they say, serve meals, service your man, then keep your mouth shut — we’ll tell you your place and role and how to preserve our fantasized traditions as MAGA real men.
Today’s young American women were born into a world of unfinished feminism. We have freedoms our great-grandmothers couldn’t have imagined, but also fewer rights than we did just a handful of years ago. We live in an era not just of abortion bans, but of overt misogynists in positions of power: the gleeful woman-haters of the manosphere, the anti-feminists of the MAGA right who espouse a politics of “your body, my choice,” a president accused of sexual misconduct many times over and the men in his orbit who endorse the idea that women shouldn’t have the right to vote. https://www.nytimes.com/2026/09/03/opinion/gloria-steinem-feminism-abortion.html
There’s no pausing perversion. They tear down what is there and replace it with their fear they will be forgotten. Destroy and construct in their own image and likeness. When done, everything looks like a smirking snear and sickly-sweet condescension of power taken but not given. Manly manipulation reins over public construction and pubic fantasies as wealth confers power and privilege over the land and minions.
What a time!
What a galling time!
Thursday, September 03, 2026
the not-knowing of it all
Maybe.
Seeing the Way is like going into a dark room with a torch; the darkness instantly departs, while the light alone remains.
When the Way is attained and the truth is seen, ignorance vanishes and enlightenment abides forever.
--Sutra of Forty Two Chapters
Or --
Seeing the Way is a dark room
torch is the insight, which passes
leaving the dark room a comfort
of indistinguishable un-sight
allowing each its own unknownness
in encompassing
singular affirmation
native name for this morning -- drips a lot
a soaker this morning
loud on roof of rain-porch --
such a treat!
small painting of southpaw old-timer doc
Nice doc says
I’ll be back to how
I should be soon
With new antibiotics
And prednisone
In ten days
He’s left handed
Been reined in
From private practice
To the mothership
Does things old-
fashioned way
And inspires confidence
Shakes hand
Coming and going
Wednesday, September 02, 2026
news from canada
He called me “Harry.” It was the 70s.
We worked together, taught together
sat in pubs together --
Notified today he died 23aug26 in Alberta
"Through the too many miles and the too little smiles
I still remember you"
Tuesday, September 01, 2026
passing without haste or regret toward what will be
Wendell Berry, I was informed by elder Doris, died yesterday. (1934-1926)
So much to like about him.
The Wish to Be Generous
All that I serve will die, all my delights,
the flesh kindled from my flesh, garden and field,
the silent lilies standing in the woods,
the woods, the hill, the whole earth, all
will burn in man's evil, or dwindle
in its own age. Let the world bring on me
the sleep of darkness without stars, so I may know
my little light taken from me into the seed
of the beginning and the end, so I may bow
to mystery, and take my stand on the earth
like a tree in a field, passing without haste
or regret toward what will be, my life
a patient willing descent into the grass.
Poem: "The Wish to Be Generous," by Wendell Berry, from Collected Poems (North Point Press).
Berry wrote this:
We seek to preserve peace by fighting a war, or to advance freedom by subsidizing dictatorships, or to 'win the hearts and minds of the people' by poisoning their crops and burning their villages and confining them in concentration camps; we seek to uphold the 'truth' of our cause with lies, or to answer conscientious dissent with threats and slurs and intimidations.... I have come to the realization that I can no longer imagine a war that I would believe to be either useful or necessary. I would be against any war.[15] ibid
wenn jeder neue tag anbricht
My daily confusion of mind has me sitting with Ensō dog looking over at Bald Mountain this new year's day the first of September. It all changes today.
The syncretic mystery we call variably Nature, or God, or Being, or Existence pauses as August gives way to September. Monks chant Tierce in France. Cool breeze comes up driveway. Not only is there nowhere to go there's no one to imagine going anywhere.
In the realm of True Purity, there is no such thing as “I” or “He” or “She,” nor can “friend” or “foe” be found there.
But the slightest confusion of mind brings innumerable differences and complications. Peace and disorder in the world, the distinction between friend and foe in human relationships, follow upon one another as illusion begets delusion.
A person of spiritual insight will immediately recognize what is wrong and before long rid themselves of such an illusion.
--Muso Kokushi (1275-1351) (dailyzen)
Portrait of Muso Kokushi (1275-1351)
He taught Zen to a great number of disciples (the estimated number is over 10 thousand[1]), also leaving an enormous body of poetry and other writings.[12] One of his best known anthologies of zen teachings is Dream Conversations (夢中問答集, Muchū Mondō-shū). Among his students are Gidō Shūshin and Zekkai Chūshin, literary figures who had a central role in the development of the Japanese Literature of the Five Mountains.[1]
Even though none survives in its original form, Soseki's Zen gardens have proven to be one of his most lasting contributions to the country's culture and image. To Soseki, designing new gardens and altering existing ones was an integral part of the practice of Zen.[13]
Soseki died in 1351 at the age of 77. Because he was given, both before and after death, seven different honorific names (like Musō Kokushi (夢窓国師), Shōkaku Kokushi (正覚国師), and Shinshū Kokushi (心宗国師) calling him a national teacher by as many Emperors, he is known as "the Teacher to Seven Emperors" (七朝帝師, Nanachō Teishi).[1] wikipedia
Dogen zenji was right, life is one continuous mistake. So it is my life has been. Here, as it diminishes, mistake after mistake continues undeterred.
Ideologues with their ideologies, cruelty with its cruelties, obsession with its malignant obsessiveness -- the news of absurd human activities in never-ending trickle goes on and on.
Here in this unimportant dooryard this cloudy morning the sound of cars and trucks along barnestown road, each containing someone important doing something important, pass by out of sight up and down hill.
Birthday love for my son. A rose for his mother. The season changes.
Crow calls out from upper branches.
Sun breaks through. We live with our histories, our mistakes, our changes.
Then this song:
I Don't Want To Talk About It (from One Night Only! Rod Stewart Live at Royal Albert Hall)
I can tell by your eyes
That you've probably been crying forever
And the stars in the sky don't mean nothing
To you, they're a mirror
I don't wanna talk about it
How you broke my heart
If I stay here just a little bit longer
If I stay here, won't you listen to my heart?
Oh, my heart
If I stand all alone
Will the shadows hide the colors of my heart?
Blue for the tears, black for the night's fears
The stars in the sky don't mean nothing to you
They're just a mirror
I don't wanna talk about it
How you broke my heart
If I stay here just a little bit longer
If I stay here, won't you listen to my heart?
Oh, my heart
... ... ...
So gebt das Leben
So kommt jeden neuen Tag.
So entfaltet sich das Leben
wenn jeder neue Tag anbricht.
Monday, August 31, 2026
the last star broken by storm
Where we’ve come from is nowhere near anything else.
Now here near nothing else.
Something has existed
Before heaven and earth;
Shapeless and silent
In its origin,
Yet the master of
Every image and form,
Can never wither
With the passing of time.
--Bankei (1622-1693)
Bankei is perhaps most famous for his teaching of the Unborn (Japanese: fushō 不生). The Unborn (also fushō fumetsu 不生不滅, "unborn and undying," or "no creation and no annihilation"[9]) derives from the Sanskrit term, anutpāda (no-birth, no-arising, not-born, non-produced, no-origin).[web 1][web 2] The Indian tradition sees the term anutpāda as an aspect of the ultimate truth, emptiness; since emptiness does not arise or cease, it is not born and never dies.[10][11] The term is also used in the Lankavatara Sutra, where it is equated with emptiness.[12] According to D.T. Suzuki, anutpāda is not the opposite of utpāda (arising) but transcends opposites. It is the seeing into the true nature of existence,[13] the seeing that "all objects are without self-substance."[14] The phrase fushō fumetsu不生不滅 (unborn undying) also appears in the Heart Sūtra.[note 1]
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Bankei_Y%C5%8Dtaku
Why all the feelings of loneliness experienced in the world?
Villager
What's wrong will always be wrong. I've seen him lean
against the house hours and glare at the sea. His eyes say
no boat will come. His harsh throated seemingly
good natured mother bends her back to the soil
and there at least all grows well. When I speak with him
his eyes move away to the sea and I imagine
the red in his face from drink is also from
some ancient tribal shame. To him I'm wealthy.
When we talk I know how wealthy I am.
The police have him on file: petty theft.
I'm certain he steals to make up for the nothing he finds
every day in the sea, and to find money for drink.
Some days a woman picks him up, a sister I'm told,
takes him away and hours later delivers him back
passed out. Next morning again he's propped against
the house, the tide out in his eyes. I imagine
his sister, if that's who she is, knows oblivion
is what he must have often to survive.
I have much to tell him. And nothing. I'd start
with the sea. I'd say, there was another sea something
like this long ago, and another me. By the time
I got to the point he'd be looking away and be right.
No two hurts are the same, and most have compensations
too lovely to leave. At night, a photo glows alive
inside him when his mother's asleep and the cops
aren't watching. It lights up in the dark
whenever he looks hard and by dawn has burned out.
I almost forget: he'd do anything for you. Love him
for what you might have become
and love him for what you are, not that far
from him. We are never that far. Love
everyone you can. The list gets longer and shorter.
We're seldom better than weather. We're nearly as good
as a woman we met in passing once at Invergarry.
Don't be sorry, for him or for self. Love the last star
broken by storm. And love you. You hold it together.
Thought Problem
by Vijay Seshadri
How strange would it be if you met yourself on the street?
How strange if you liked yourself,
took yourself in your arms, married your own self,
propagated by techniques known only to you,
and then populated the world? Replicas of you are everywhere.
Some are Arabs. Some are Jews. Some live in yurts. It is
an abomination, but better that your
sweet and scrupulously neat self
emerges at many points on the earth to watch the horned moon rise
than all those dolts out there,
turning into pillars of salt wherever we look.
If we have to have people, let them be you,
spritzing your geraniums, driving yourself to the haberdashery,
killing your supper with a blowgun.
Yes, only in the forest do you feel at peace,
up in the branches and down in the terrific gorges,
but you’ve seen through everything else.
You’ve fled in terror across the frozen lake,
you’ve found yourself in the sand, the palace,
the prison, the dockside stews;
and, long ago, on this same planet, you came home
to an empty house, poured a Scotch-and-soda,
and sat in a recliner in the unlit rumpus room,
puzzled at what became of you.
(From 3 Sections © by Vijay Seshadri)
I am left with the inquiry, its own poem, a worthy koan:
What-is
Becoming
of me

