Saturday, August 09, 2014


Nagasaki 69 years ago. A cruel and unkind act. So suffering extends itself.


@meetingbrook: "Quiescence," the man said at another's 70th birthday celebration. He described that place between clouds & landscape. Where one is no ego.

Friday, August 08, 2014

It is nice to realize



what to do with my self

Killing the self is like finishing a cup of coffee. It just passes through, like everything else.
When Buddhism says, ‘It’s an illusion, it’s empty,' I think back to when Ignatius said, 'Your self -- —that's your problem. You have to conquer self, kill the self.' It’s that tradition, both in Christianity and in Buddhism, in which we are challenged to let go of what is so comfortable and what we cling to as who we are, if we're going to open ourselves to reality and truth.  -- Jerry Brown, “Politics and Prayer”
Then, let it.


Thursday, August 07, 2014

completely seen is no longer seen

Someone fell onto the granite stones of the askew walkway of the Rockland Breakwater. I helped them up when they were ready.
5. Jesus said, "Know what is in front of your face, and what is hidden from you will be disclosed to you.
For there is nothing hidden that will not be revealed. [And there is nothing buried that will not be raised.]”
(--from The Gospel of Thomas)
The boy and I walked out and back.

Later, at practice, after zazen, visitor and I read Berdyaev and the epilogue to a book on western wisdom.

Ego fears evolution because it is impossible to hold on to what is moving toward both rest and cessation.

Evolution is the cessation and dissolving of what is moving through itself.

As such, we become what is gone, beyond.

Wednesday, August 06, 2014

what is seen when what is there is not

Two days after Hiroshima I turned one.

The prospect of being one in the aftermath of such craven cruelty continues to astonish.

Tuesday, August 05, 2014

You ain't seen nothing yet

Is that what transubstantation is? The sharing of being and consciousness between two? The breakdown of separation? That and the physical quantum intercommitment realization of matter?

Tomorrow is the feast of the Transfiguration.

Also the sacred day of Hiroshima.

Monday, August 04, 2014

His blocking foul was his sixth, so he banged his head on a door

It's complicated. The bible. Complicated. 

God, one of the inmates says, allows the slaughter of the innocents by Herod -- then, as Jesus, does this big speech about children being so valuable in the schema of things that no one should dare hurt one, or else.


Like four rabbis we argue scripture and come up with six opinions.

It's ok.

We're meant, we suppose, to be flummoxed.

Because...we are.

Sunday, August 03, 2014

"I am here now," the character said. It might have been God's namespoken.

Sitting zazen the mountain grades itself.

Old school silence notes chainsaw and backhoe.

Chanting heart sutra no old age and death and no extinction of it.

Until the glass broke on kitchen floor there was no need for dust pan and sweep brush.