At end of
conversation on
Shunyata she said
“To be one with
God
is to no longer
know God.”
At end of
conversation on
Shunyata she said
“To be one with
God
is to no longer
know God.”
God might be. Good.
But, do we want.
God to be. Good?
Volition and intention
Karma, action, is womb
For us to be born into
This. Next instant. Free
Schismogenesis is a term in anthropology that describes the formation of social divisions and literally meaning "creation of division", the term derives from the Greek words σχίσμα skhisma "cleft" (borrowed into English as schism, "division into opposing factions"), and γένεσις genesis "generation, creation" (deriving in turn from gignesthai "be born or produced, creation, a coming into being"). The term was introduced by anthropologist Gregory Bateson and has been applied to various fields https://www.wikiwand.com/en/articles/Schismogenesis
This is that time.
Cleft and theft.
They say Jephthah made a deal with God — Help me defeat the Ammonites and I’ll sacrifice to you the first person who greets me when I return to my household. He beat them. It was his 12 year old daughter who came dancing out to greet him on his return. He grieved his bad luck. (What did he expect?) Then, after three weeks, he sacrificed her in flames. (Cf Judges 11:29-39)
Stephen King must have written that novel.
Derangement and horrible tales sometimes fill what is (oddly) called sacred scripture.
My cat stretches on brown blanket.
I’d rather read Carse on The Religious Case Against Belief.
Some sacrifice people in order to achieve some benefit for themselves in their derangement.
Donald Trump, Benjamin Netanyahu, and Vladimir Putin display this derangement. Perhaps new books of the Bible will be written on them. Lord knows they have their flock and followers willing to summon new apotheoses.
The world, despite our best hopes, is mostly absurd. History often a theater of the absurd. Individuals, with their dramatic beliefs, diminish themselves in stature and sensibility by embracing the far fetched and proclaim the nonsensic shamanic credos of their feverish imaginations gone askew.
Forgive me, I stopped drinking alcohol some thirty years ago, and the hangover drapes itself over the nonsensical thinking and proclamation of my surrounding communitas.
We dwell in an ethos and culture of imponderables. So we make things up. Much of our telling is a prevarication on an ill-conceived and diseased apprehension of what we like to call ”reality.”
(Don’t mind me, I’m busy contemplating cottage cheese penetrated by remaining strawberry jam.) It is Thor’s Day. I will not get hammered today. Rather, I grieve for those slaughtered in Cambodia, German concentration camps, Gaza, Ukraine, Tulsa, the trail of tears, the fields of Flanders, the terrain of the Iliad and Odyssey.
Tolstoy asked, What then must we do?
I’ll sit here a little longer pondering that question.
What I won’t do is ask God for some favor promising to kill some folk if I am granted the favor.
Call me old fashioned, but live and let live still sounds attractive.
And may all the tyrants, dictators, and fascists fall face down in a mud puddle.
And may the souls of all our departed, through the mercy of our deepest reality, rest in peace! Amen
Cardiologist says
You can live with the weariness,
get surgery, and/or, soon enough die
Ophthalmologist says You can live
with the cloudiness, start unseeing
or get lasered
Oncologist says
MRI will tell advancement
in pancreas, millimetering
Also, Waldenström
macroglobulinemia, he says, is
a slow train, but will get there
Oral surgeon
has done his damage
says someday I'll adjust
Nurse practitioner says
diabetes is loading its guns
adjusting its scopes
Priest says, who? What's
his name? Forgive me, I
Don't know him
Former friends say
yeah, I remember him,
odd, quiet, what was his name?
Meditatiion community says
no, can't picture him
did he ever sit with us?
My parents, grandparents,
sister. those I've known all say --
we're dead, let the living figure it out
Jesus says
let him without thick skin
toss the last scone
Buddha says:
if you meet him on the road
call ICE, ship him to dark site
And you, yes you, what say you?
"I say I can't dine, can't dance, Ive
got to purchase a cow." MU!
The best news I've ever gotten:
"Cheer up, Bill, things are only
going to get worse!"
(That last advice from Trappist
monk who kept sheep, wrote
poetry, sold jams, and sat zazen)
Being nobody is good practice
a time comes soon when insight
will perfect with disincarnation
Cedar tree
Outside window
Across dooryard
driveway
God’s within
Within God
This Wednesday
Morning
Candle
And
Incense
Burn
Epigraph to James Carse’s book The Religious Case Against Belief:
To believe is to know that one believes, and to know that one believes is no longer to believe.
— JEAN-PAUL SARTRE
Mr Carse was on the selection committee that kindly awarded me a small fellowship to do graduate work in religion in 1969/1970.
With my gratitude,
A description of his book:
Through careful , creative analysis, James P. Carse's The Religious Case Against Belief reveals a surprising truth: What is currently criticized as religion is, in fact, the territory of belief. Looking to both historical and contemporary crises, Carse distinguishes religion from belief systems and pinpoints how the closed-mindedness and hostility of belief has corrupted religion and spawned violence the world over. Drawing on the lessons of Galileo, Martin Luther, Abraham Lincoln, and Jesus Christ, Carse creates his own brand of parable and establishes a new vocabulary with which to study conflict in the modern world. Carse uses his wide-ranging understanding of religion to find a viable and vital path away from what he calls the Age of Faith II and toward open-ended global dialogue.
https://ebook.yourcloudlibrary.com/library/CamdenPublicLibrary/search?query=James%20carse
The rest of Sartre's quote goes:
Thus to believe is not to believe any longer because that is only to believe. [For instance, say that I believe that Peter likes me. Then I know that I believe this. But I also am aware that there is no external evidence for this belief because Peter could just be pretending. Hence I also believe that Peter does not like me. The same arguments hold for the belief in God, as we saw in Kierkegaard. This is why belief (like faith) is different from knowledge.]
(--found in Sartre: Nothingness and Bad Faith, pp.3-4, https://www.acsu.buffalo.edu/~degray/CP05/Sartre%20-%20Nothingness-Bad-Faith.pdf)
I have not found God
nor is God findable
I do not look for God
nor am I not merely looking
rather, God remains within
and fully without
I cannot look for something
that will not be seen
and so -- here we are, looking
through Being to see what is not
what is completely beyond Being
surrounding, inhabiting, Reality
That's what the poet said after reading his poem.
The First Law of Thermodynamics
He was a good ole boy, and when he died his friends carried out
his final wish—the body was cremated and the ashes stuffed
into shotgun shells. They walked through the woods he loved
and fired aimlessly into the trees—he came down everywhere
in a powdery rain, a pollen of ashes that once was the memory
of a boy walking under trees showering him with leaves.
(Poem by Joseph Stroud)
Which leaves us grateful.
I am closing in
Nearing, if you will,
Nothing at all
There is no comfort
In this realization —
Just this, itself
After he dies
Many will say
Goodbye, good luck
We’re done with you
Let absurdity end
That’s over
We will look at
Each other and wonder
How it was allowed
To happen
The raw idiocy
The moral mud
it is good to arrive
at this age
because this is the
age we are
this very year, every
age is good
because it is
the age you are
look around
everything is
the age it is
without exception
there is no other
age to be when
you are the age you are
do not commit suicide
rather, look around
everything is the age
it is, nothing else
do not kill another
when flowers receive
water there is nothing
else to say, just water
in soil, Sunday morning
quando la morte rientra in sé
è nel profondo della vita
when death reenters itself
it is deep within life
each step down to open gate
the surprise of morning
the ability to walk, the quiet
mountain, the good st Bernard/
border collie hunkering
in dooryard outside barn
it is sunday morning, no peignoir
no complacency, no church
just sunlight on bald mountain,
dry ground lifting each foot
everything has returned within
remembering signs and symbols
liturgical phrases, ritual, sounds
catholic and zen buddhist, an
archeology of buried remains
walking back up to good dog
there’s no place to go, I am the
journey, pilgrim reentering itself
when death comes
back to itself
it is in the
depths of life
He’s a hermit
What’s that?
He lives alone
Even with others
Prefers solitude
Can’t easily abide
Garrulous insistence
constant commentary
Knows death
Is very next breath
Not nostalgic
Understands nothing
Wants (that) nothing
Wouldn’t recognize it
If he held it in hand
Thinks midnight is
The perfect time
Watches it
go by
all we can do
is look out
into daylight
be grateful
for what was
and wasn’t
what is
and isn’t
I no longer
look for god
nessuna necessità
shoes under
rocking chair
one tilted
the passing cars
sudden silence
Neighborly,
brotherly,
my good friend
words cannot cover
the hate and cruelty
russia destroying
ukraine, the multi felon
pats hand and shoulder
of war criminal like
sweethearts over
croissants, my good
friend
russia russia russia
he is alone in his
delusion, and yet
*zabluzhdeniye
lyubit
durakov
*delusion
loves
fools
If I understand this
You say the woman
Was lifted up into
Where? The sky?
Heaven?
Let’s say she was
Taken up into
Somewhere beyond
I’ll go with that
(For now)
That makes two, maybe
Three going that route
Ok, fine, let’s say
It’s so —
One question,
Will it rain soon, and
Why is bodily ascending
Assumpting necessary
I’d like
To say
Hello
But I’m
Too far
Into goodbye
👋
To want
To say
Hello
The question was asked in prison today what level of worry or concern there was about the future of things, internationally, with AI, climate change, militarily, cyber warfare, the condition of psyche and consciousness.
Responses were the spectrum. “Beyond worried,” one said.
Then Donald Justice:
Poem [“This poem is not addressed to you”]
This poem is not addressed to you.
You may come into it briefly,
But no one will find you here, no one.
You will have changed before the poem will.
Even while you sit there, unmovable,
You have begun to vanish. And it does not matter.
The poem will go on without you.
It has the spurious glamor of certain voids.
It is not sad, really, only empty.
Once perhaps it was sad, no one knows why.
It prefers to remember nothing.
Nostalgias were peeled from it long ago.
Your type of beauty has no place here.
Night is the sky over this poem.
It is too black for stars.
And do not look for any illumination.
You neither can nor should understand what it means.
Listen, it comes without guitar,
Neither in rags nor any purple fashion.
And there is nothing in it to comfort you.
Close your eyes, yawn. It will be over soon.
You will forget the poem, but not before
It has forgotten you. And it does not matter.
It has been most beautiful in its erasures.
O bleached mirrors! Oceans of the drowned!
Nor is one silence equal to another.
And it does not matter what you think.
This poem is not addressed to you.
Copyright Credit: Donald Justice, "Poem [This poem is not addressed to you.]" from Collected Poems. Copyright © 2006 by Donald Justice
And Emily Dickinson:
I’m Nobody! Who are you?
I'm Nobody! Who are you?
Are you - Nobody - too?
Then there's a pair of us!
Dont tell! they'd banish us - you know!
How dreary - to be - Somebody!
How public - like a Frog -
To tell your name - the livelong June -
To an admiring Bog!
Source: The Poems of Emily Dickinson: Variorum Edition (The Belknap Press of Harvard University Press, 1998)
Awareness
of
Not-being
A christian
Awareness
of
Not-being
Someone wise
Nears
Both
With no
Movement
Paul insists that strict adherence to neither worldview can finally succeed because they don’t have the ability to “incorporate the negative,” which will always be present. He recognizes that the greatest enemy of ordinary daily goodness and joy is not imperfection, but the demand for some supposed perfection or order. There seems to be a shadow side to almost everything; all things are subject to “the principalities and powers” (Ephesians 6:12). Only the unitive or nondual mind can accept this and not panic; in fact, it will grow because of it, and even grow beyond it.
Neither a liberal pattern nor a conservative pattern can deal with disorder and misery. Paul believes that Jesus has revealed the only response that works. The revelation of the cross makes us indestructible, Paul says, because it reveals there is a way through all absurdity and tragedy. That way is precisely through accepting absurdity and tragedy, trusting that God can somehow use it for good. If we can internalize the mystery of the cross, we won’t fall into cynicism, failure, bitterness, or skepticism. The cross gives us a precise and profound way through the shadow side of life and through all disappointments.
https://cac.org/daily-meditations/the-mystery-of-the-cross/
It remains beyond me.
“[A]ccepting absurdity and tragedy, trusting that God can somehow use it for good” remains beyond me.
It could be right out of a Zen Buddhist teaching — “there is absurdity and tragedy, move through them with equanimity!”
Rationalization and logical inference positing God as supreme agent, befuddled by what the world has chosen, yet willing to transform the chosen hatred and cruelty into a beneficial outcome — does not bring me either emotional or intellectual comfort.
Baby, I've been here before
I know this room, I've walked this floor
I used to live alone before I knew yaAnd I've seen your flag on the marble arch
Love is not a victory march
It's a cold and it's a broken Hallelujah
I concede I am missing something.
I experience absurdity. I see tragedy.
My “thank you, Lord” is hard to come by.
Surely I am missing something.
It is as though, somewhere beyond all that is, someone is gathering up shards of broken vase and refashioning some loveliness not experienced before. As though some audience now nods heads and makes approving sounds as if some confident magician is performing an astonishing magic trick.
I’ll bite. Is that it?
I suspect many would frown at such impertinence.
Bad into good — an absurdist sleight of hand?
No, I suspect that centuries of theological exegesis have this topic covered six ways to Friday.
Good for them.
Some among us, like the woman who writes out of her pain and despair, live in the cold and broken with some fierce resolve and gritty continuance that never quite explains supernatural gratitude. I read her words, I see her blue canvas — I marvel.
What does it mean to say —“Lamb of God, who takes away the sins of the world, have mercy on us”?
What does it mean that the French monastery bells call me into something remarkably irresolute?
Particles of
moisture
Float in air
Outside barn
Late at night
Dog lays down
ground
silence
Two of his books that have been translated into English provide us with further metaphilosophical insight into Hadot: Philosophy as a Way of Life (initially published in French in 1981) and What Is Ancient Philosophy? (first published in French in 1995). The latter book is the smoother read, but the former is the more substantial contribution, consisting of a deeper account of Hadot’s particular philosophical themes.
Philosophy as a Way of Life explains that the goal of history is to structure an account of events from which conclusions can be drawn. In contrast to Michel Foucault – who advocates the ceaseless development of new readings of texts and events – Hadot believed that it is possible to understand the past once a sufficiently cogent account has been given of it. Yet the project of understanding the past remains incomplete, due to the faults of historians who have come before. As Hadot writes, “error was the result of bad exegetical mistranslation, and faulty understanding. Nowadays, however, historians seem to consider all exegetical thought as the result of mistakes or misunderstandings” (Philosophy as a Way of Life, trans. Michael Chase, p.74).
In an essay called ‘Spiritual Exercises’, Hadot connects ancient and more modern thinkers around the theme of reasoning in conjunction with living. Reading is not a departure from this central motif: “And yet we have forgotten how to read: how to pause, liberate ourselves from our worries, return into ourselves, and leave aside our search for subtlety and originality, in order to meditate calmly, ruminate, and let the texts speak to us” (p.109). Hadot’s anxiety about the crises of information, entertainment and advertising confronted by modern people represents a common thread with other philosophers, and his solution to this problem is to focus upon reading, upon thinking, upon living a well-reasoned life. Other contemporary thinkers working on similar issues include Derrida, Deleuze, Foucault, MacIntyre and Pirsig, to name just a handful; but it is no accident that, of all these philosophers, the one most focused upon maintaining and encouraging the practical application of philosophical thought is the one whose work is the most accessible.
(—in philosophy now) https://philosophynow.org/issues/113/Pierre_Hadot_1922-2010
If i were to pause any further i would be a rooted tree on a dry mountain in midcoast maine.
And the spiritual exercises of passing bird, hot sun, and needed rain would be my only companions.
Recluses are odd companions.
They know you’re there, feel your sound, yet still let you be unto yourself.
Friendship is the learning of shared solitude.
It’s a silly life
Run by silly people
I have no solution
No, no, no
Now then,
There will be
Soup for dinner
Yes? Of course, yes