Thursday, March 14, 2013

See what you say; say what you see: be spoken sight

How are we to understand the following sentence:
I    am    creating    God.

Who is speaking?

Who is
doing
what is
being
said?

Choose to see this differently.

Become the wording now!

Wednesday, March 13, 2013

Buona fortuna


Francis!
Francisco...
¡Felicidades!

Tuesday, March 12, 2013

Would only...

Epikeia. It is Greek. It translates, literally, as unassignable, uncountable. Aristotle, then Aquinas, considered it a virtue. Know the law, break the law; for a more universal good, a more important accomplishment, a kinder truth.









There's a pause on world stage.
All actors freeze in place.
A pope is under election.
Could there be any meaningful change?
Is the Christ-reality a vague moribund memory or a contemporary living force?

Could the scuttle-threatened empty barque on vast desolate sea be salvaged, re-timbered, sanded fine and put to use again to buoy hearts and spirits in once but now forgotten joy-in-truth, service, and retrieved love?
Does this transition matter?
Bakerwoman God
Bakerwoman God,
I am your living bread.
Strong, brown Bakerwoman God,
I am your low, soft, and being-shaped loaf.
 
I am your rising bread,
well-kneaded by some divine
and knotty pair of knuckles,
by your warm earth hands.
I am bread well-kneaded.
 
Put me in fire, Bakerwoman God,
put me in your own bright fire.
I am warm, warm as you from fire.
I am white and gold, soft and hard,
brown and round.
I am so warm from fire.
 
Break me, Bakerwoman God.
I am broken under your caring Word.
Drop me in your special juice in pieces.
Drop me in your blood.
Drunken me in the great red flood.
Self-giving chalice swallow me.
My skin shines in the divine wine.
My face is cup-covered and I drown.
 
I fall up
in a red pool
in a gold world
where your warm
sunskin hand
is there to catch
and hold me.
Bakerwoman God,
remake me.
 
(Poem by Alla Renee Bozarth, from, Womanpriest: A Personal Odyssey, Paulist Press 1978, rev. ed. Luramedia 1988, distributed by Wisdom House)
Would only. . .

Monday, March 11, 2013

At end

Joe-Pete stops by.

He's beginning anew.

Sounds right!

being, rolled away

We have, the song said, all been here before.

Yet, everything is happening for the first time.

As in the religious story: The stone is being rolled away. Many wish to say the resurrection was a once and forever historical event. Today, here, at this blink of awareness, the stone is "being" itself rolling away.

Rolling away what? From where?

History disappears.

There is only myth -- story -- which begins, "In the beginning..." and concludes, "Ever after."

But what if there really is only origin? And never conclusion? Only being itself? And that, withdrawing, dropping into emptiness? Would there be found each thing as itself?

The stone is, being, rolled away.

This life is a cave, a tomb to some, enclosing and stifling. Yet, to others, this life is a sunny breeze ascending a sweet mountain.

The mind of Christ is emptying itself. It is being emptied of all that is not itself, which is itself being emptied.

What remains?

What is there is what is here and everywhere.


Think of the resurrection as the kenotic (self-emptying) mind which is beyond birth and death.

Until such is our aware home-ground, we slog along, hastily, with busy hands, continuously readying our demise, toward our going, our being rolled away. 

We're meant to...go.

let it go - the
smashed word broken
open vow or
the oath cracked length
wise - let it go it
was sworn to
go
let them go - the
truthful liars and
the false fair friends
and the boths and
neithers - you must let them go they
were born
to go
let all go - the
big small middling
tall bigger really
the biggest and all
things - let all go
dear

so comes love


(~ e. e. cummings ~ Complete Poems 1904-1962) 

I have nowhere to go. Nothing to do. No-one to be.

So, what's my hurry? The season of careful looking is upon us.

Festina lente!
 
...   Note: 
[Festina lente or σπεῦδε βραδέως (speude bradeos) is a classical adage and oxymoron meaning "make haste slowly" or "more haste, less speed".]

Sunday, March 10, 2013

Oh...

There's not much time left.
What do you mean?
I mean, there's not much time left.
Something's going to end?
No, nothing's going to end.

What time will this occur?
No time left.
And...?
It's already happened.
I don't see anything different.

Exactly!

Saturday, March 09, 2013

to give up...illusions; to pluck the living flower

Here's what Karl Marx actually wrote:
The foundation of irreligious criticism is: Man makes religion, religion does not make man. Religion is, indeed, the self-consciousness and self-esteem of man who has either not yet won through to himself, or has already lost himself again. But man is no abstract being squatting outside the world. Man is the world of man – state, society. This state and this society produce religion, which is an inverted consciousness of the world, because they are an inverted world. Religion is the general theory of this world, its encyclopaedic compendium, its logic in popular form, its spiritual point d’honneur, its enthusiasm, its moral sanction, its solemn complement, and its universal basis of consolation and justification. It is the fantastic realization of the human essence since the human essence has not acquired any true reality. The struggle against religion is, therefore, indirectly the struggle against that world whose spiritual aroma is religion.  
Religious suffering is, at one and the same time, the expression of real suffering and a protest against real suffering. Religion is the sigh of the oppressed creature, the heart of a heartless world, and the soul of soulless conditions. It is the opium of the people.   
The abolition of religion as the illusory happiness of the people is the demand for their real happiness. To call on them to give up their illusions about their condition is to call on them to give up a condition that requires illusions. The criticism of religion is, therefore, in embryo, the criticism of that vale of tears of which religion is the halo. 
Criticism has plucked the imaginary flowers on the chain not in order that man shall continue to bear that chain without fantasy or consolation, but so that he shall throw off the chain and pluck the living flower.[1] 
^ Marx, K. 1976. Introduction to A Contribution to the Critique of Hegel’s Philosophy of RightCollected Works, v. 3. New York.1. 
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Opium_of_the_people#cite_note-1  
 Much deeper, I would say, that the oft-quoted epigrammatic dismissal.

stepping aside


Francis is taking his head out of the snow. It's about time. And time changes this weekend.

Lin Chi said the the shout is meant to break the idea in our head. It's a zen karate chop. Don't put forward the idea about the thing, present the thing itself.


I recall someone saying that not to judge is to know enlightenment. It is to be not burdened with the weight of discriminating and apportioning things and beings from their aseity.

Leave thing alone.

Leave beings alone.

Leave it all alone.

Don't be snowed. Empty a-head!

Friday, March 08, 2013

Koan


Why be

someone

who prays

Thursday, March 07, 2013

found in prayer


To pray is to commit to the inclusion of everything and everyone.

No one is excluded from authentic prayer. No one.

It's why prayer is rare. And feared by many. Who choose "Gimme, gimme" braying.


Prayer is the giving away of self. To be found in others. In everything.

Contemplation

In the middle of the night, I fall into your name.

Unpronounced. Because unknown.

Hearing nothing. Mere silence. Home.

Wednesday, March 06, 2013

Be common

You're not crazy.

You're unhappy.

There's a difference.



Tuesday, March 05, 2013

Streaming elsewhere

Hugo Chavez dies. Rest well!

Elsewhere -- more thinking than necessary. I respond to student:
Parent Post
"...you are stopping the cycle of life for that being."(CC)
...
Your post sent me thinking about Pierre Teilhard de Chardin,S.J., a paleontologist who thought wildly creatively. He had a theory about nature's suppression of the peduncle. In brief, something original (or originating, perhaps, like a fetus) if suppressed, finds its way through in another lifestream of emergence. What if we have become too black and white? What if an originating life is never finally eliminated, only suppressed and redirected into different opened path of birth? 
Would this (stretching the point, and reaching for a metaphor, I admit) be like telling someone that if they did not take our directions to a party they would not be invited? Or, if you do not marry your first sweetheart your life will be catastrophic? (Maybe sadder; but, maybe not.) 
You've introduced me to the notion that, eternally, there is no finality -- nor do things have to have the identity we think they should have. 
What I'm trying to think about here is the possibility that each aborted fetus remains unborn until such opportunity it re-enters the birthing-stream with its urge-to-birth and comes to term(s) with its new emergence. And is born. And lives. Until returning to the unborn through the portal we call death.
.
As Teilhard de Chardin writes:
Man is psychically distinguished from all other animals by the entirely new fact that he not only knows, but knows that he knows. In him, for the first time on earth, consciousness has coiled back upon itself to become thought. To an observer unaware of what it signifies, the event might at first seem to have little importance; but in fact it represents the complete resurgence of terrestrial life upon itself. In reflecting psychically upon itself Life made a new start.3 
Life's new start was momentous but not immediately noticeable. Indeed, like all other advances in evolution, this threshold disappears under the weight of the past.4 
I Ibid., p. I80.
2 Ibid., p. I65.
3 Pierre Teilhard de Chardin, The Future of Man, New York, I964, p. 293. 
4 Teilhard de Chardin, as an apologist for evolution, often makes reference to what he calls the suppression of the peduncles. At every critical stage, the earliest transitionary forms are the most fragile and vanish under the weight of history. This is true biologically even as it is technologically; where, he asks, are the very first buggies? Who was the first Greek or Roman? Cf. The Phenomenon of Man, pp. I20-I22. 
47 "Man came silently into the world," says Teilhard de Chardin.I We must not make the mistake of treating this remarkable new human being as something other than a part of nature. The same play of tangential and radial energy that brought into existence the first crystals, the first plants, the first animals, here brought to birth the first occurrence of mind. In short, humanity is a natural phenomenon, the latest of life's successive waves.2
http://www.memoireonline.com/02/10/3198/m_Panmobilism-and-optimism-in-teilhardian-humanism10.html
Nunc dimittis!

I am dismissed!

Monday, March 04, 2013

Dash

The affected retired corrections captain in Werner Herzog's 2011 documentary "Into the Abyss" spoke at film's end of living the dash. That's all he wants to do now. That dash between your date of birth and date of death on your tombstone.
He'd worked death row, escorted, strapped down, and witnessed over 125 executions in Texas prison. Now, after saying no more, he wants to watch the birds. "Hummingbirds...there's so many of them," he says.

Where else? When other?

Bangor, 12:39pm, wet snow.

A student writes about Ibsen's "An Enemy of the People":
"I think finding a random person who has that quality of contentedly doing the right thing even though it will cost you just about anything is hard to come by now of days." [sic]

I like the "now of days."

Doing the right thing is the only now.

And today is Monday.





Sunday, March 03, 2013

Con permesso

Unbeknownst, the Trappist monastery sends postcard for me to confirm Holy Week slot for stay/retreat. This was the year I was not planning to attend. Out of the so-called blue, with no request, the invitation. I guess it addresses the question: Who else will sit in the darkened side chapel at 3:30am to 4:45am listening (sleepily, emptily) to psalms and prayers and silence until faint rapping on wood signals end of zazen from cavernous stillness?
With That Moon Language 
(By Hafiz)
Admit something:
Everyone you see, you say to them, "Love me."
Of course you do not do this out loud, otherwise someone would call the cops.
Still, though, think about this, this great pull in us to connect.
Why not become the one who lives with a full moon in each eye
that is always saying,
with that sweet moon language,
what every other eye in this world is dying to hear?
It doesn't matter who becomes pope. It is the ones who walk in selfless recollection of true nature that enliven the kinship and connection of all beings.

All we can do is take one step then another with another quietly passing through the illusions woven by mind and mayhem until we come to see no one walking through no door before complete absence profoundly bowing in the instant to the radiant radical wholeness encapsulating no name in no place attended by nothing other than itself.

Incipio de novo in silentio infrequentia solitas incomitatus!
(Begin again, in scant silence, the solitude -- unfollowed, unaccompanied, alone!)
...
(Con permesso:
Scusa bastardo Latino -- Io nato, vano, interno Brooklyn, uno dei quartieri della città di New York.)

{With apologies to grammatists everywhere, especially ancient Rome and contemporary Italy!}







It is all -- always, and only -- about connection and relationship -- isn't it?

Saturday, March 02, 2013

Upon considering my net worth; nothing

Of course I'm naive.

I have no wisdom, experience, or judgment.

Wisdom suggests something that does not belong to earth. Experience believes there are objects to be experienced and a subject to experience. Judgment implies a calculating rational mind and a scale to analyze and evaluate.

Not me. Not here. Not now.

When I look at the foolish template of progress based on technical and economic advancement I can only look without understanding.

When I see any suffering ignored or deprivation manipulated I can only look without understanding.

Where to look?

I look into silence and mere connecting and I begin to see that there is a great mistake being made by myself, my brothers and my sisters.

We have forgotten what it means to be in the world together.

Money and power, progress and security, certainty and ideology -- these are coordinates of the mistake continually plotted.

"Look around," the quiet room says to me.

"Look within," the stillness whispers to me.

"Look out," the smiling monk glances without words.

Naïveté wanders the lane by itself; footprints following no pattern.

I am lost.

Only the empty everything surrounds, accompanying the no one along the pathless open.

There is no way for me.

No way out, no way within, no way around.

Friday, March 01, 2013

generous koan; cheerful contemplative realism


In America Magazine this week, an intelligent and thought-provoking article:

The Shape of the Church to Come, by James Hanvey S.J.  -- Reflections on where we are going.   http://americamagazine.org/issue/article/shape-church-come#comment-58170 


As light snow falls and painful back slowly returns to functional capability, soft-boiled egg settles into strained mid-section, accompanied by green tea with honey and ginseng, I send a response comment:
From a similar darkened, hidden, and discarded place James Hanvey refers to, I read his article with reluctant cheer. I have so wanted to feel part of the community dear to my history and heart, the Catholic Church, but it has been remarkably difficult in the interstice between the Aggiornamento of the early 1960s and the Absurdity, (read: ridiculously incongruous or unreasonableness), of Church governance and awkward theology in this nascent 21st century. 
Augustine recollecting the angel's words, “Why seek the living among the dead?” -- might have been a converting impetus for him, but resonates today as a departing trope for the disaffected leaving the empty tomb of Jesus and empty seat of Peter for more reasonable, accepting, and compassionate spiritual environs.
That said, I agree with the template of acknowledging desolation, moving through new sensibility, and standing at the unknown but heuristic emergence of a self which is willing to incorporate the mystery, mysticism, and mindful awareness of what is coming to be unconcealed. 
The catch, and it is an important one, is that this emergence, this Christ-Minding and kenotic resignation might not need the ancient structure and archaic mindset of our hierarchical prelatry. 
A Trappist monk once said to me: “Cheer up, Bill, things are only going to get worse!” It was a generous koan he offered me from the depths of his cheerful contemplative realism.
Hence, the abandoning exodus of the faithful to other horizons, where similar experiences of desolation, revived sensibility, and prayerful emergence will, no doubt, recur. But the experience, tried and suffered, will be without the heavy burden of disappointment that is an unhearing institution -- a weight disturbing enough to extend the stations of the cross and innumerable fallings of the suffering servant beyond their typical end.
Still, I remain, poised and open, in the dark.
...

Birds in cedar tree snowy branches are audienced by Panta Rhea at window. Then she turns her attention to more immediate, accessible options.














As do we all.

Then, say it...


Ευχαριστώ!

It's the right thing to say.


Thursday, February 28, 2013

Vatican vacancy; a long while

Now that Peter's seat is vacant, a recent New Yorker poem seems timely:

TAKING A WALK IN THE WOODS AFTER HAVING TAKEN
A WALK IN THE WOODS WITH YOU

Now I cannot not see
the blight everywhere

                                          (--Poem by Maureen N. McLane)


It is the pause, like Camus' Sisyphus as rock rolls downhill, and before beginning the shoving labor uphill again, it is the pause . . . wherein wonder arises.

Non habemus papam

Arrivederci Papa!

May what follows assist light in the world!

Wednesday, February 27, 2013

Being me what is not available

Young woman in Maryland has another spinal fusion. She is weary of her many surgeries.

Class cancelled tonight; snow, sleet, rain.

Physical fragility visits this front room. Cars barely make hill outside. Liquids.

The world becomes encrypted. No one knows the code. It is random, unstable, and with no extant key to unlock.

Welcome to technical being!

Would you like to sign in?

Tuesday, February 26, 2013

weary; traveling


Where we come from appears once we've been there.




Where we are going is sometimes scouted by members of our animal family.



We walk, appearing our presence, no trace of us before us, following tracks. 



Sometimes, there's no place to go.

Monday, February 25, 2013

Over-looking winter harbor on mount desert island

Being, says Heidegger, withdraws from us.

Technology makes things available to us.

Thinking looks to what is beyond us, beyond the graspable.

Thought captures what we know and, invariably, freezes it.

Poetry gives us, in words, what we cannot have. It creates a longing and insight, saying, "Look!" The trace of what is beyond it is intuited; the unnaming following loss enters silently. Uselessness, a sacrifice of words to unknowing nearness, twilights a fullness of holiness for each at hand.

Listening to Heidegger conversation.

Light, I am; of the world, compose a new way of being

Robert Lowell in his poem "Epilogue" wrote: "All's misalliance. / Yet why not say what happened?"

It's what Camus said of Sisyphus and what survivors say of war. The fatal casualties of war say nothing.

We have to find an earlier creative voice -- learn to become poets of life, and peace, and human service -- a preemptive sound antidote to the absurdity of war.

Sunday, February 24, 2013

hay in field, hole in ground; moving through experience, seeing oneself here


We try to avoid what will accompany us through.

We are being conveyed and carried. It's ok not to know where we are going. It's good enough to realize we are here.
Epochs of great confusion and general uncertainty in a given world contain the slumbering, not-yet-manifest seeds of clarity and certainty. The manifestations of the aperspectival world... show that these seeds are already pressing toward realization. This means that we are approaching the "zenith" of confusion and are thus nearing the necessary breakthrough.
(--Jean Gebser, 1953; The Ever-Present Origin)
Driving as child with parents the roads before Catskills turning to Delaware River above Port Jervis, Shohola, Barryville, Callicoon. Hay fields through northern New Jersey ringed with wire fence or split rail. Cows loll afternoon laze near lone tree far from road.

Pastures in Brooklyn were different. Rusting iron with pointed tops circle brick building, trucks parked like civilian armory transports, empty weekend factories. Walls with squares, strike zone for stickball, fast pitching in white paint, 'Strike! You are out!' Stand ready.

I went heying in city streets. "Hey, Bobby! Hey Joey! Hey Geraldine!" To the schoolyard, sandlot, sewers in center of asphalt streets; punchball, touch football, bounce stickball. Our liturgy of experience!

Bundled papers bicycle delivery as cloth man's harnessed nag clopped down bay ridge avenue grandfather cupping Chesterfield at front green fence by maple tree.

Later great hole in wall led to walking out of church. Falling through hole in ground.

Walking into great whole as partial falls away. Feeling no partiality as awareness, plena gratia, embraces all, gazes with compassion. The whole watches you tumble with nothing to hold -- you fall, falling through all you think will buoy you up. Thought doesn't. Nor dogma. Neither constriction. Not anything -- but love seeing us through.


I loved the quiet of the unknown. Now I love the silence of unknowing.

All around are purveyors of certainty and security. They do not interest me.

From early years it has been the unseen unheard unexplainable presence without shape or form. No definition, no explanation, no reasonable proof moves my curiosity -- rather, magnetic dissonance turns me around, dizzying, looking up: unfathomable distance of enormous space; looking down: unquenchable delicious nearness of brown earth under white snow.

God is Being Itself.

Being seen through.

Are you yourself?

Am I myself?

Do we see God? Believe in God? Touch the wounds of each and every being? Thing? Idea? Experience?


Gaze and blink. It's all here, no matter what we think.

This snowy morning in Maine!

Saturday, February 23, 2013

Think of the Via Crucis as entering and departing separation


I listen to lectures on Martin Heidegger while inputting numbers in bookshed all afternoon. In 1969 I studied with John Macquarrie on Being and Time at Union Theological in NYC. I was hooked then. Still being pulled aboard four decades later.
Dr. Macquarrie wrote about two dozen books. Reviewing one, “Paths in Spirituality,” for The New York Times Book Review in 1972, Nash K. Burger wrote that “unlike some modern theologians, John Macquarrie writes about God as though he believes in him.”
The God in which Dr. Macquarrie believed was Being itself, a definition that to him made it meaningless to suggest that God was dead or did not exist. In this, he adopted aspects of Heidegger’s search for the meaning of being, although he eschewed Heidegger’s pro-Nazi views.
Dr. Macquarrie wrote that all language about God was symbolic and not to be taken literally. But it must be taken seriously. To him, what separated believers from nonbelievers was that believers had experienced the revelation that the creation and its existence are good.
“Faith’s name for reality is God,” Dr. Macquarrie wrote in “Paths in Spirituality.”
(from obituary, "Rev. John Macquarrie, 87, Scottish Theologian, Dies,"), by Douglas Martin, published June 3, 2007, New York Times)
 God as Being itself. That must have been ground zero for theological preference and philosophical intuition.

I order another hardcover of Zein Und Zeit. Mine is boxed away somewhere. Besides, some kindred mind might wish to break on it someday.

It's not everyday the core of thought collapses at your feet.


Or the Open reveals itself as empty and promising project.

Friday, February 22, 2013

Would you like another? No thanks. Not even the one.


No one can help him. He's alone. There's no place for him to go.
I crossed seas and rivers, climbed mountains, and
Forded streams in order to interview the masters,
To inquire after Truth,
To delve into the secrets of Zen;
And ever since I was enabled to recognize the path.
I knew that birth and death are not
The things I have to be concerned with.
For walking is Zen,
Sitting is Zen,
Whether talking or remaining silent,
Whether moving or standing quiet,
The Essence itself is ever at ease;
Even when greeted with swords and spears,
It never loses its quiet way,
And all that befalls cannot perturb its serenity.
- Yoko Daishi
I knew a drunk who never stopped being a drunk. He's a sober drunk. He just got tired of lying.

Thursday, February 21, 2013

Seeing myself doing what my self cannot see

Another you? In a parallel life, another you?
When the thinking mind takes a break for even a few seconds, a kind of relaxed awareness replaces the usual stream of thoughts. We need to encourage this and not fill this space with anything else; just let it be.
- Tsultrim Allione, "Feeding Your Demons"
It's not esoteric.

Only recognition there is awareness behind action, seemingly separate from it.

The act goes by.

You remain.

Without doing anything.

Just aware you are doing and not doing anything.

Tricky, eh?

Wednesday, February 20, 2013

When distance does not appear as measurement


Maggie dies.

Margaret Ray Eddy
December 17, 1920 - February 18, 2013 
Good journey Maggie! We have been so fond of your and Walt's many year participation in Poetry, Tea, and Thee at Quarry Hill. Your kindly spirit and keen listening gave the gatherings a deeper feel for the words everyone read. To Walt and the family: our gratitude for Maggie! Continue well in her memory!
Soon, a few feel, there will be no death.

I wonder.

Camden to Fort Kent to Presque Isle to Camden. Three days, 600 miles.

How far do you travel, dear Maggie?

Tuesday, February 19, 2013

Free the worms!


Glorious day in Fort Kent. We have to depart early for Presque Isle. Ten to twelve inches of snow will begin this evening.

I'm concerned for the worms.



Walking with Rokie earlier this morning at UMFK, this sign. I don't feel it is fair to worms that they cannot dig in the earth. The sign excludes no one else. They must have had difficulty with overachieving worms in the neighborhood. Another man-made rule.

I can see the worms carrying signs quoting Psalm 22:6, King James Version (KJV):
But I am a worm, and no man; a reproach of men, and despised of the people.

No doubt, Obama had something to do with this. Get me the Republicans on the line. Just one more thing!

Where are you; going

Route 11 to Fort Kent. White out blowing snow across roadway. We walk campus for evening stroll.

In room we watch the debacle a decade ago leading up to Iraq war. Such a sad and distorting group of  bellicose prevaricators! It is astounding no one answers to war crimes.

Is awareness disappearing? Is opening presence the horizon? Will our ignorance be penetrated?

Father, Son, Spirit.

Mother, Daughter, Spirit.

Metaphors all.

Take us beyond ourselves!

Sunday, February 17, 2013

A human being is the universe seeing itself.

Dark matter, the space scientist said, is like love.

At table someone quoted an astronomer saying that God is the boundary of the unknown.

Someday we'll learn about both.

Love; the unknown.

It is a very very huge canvas.

Step back; look carefully.

Saturday, February 16, 2013

Curiosity skills our at...tempt bypassing death

The bald doctor feels he is healed even if the cure lags behind. It's the same phrasing a woman named Anita Moorjani uses to describe her return from near death coma and advanced cancer.

I listen to REM's "Everybody Hurts." I wonder how it is I'd never heard the song in the 20plus years it has been around. I send it to a young woman in Maryland coming through her second spinal surgery.

Bells chime in strong wind snow laden.

The futurist Kurzweil thinks he will live without dying. The cusp is at hand. Death thou shalt die.

I don't know.

Maggie is nearing death. We chanted a farewell yesterday to her worn and weary body. Her husband and two sons were in the room as we arrived and left. Walt is stricken. After 72 years together.

As curious as curious is
life is
just so
curious.

Friday, February 15, 2013

with only their faces showing

Statistics are faceless.

Here are faces that remind us life is personal.

Politics draws us away from human feeling.

Can you experience the feeling? The sorrow, the anger, the innocence, and the importance of paying attention?
Palestinian Funeral Shot Earns Award for Photographer                                               
Details Published on Friday, 15 February 2013 14:03


HENSEN'S WINNING PHOTO (COURTESY OF: AFP)

by Associated Press 
Swedish photographer Paul Hansen won the 2012 World Press Photo award Friday for newspaper Dagens Nyheter with a picture of two Palestinian children killed in an Israeli missile strike being carried to their funeral. 
The picture shows a group of men marching the dead bodies through a narrow street in Gaza. The victims, a brother and sister, are wrapped in white cloth with only their faces showing. 
"The strength of the pictures lies in the way it contrasts the anger and sorrow of the adults with the innocence of the children," said jury member Mayu Mohanna of Peru. "It's a picture I will not forget." 
Hansen's Nov. 20 shot won top prize in both the spot news single photograph category and the overall competition. It portrays 2-year-old Suhaib Hijazi and her 3-year-old brother Muhammad, who were killed when their house was destroyed by the Israeli attack. They are being carried by grieving uncles, as their father Fouad was also killed, and his body can be seen in the background of the picture. 
The children's mother, whose name was not provided, was in intensive care. 
"This prize is the highest honor you can get in the profession," Hansen told The Associated Press. "I'm very happy, but also very sad. The family lost two children and the mother is unconscious in a hospital." 
(from, Palestine News Network: http://english.pnn.ps/index.php/culture/3938-palestinian-funeral-shot-earns-award-for-photographer)
I'm trying to.

I feel it.

I can.

Thursday, February 14, 2013

Je t'aime...


Love, they say, is what this day is about.

That's a nice thought.

Wednesday, February 13, 2013

Consciousness with disappearance is born nature; awareness as opening presence is unborn nature

And if I did have anything to say, I would say it in the wind.

"And God said
Prophesy to the wind, to the wind only for only
The wind will listen."
(--from poem, Ash Wednesday, by T.S. Eliot)

But I have nothing.

Except this: Awareness is consciousness with disappearance into opening presence.

Tuesday, February 12, 2013

Some facts are out of the question


One man speaks to the nation. Another kills one more person in California then burns to death after shot heard in cabin hideaway. Armies kill thousands, sharpshooters hundreds. No equivalency. No moral. Just facts.

Whistleblower or liar? The Los Angeles police department will reckon their losses.

Nobel peace exemplar or high tech hit man to all perceived enemies? Power is so overt.

Facts are not dreams.

Dreams 
Hold fast to dreams
For if dreams die
Life is a broken-winged bird
That cannot fly.
Hold fast to dreams
For when dreams go
Life is a barren field
Frozen with snow.

(Poem by Langston Hughes)
What is attractive about facts is their reluctance, of themselves, to wear disguises.

But in the hands of authorities and potentates they seldom ever resemble themselves.

Fires burn out.

Rhetoric cools.

The wrong of any injustice, however, smolders.


Any questions?

A child is born to Nicholas and Alexandra near Washington, D.C.

здоровье для всех! (Health to all!)
Добро пожаловать! (Welcome!)

Monday, February 11, 2013

on hearing the news the Pope will step down


Va bene!

It is time to go. What mysterious grace will be at work in the election of what comes next?

Perhaps an innovation.

Maybe a triadic revelation will overcome the catholic church.

From trinity to triadic inspiration: we will elect a cleric, a religious, and a layperson -- one of whom must be a woman.

These three will begin a new thing, and scripture will concur: "See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it?" (Isaiah 43:19)


Come Holy Spirit, and renew our faith in what is of God with us!

Sunday, February 10, 2013

Edges falling upon everything

Sun on trees morning after storm. Nothing has changed. Russian State Symphony Cappella sings Fervent Supplication from Rachmaninov's Liturgy of St. John Chrysostom, Op. 31.


And the nothing that has not changed? The listening. The quiet stillness where breath finds no one there to impede passage from one mountain to another mountain. Breath is wavering shadow of cedar branch on white pillow, sketch canvas of appearance, a solitary showing, brief display, fleeting glimpse of artist's impression, ah! The kindness of evanescent duration!

Does the hand know it is a hand? Does the chair know it is a chair? No! It is thinking/naming that says so. So, in the absence of thinking, where is the hand and chair? They are nowhere to be found.
...
Only consciousness is ever truly present, knowing and being itself eternally, taking the shape of sensing, perceiving and thinking but never being or becoming anything other than itself. The presence of all seeming things properly belongs to consciousness alone.

(--Rupert Spira, p.184, in Presence, The Intimacy of All Experience, Vol II, c.2011)
The two people in their car during blizzard found both warmth and death. Seeking one the other slipped into back seat to sit awhile with them taking shelter from digging out.

The Catholic Church reminded the faithful that it need not be a serious sin if egregious circumstances keep them from attending mass this Sunday.

Toboggan racers cram snow bowl to compact into one day what blizzard shortened from two.

There will be coffee.

Prayer comes first.

Then shoveling.

I cannot imagine any longer what resembled understanding back when fear and longing for anything other than what is here now presenting itself would drive headlong from despair to desperation. A time without shoveling, prayer, or coffee.

What do you want from this cajoling appearance we call our lives? If we look around we see, like Stevens' blackbird:

Thirteen Ways of Looking at a Blackbird
(By Wallace Stevens) 
Among twenty snowy mountains,
The only moving thing
Was the eye of the blackbird. 
II 
I was of three minds,
Like a tree
In which there are three blackbirds. 
III 
The blackbird whirled in the autumn winds.
It was a small part of the pantomime. 
IV 
A man and a woman
Are one.
A man and a woman and a blackbird
Are one. 
I do not know which to prefer,
The beauty of inflections
Or the beauty of innuendoes,
The blackbird whistling
Or just after. 
VI 
Icicles filled the long window
With barbaric glass.
The shadow of the blackbird
Crossed it, to and fro.
The mood
Traced in the shadow
An indecipherable cause. 
VII 
O thin men of Haddam,
Why do you imagine golden birds?
Do you not see how the blackbird
Walks around the feet
Of the women about you? 
VIII 
I know noble accents
And lucid, inescapable rhythms;
But I know, too,
That the blackbird is involved
In what I know. 
IX 
When the blackbird flew out of sight,
It marked the edge
Of one of many circles. 
At the sight of blackbirds
Flying in a green light,
Even the bawds of euphony
Would cry out sharply. 
XI 
He rode over Connecticut
In a glass coach.
Once, a fear pierced him,
In that he mistook
The shadow of his equipage
For blackbirds. 
XII 
The river is moving.
The blackbird must be flying. 
XIII 
It was evening all afternoon.
It was snowing
And it was going to snow.
The blackbird sat
In the cedar-limbs.
It is stanza nine (IX) that rivets my attention. The edge. Even as it gives way to circles beyond itself. The never-ending going there, flying through edges no longer edges.

The light has moved from pillow-canvas.

For now.

Until the nothing that it is gives itself to next our awareness wherever consciousness sketches itself within what calls itself into change and nothing but your loving gaze falling upon everything.





Saturday, February 09, 2013

Dialogue, Saturday Afternoon

Buddha: Think it's enough?
Christ: Don't think, feel.
Buddha: Feel it's enough?
Christ: Nothing is enough.
Samuel Beckett: Would you two please take this conversation somewhere else. I'm waiting in this chair for anything to become clear.
Buddha: (to Christ) Did you hear that?
Christ: (looking around; says nothing)
Beckett: hmm...Looks like snow.
Christ: That's clear.
Buddha: I could loan him my hat.

Exitus. Nihil reliqui. Tantum vox manet.

Litany flake

For shelter,
For warmth,
For food,
For companionship, animal and human...
For giving.



Nothing, but
gratefulness!

Friday, February 08, 2013

Blowing

Snow.

A lot of it.

Thursday, February 07, 2013

Leaving with no sense of return

Hijra, departure.

It is when we leave who we think we are. The narrative takes a turn. We stay to hear the words. A storm is coming. Maine, February. Too seldom, snow.

Cars go up Barnestown Road. Pickups with plows, like cats at dinnertime, keen with anticipation. Single white birch at road into horse barn across way.

Sloth, slow-moving into afternoon, a seldom solitude, hermit's paradox.

When the poet's words are roadmaps of feeling.

To a new country.

Tuesday, February 05, 2013

the next word you speak will become the world


He was saying that poets say the world before it (whatever "it" is) becomes the world.

How can you say something before it comes to be?

Peace.

True and no bullshit peace. 

Monday, February 04, 2013

What is beyond god

If god is all there is, what is beyond god?

Perhaps, we might say, nothing.

Here.

Here is gone beyond there.

There is nothing here.

Here is nothing there.

Crucified there returns here.

Someone asks: Where are you?

No one responds: I am here.

And thus, what is beyond god?

Nothing, no?

Know this...

Yes!





Sunday, February 03, 2013

no holding


Zazen is not football.

It touches down to earth.

With nothing to gain.

Only loss.