I read Mary Tillman's Boots on the Ground, My Tribute to Pat Tillman. Her son died, the story goes, as a result of 'friendly fire' in Afghanistan, April 2003. It is a sad tale. Much that the family had been told was lie after lie. I am surprisingly moved, over and over, by the story.
How rich are the depths of God – how deep his wisdom and knowledge – and how impossible to penetrate his motives or understand his methods! Who could ever know the mind of the Lord? Who could ever be his counsellor? Who could ever give him anything or lend him anything? All that exists comes from him; all is by him and for him. To him be glory for ever! Amen. (Romans 11:33-36, Reading from Office of Evening Prayer)Rokpa gets to go on two walks. The hermits are working solitarily this damp and rainy day. It is a good day to be an anchorite.
Anchorite: (female: anchoress; adj. anchoritic; from Greek: ἀναχωρέω anachōreō, signifying "to withdraw", "to depart into the rural countryside") denotes someone who, for religious reasons, withdraws from secular society so as to be able to lead an intensely prayer-oriented, ascetic, and—circumstances permitting —Eucharist-focused life. As a result, anchorites are usually considered to be a type of religious hermit, although there are distinctions in their historical development and theology. (--from Apple dictionary)The rural countryside is dusked.
Not much can be seen when light fades.
I sought my soul, but my soul I could not see.In his commentary on the Sandokai, Shunryu Suzuki suggests that our effort for today is good-enough dharma; that tomorrow we will try again to make even better effort in the dharma.
I sought my God, but my God eluded me.
I sought my brother, and I found all three.
So it is when I think about the pain of the Tillman family, and the many other families who've been told untruths about their loved-one's death in war zones. The pain for them is doubled -- the curious lack of respect in the name of some more vague objective on the part of those perpetuating the lies.
Tomorrow, perhaps, we will make a nobler effort to honor those dead in war with honest respect.
These brothers and sisters of ours gone to war, gone to death, gone from us!
We think the mind of the Lord is difficult to comprehend.
The mind of man is far and away beyond difficult.