Saturday, February 21, 2026

“being”

 Is

Everything

Listened

To

mindfulness and silence

 Is

Being

Listened

To

correspondence

 Is

Being

Listened

To

conversation

 Is

Being

Listened

To

contemplation

 Is

Being

Listened

To

Friday, February 20, 2026

community

 Is

Being


Listened

To

leave that place

 Right there

in transparent yellow prayer flag

ascent from hades

getting the hell out of there


Christmas circle

stepping into Lent

the expanse of birth

death and beyond

even the gipper will see through tears

 Yes. We have

No integrity

In White House


None in department

of justice, homeland

Security, commerce.


Treasury, national

Intelligence, hhs,

Anywhere he touches —


We are bereft

Legs crushed

Under rubble


Spirits deeply

Wounded, minds

Shattered glass —


But not defeated

Stunned, but 

Not defeated —


Someone nears

Will head-butt

Smug face, cuff


Hands behind back

Frog-walk through

Debris of lies


A broken yet brave

Revival of decency

Erasing smirk and snarl —


Why not believe in

Such an outcome

Taking back the flag


The trust in truth

Unlocking front doors —

Mourning in America 

Thursday, February 19, 2026

looming extolling

 I’ve taken up

broom strolling


given up

doom scrolling


happy to sweep

away absurd people


to praise what appears

to extoll lingering grace

get free

 Disregulation

Brrrr

Quick

Hold me


Stop me

From shaking

(Thanks Mandy)

We need to


Close ambiguous

Grief (thanks

Brianna)

We need


To learn

To breathe

Again

Yes, so much


Insanity —

It’s their

Depraved

Abnormality


Not yours —

Get free

hashem

      Hashem (Hebrew: הַשֵּׁם⁩‎ haššēm, literally "the name"; often abbreviated to ה׳‎ [h′]) is a title used in Judaism to refer to God.  -Wikipedia

Dementia

Nothing going on


I’ve forgotten

Your name


That makes sense

Late for introductions


Let me just give you

What I don’t have


Your name

Fully pronounced

el flujo no cambia, solo distribuye una vista.

 If there is only God

what is it we experience

that seems so not God?


These men and women

so seemingly not God

seem to run the world


But if there is only God

what are we experiencing --

the not God -- if not evil


(profoundly immoral and 

wicked) -- those living

illusory, self-obsessed lives;


this time of lent and ramadan

the invitation of One and One

Alone -- losing what-is-not


for 

what-is-

good

'tawhid' (توحيد)

 I awake at 2AM with the word “Tawhid” being pronounced in mind.

Tawhid,[a][b] literally "to unite" or "to make one"[2], refers to the principle of monotheism in Islam.[3] It is the religion's central and single most important concept, upon which a Muslim's entire religious adherence rests. It unequivocally holds that God is indivisibly one (ahad) and single (wahid).[4][5]

Tawhid constitutes the foremost article of the Muslim profession of submission.[6] The first part of the Islamic declaration of faith (shahada) is the declaration of belief in the oneness of God.[4] To attribute divinity to anything or anyone else, is considered shirk, which is an unpardonable sin unless repented afterwards, according to the Qur'an.[7][8] Muslims believe that the entirety of the Islamic teaching rests on the principle of tawhid.[9]

From an Islamic standpoint, there is an uncompromising nondualism at the heart of the Islamic beliefs (aqida) that is seen as distinguishing Islam from other major religions.[10]

The Quran teaches the existence of a single and absolute truth that transcends the world, a unique, independent and indivisible being that is independent of all of creation.[11]God, according to Islam, is a universal God, rather than a local, tribal or parochial one and is an absolute that integrates all affirmative values.[7]

Islamic intellectual history can be understood as a gradual unfolding of the manner in which successive generations of believers have understood the meaning and implications of professing tawhid. Islamic scholars have different approaches toward understanding it. Islamic scholastic theologyjurisprudencephilosophySufism, and even the Islamic understanding of natural sciences to some degree, all seek to explain at some level the principle of tawhid.[12]

Chapter 112 of the Qur'an, titled al-Ikhlas, reads:

 
 قُلْ هُوَ ٱللَّهُ أَحَدٌۭ 
 ٱللَّهُ ٱلصَّمَدُ 
 لَمْ يَلِدْ وَلَمْ يُولَدْ 
 وَلَمْ يَكُن لَّهُۥ كُفُوًۭا أَحَدٌۭ 
 

Translation:

 
 "Say, He is Allah—One; 
 Allah—the Sustainer. 
 He has never had offspring, nor was He born. 
 And there is none comparable to Him."

Etymology

The word 'tawhid' (توحيد), which means "He asserted, or declared, God to be one", is derived from the Arabic root 'wahhada' (واحدة), which means "to unite" or "to make one".[2][13] This term signifies the belief in absolute oneness and uniqueness of God.[14] This reflects the struggle of monotheism against polytheism.[15][16]

—wikipedia 

 It must be the hovering spirit of Ramadan come visiting.

Elsewise. . .

My mouth hurts. I look forward to its not hurting.

On the other hand, it’s only pain.

Fresh air through open window pleases.

Wednesday, February 18, 2026

because i know i shall not know

making an ash of myself

burning down old edifice 


you ask if God cares 

about renunciation


I say I don’t think so

God is non-attachment


nothing there

to hang anything on


everything has fallen away

if anything other than 


our projections were ever

attached to God -- no, you


can’t care for what is not there

only for what is


wood stove ashes of trees gone by

from bowl to finger to forehead


some words improvised 

the touch, recollection


former formal times liturgical

now impromptu passing touch


all the mountain trees standing

in snow, glad, in sun, letting go


into glad beings hiking with ski poles

dog burying face, staring, listening


this rejection of belief, claim, course

of action, right, title, contract, obligation


all gone to ash

gone to momento mori


this flagrant non-attachment

ground scattered with pale gray ash


remembering to forget it all

one instant through another

seven dogs, three cats

 I bow

At tree

With cross


Four-leggeds

Cemetery by

Brook bridge


Poke brass bell

Butterflying from 

Branch, liturgy


Under snow under

Ground, they are

Imagination’s nave


Once they crossed

Double waters up

To spinnaker's Ragged


Climb, mountain

Backyard, the joy

Companioning hikes


Broken bench

Broken plastic chairs —

Unbroken “Peace” aloft

Tuesday, February 17, 2026

finding of fact

 No space

No time


Space is time

As time is space


Forget allegory

Find fact

it feels and presents them—nothing more

 Listening to Will Durant writing about Benedetto Croce (1866-1952) while walking island path up toward spinnaker on lovely snow-deep Ragged Mountain this afternoon with Enso the good dog.

3. What is Beauty?

Croce came to philosophy from historical and literary studies; and it was natural that his philosophic interest should be deeply colored by the problems of criticism and esthetics. His greatest book is his Esthetic (1902). He prefers art to metaphysics and to science: the sciences give us utility but the arts give us beauty; the sciences take us away from the individual and the actual, into a world of increasingly mathematical abstractions, until (as in Einstein) they issue in momentous conclusions of no practical importance; but art takes us directly to the particular person and the unique fact, to the philosophical universal intuited in the form of the concrete individual. “Knowledge has two forms: it is either intuitive knowledge or logical knowledge; knowledge obtained through the imagination or knowledge obtained through the intellect; knowledge of the individual or knowledge of the universal; of individual things or of the relations between them; it is the production either of images or of concepts.” The origin of art, therefore, lies in the power of forming images. “Art is ruled uniquely by the imagination, Images are its only wealth. It does not classify objects, it does not pronounce them real or imaginary, does not qualify them, does not define them; it feels and presents them—nothing more.” Because imagination precedes thought, and is necessary to it, the artistic, or image-forming activity of the mind is prior to the logical, concept-forming, activity. Man is an artist as soon as he imagines, and long before he reasons.

Croce prefers art to metaphysics and to science: the sciences give us utility but the arts give us beauty. The origin of art lies in the power of forming images and not concepts. The image-forming activity of the mind is prior to the logical, concept-forming, activity.

The great artists understood the matter so. “One paints not with the hands but with the brain,” said Michelangelo; and Leonardo wrote: “The minds of men of lofty genius are most active in invention when they are doing the least external work.” Everybody knows the story told of da Vinci, that when he was painting the “Last Supper,” he sorely displeased the Abbot who had ordered the work, by sitting motionless for days before an untouched canvas; and revenged himself for the importunate Abbot’s persistent query—When would he begin to work?—by using the gentleman as an unconscious model for the figure of Judas.  
(-- from Chapter X Section 2.3 from the book THE STORY OF PHILOSOPHY by WILL DURANT. The  contents are from the 1933 reprint)

Seems right -- to feel and present. 

No rational argument. No calculated or conditioned elaboration of a point of view intended to overwhelm someone’s conclusions to correspond with your slant of persuasion.

Rather, to feel and present. 

To intuit the whole of one’s life and past while navigating the moments and molecules of a quietly passing geography of now.

We are artists until we think we should be something else, do something else to justify our existence in the eyes of mechanical pragmatic witnesses. And then we grow old. A nostalgia for the person we always were overwhelms us. Maybe resentment. Perhaps blame. A spate of what could have been.

Forget about it!

Feel now.

Present now.

You are the blank page, the empty canvas, the mute flute, the silent spacious vista, the deep inner space, the cavernous dance floor.

Go ahead...there’s nothing more to think about. 

out for the count

 in prison yesterday

wondering if Jesus 


has any juice in

world today


man thinks yes

calls it ‘within christianity’


no regalia, ritual, title --

just the feel of faith inside


looking out at the unfeeling 

structures and politics


those wanting to use the christ

for their portfolio, their resumé


he feels what he says, makes no

big claims, no triumphal BS


scratches his service dog-in-training

with her mohawk ridge on head


in library federal holiday Monday

talking as respecting conversationalists


as our lives pass one another

pausing in fond inquiry together 

¿puedes ver lo que yo veo?

Jackson, Duvall, Jurgensen

these deaths


civil rights leader, actor,

quarterback


Jesse, Robert,

Sonny


 close their eyes

 rest their eyes


no longer needing

to see what we see

downsliding february toward march

To think we matter

Else, why think


If we don’t think

It doesn’t matter


Some say thought

Builds the world


Others just look at you

Mindless 
 

As these days

Pass without thought


I cannot find 
 
A world to dwell in 
 

Hanging on to eaves

A melting icicle


The hard cold respite

Dripping each disappearance 

bon, nuit

 good

knows no

night


“good night”


night 

knows only

good

Monday, February 16, 2026

i’m glad for you vickor frankl

 I find myself absurd

Whatever you think,

No need to think well of me


No one cares 

Excepting one who cares

Whatever their name


I breathe in

I breathe out

Absurdly 

is me

 Gordon Lightfoot’s first verse could be about dementia, the ghosting mind.

If you could read my mind, love

What a tale my thoughts could tell

Just like an old time movie

'Bout a ghost from a wishin' well

In a castle dark or a fortress strong

With chains upon my feet

You know that ghost is me

And I will never be set free

As long as I'm a ghost, you can't see

(—from  If You Could Read My Mind, Song by Gordon Lightfoot ‧ 1970)

As we disappear.

Mind staying inside itself.

Hauntingly.

there’s no need to prolong this conversation

 do you want to know who I am?

        yes, who are you?


I don’t know.

        oh, well, then . .  .


do you still want to know who I am?

        no, no longer.


good, then that’s settled.

        on second thought, who are you?


I am, I am, (oh dear) I don’t know . . .

        right! thank you! thank you!

Sunday, February 15, 2026

get me a map

 I’m thinking

Of becoming

An American


Does anyone

Know where

America is?

how do you get to carnegie hall

 just because they

are hateful


doesn’t change

loving care


it does make 

love 


something 

to practice


so, do so --

practice love


hate doesn’t know

what to do


with

love

prolixity, 864,500 (all those thousands of miles) diameter in frozen slice of water

 Some bird calls

Two and two and two


As our sun-star clings

To icicle off eaves


Non-local 93 million 

Miles and inches


Outside morning window

Behind bamboo shade


While riding road through

Shudder breeze climbing sluice


Up toward Hope this Sunday 

Between Ragged and Bald

second-hand sweeping ‘round

 When I sat

With the dying


It occurred to me

How little it mattered


What anybody

Thought


So I didn’t —

Think


Just sat

Empty-minded


As one would

Watch finch


At feeder

Drop seed shell


And sometimes

Seed itself

you unlearn something every day

 Who knew?

Psychology says the reason older people stop caring isn’t apathy—

it’s actually the highest form of self-awareness

Who cares?

How ‘bout that?

Saturday, February 14, 2026

cold hands

 Itchy

Itchy


Sleepy

Sleepy


Nite

Nite

there

 We talked about non-local consciousness at Friday evening conversation. About Tonglen, taking in and sending out. About participation in freeing and releasing what is stuck and unknowingly captive within ignorance. 

What does shuchi mean in Sanskrit?

Meaning of Shuchi

The name comes from the Sanskrit word (शुचि) means - "clean; pure; white; shining; radiant; innocent; holy" 1. (from Wisdom Library)

We wondered how, in a world of interpenetrative inter-being, one can remain free and non-attached while assisting the carrying out of liberating release in the presence of a suffering being. 

What wisdom is necessary?

           7. Practicing Wisdom – Shuchi’e

The seventh quality is to embody the wisdom of liberation from one’s attachments --shuchi’e. Realization based on hearing the teaching of buddhadharma and contemplating and practicing it is wisdom.

The Buddha said, “Monks, if you have wisdom, you will never become greedy. You must constantly reflect on yourself and never allow the loss of wisdom. That is how you will be liberated through dharma. One who does not act like that cannot be said to be a person of the Way. Nor can such a person be called a lay follower either. There is no name for one who does not carry out wisdom.

“True wisdom, like a strong and durable boat, will ferry you and others across the sea of sickness, old age, and death. It is like a brilliant lamp that lights up ignorance and darkness. It is medicinal for all who are sick and infirm. It is like cutting down the tree of ignorance, hatred, and cravings with a sharp ax. 

“For this reason, it is important to increase even more the wisdom derived from hearing the dharma, contemplating deeply and carrying out true actions. If there is one who embodies wisdom, though he or she is only human and sees with a human eye, that person is one who can see. This is called wisdom.”

—fromThe Eight Qualities of a Great Person – Part 2, Dogen (1200-1253)  https://www.dailyzen.com/journal/

Typically we are familiar with two things, attachment and divisiveness. If we are to find wisdom, would we find the middle way between attachment and divisiveness? That middle way wherein the true self moves between all things, neither clinging to nor rejecting what arises and falls away? That movement and manifestation, stillness and dissolution wherein all is all in one, and one is one in all? 

The fact that the self is always living and dying gives it a peculiar ontological status. In traditional Buddhist terminology, it neither is nor is not. In Whiteheadian terminology, it becomes, but "never really is" (PR 82). One way to capture this ontological status is to speak of the self as a "process," both in Whitehead’s sense of concrescence (coming-into-being) and transition (the perishing of immediacy). The self, then, is not a being in the sense of being a static fact, nor is it mere nothingness. It is pure subjective becoming, pure process, that is perpetually perishing in the midst of its becoming. The key to Zen Buddhism lies not in escaping this process, but rather in living it fully. Ultimately, of course, one has no choice except to live the process fully, for the process is one’s own life. What happens in Zen enlightenment, however, is that this perpetual process of living and dying -- the everyday mind -- becomes the lived point of departure for all activity in the world. The enlightened Buddhist discovers that she need not cling to the past or the future, because she is always here-and-now. And she discovers that she cannot cling to her life; she can only live it fully, because she is constantly changing.  (--from, Zen and the Selfby Jay B. McDaniel, in Religion Online)

 Saturday quiets.

Lights are off at Snow Bowl.

Machines are parked. Lifts are still. Skiers gone home.

I read about how a woman's life was saved at the toboggan championships last week. Two teenage EMTs assisted others in CPR, paddling, and transporting a woman who had a “syncopal episode” (a loss of consciousness). It was their first EMS response after receiving their licenses.

There.

There.

Yes, there.

hints, suggestions, rather than full expressions

 The delight in reading about Basho in Blyth by DeMott.

I found the first book of R. H. Blyth’s four volume set, Haiku, (originally published between 1949-1952) in a used book store on St. Mark’s Place. If haiku seems no more pertinent to you than, say, heraldry—one more subject about which even an informed person “need not be ashamed to know nothing”[1]—you may be mollified to hear I had an excuse to check Eastern Culture since I was Christmas shopping for a nephew who’s on his way to Japan this spring. The book’s cover—“Oriental brown simple rough peasant cloth”—got me to open “the Blyth Haiku bibles” (pace Allen Ginsberg, Allen Ginsberg). I fell in…

“Plop!”

To quote the last line of “the most famous haiku” with frog-and-pond as translated by Blyth—scholar-gypsy who brought the East to Beats and Salinger (see J.D.’s bow to Blyth in “Seymour, An Introduction”: “…haiku, but senryu, too…can be read with special satisfaction when R. H. Blyth was on them. Blyth is sometimes perilous, naturally, since he’s a highhanded old poem himself, but he’s also sublime.”) Blyth’s scholarship began to come through to Americans in the post-WWII era—when Japan’s crown-prince was another of his tutees and Blyth helped draft Hirohito’s “Declaration of Humanity.”[2] (He prompted the Emperor to refuse divinity and come out as a mortal though not a Christer as General MacArthur—Japan’s “Supreme Public Administrator”—wished.)

Blyth grew up poor in England, the son of a railway clerk. An outlier from the outset, he was a scholarship boy who loved animals, adopted vegetarianism, and did time as a conscientious objector during World War I. He headed East with his first wife in 1924 after graduating from London University, where he’d been recruited to take a job as a professor of English Language and Literature in Korea. He moved on to Japan in 1939 (with his second wife, a Japanese woman he met in Seoul after his first marriage failed). Interned during the war as an enemy alien, he still managed to begin publishing books in English with a Japanese firm, The Hokuseido Press (who remained his publishers through the Sixties). He ended up working with Japanese and American authorities to help ease the transition to peace after 1945.

Let’s skip out of history and let “Mr. Time-less”—to borrow an honorific bestowed on Blyth by a Zen master.[3]—plump for “plop” in Bashô’s famous haiku, which has also been rendered as “A deep resonance” though Blyth skips over that translation even as he tells why other one-word shots won’t do…

The old pond/A frog jumps in—/Plop!

Against this translation it may be urged that “plop” is an un-poetical, rather humorous word. To this I would answer, “Read it over slowly, about a dozen times, and this association will disappear largely.”  Further, it may be said the expression “plop” is utterly different in sound from “mizu no oto.” This is not quite correct. The English “sound of water” is too gentle, suggesting a running stream or brook. The Japanese word “oto” has an onomatopoeic value much nearer to “plop.” Other translations are wide of the mark. “Splash” sounds as if Bashô himself has fallen in. Yone Noguchi’s “List, the water sound,” shows Bashô in graceful pose with finger in air. “Plash,” by Henderson, is also a misuse of words. Anyway, it is lucky for Bashô that he was born a Japanese, because probably not even he could have said it in English. Now we come to the meaning. An English author writes as follows:

“Some scholars maintain that this haiku about the frog is a perfect philosophical comment on the littleness of human life in comparison with the infinite. Such poems are hints, suggestions, rather than full expressions of an idea.”    

No haiku is a philosophical comment. Human life is not little: it is not to be compared with the infinite, whatever that is. Haiku are not hints; they suggest nothing whatever.[4].           https://www.firstofthemonth.org/on-the-road-with-r-h-blyth/

Poets are the ministers and zen masters of intimation and intimacy.

I'd rather be confused by poetry than assured by rhetoric or prose.

It cheers that life is so confusing, that opinion and certitude trip over lumps in rug, bang hip on corner of island in kitchen before hitting head on unforgiving floor.

When I fall I want to fall in love.

It is, after all, Valentine's Day.

Some reference has to be made to flowers.

When I'm knocked unconscious I'd prefer not to see relatives and former acquaintances hovering nearby waiting to greet me into some reunion not worth the time it takes to say near-death or reincarnation.

Enough, (say it),  said.

politics 2026

 give me your wallet!

    whoa...are you robbing me?


hand me your watch!

    no, I won’t.


vote for me!

    sure, what’s your name?


(that was easy)

    (phew, narrowly escaped)

mountain feels him coming

 Headlights down road

Turn into snow bowl

Early arrival, this monk


Will straddle metal into snowcat

Start ascent up steel grouser cleats

To intimate cab with lighted levers


Such good snow this season

Downhill ski runs crisscross

Swooshing joy for the fearless


It is enough for me to live next

Door to this mountain abbey ashram

A non-skier, I walk to toboggan run


Last week’s national championships

Bonfires on frozen pond/lake, 40 mph

Rumbling runs down wood shute 


This Jiyuu (自由, じゆう) finishes first coffee

Turns key in starter, begins solitary

Climb aslant ascent leaving loving ridges


His night office

Horarium of the heart making way

For those coming after

Friday, February 13, 2026

late am i learning you

 Bewith

All these years


The translation of 

Dominus vobiscom


Is really

“May One bewith you”


Of course it is

This way of being 


Bewithed and 

Bewithing 

divide-d'end

 man in prison today

convincing me this

good president exposes


corruption -- not only 

his own but that of all

the traders and traitors


in congress and the court --

the quiet revelation that

public office is a goldmine


picked and panned by clever

law-evaders pretending to be 

looking out for constituents


(he rubbed his tired eyes

Speaks of son also inside

this patrimony of sadness)


I listen to him, he knows

how it is done, how they 

manipulate, going to cash


while pointing fingers

thumbs picking

pockets of saps and suckers

sweeping his simile into bin

 He wondered

What it’s like

To be his toaster


Concluding

He couldn’t

(There you are)


Not me, 

I am my toaster

Consciousness be damned


Give me bread

Lower that lever

Burn, baby, burn


Peanut butter

Strawberry jam

Cup of coffee


You see, consciousness

Has nothing to do

With you


It resides

As crumbs appearing

On cutting board


Just there

The way words are meant

To be, brushed, away

defeat, utterly, overcome

 I used to pray

Now prayer uses me —


I am

Overwhelmed

what happened to him

 Christ watches trump

Sees nothing there

Wonders

Thursday, February 12, 2026

called physiologoi in antiquity, (greek: φυσιολόγοι)

 I first heard the phrase reading psychiatrist Karl Stern who wrote, "All being is nuptial." It was in his book "The Flight from Woman", 1965.

Today, these references. First by Nicolai Berdyaev (1874-1948):

The freedom implicit in the exercise of knowledge receives its illumination from the Logos. But it is also related to Eros. To pursue knowledge without any consciousness of love, merely to seek power, is a form of demonism. It may therefore be affirmed that knowledge is essentially cosmogonic. It should consider reality carefully and examine it conscientiously; for moral pathos is the true inspiration and urge for our quest for truth. The subjective freedom thus generated by the Logos transfigures reality. The nature of knowledge is conjugal; it is both male and female, it is the conjunction of these two principles, the impregnation of the feminine element by virile meaning.” ~ Solitude and Society

The theological doctrine that God created man for His own glory and praise is degrading to man, and degrading to God also…. God as personality does not desire a man over whom He can rule, and who ought to praise Him, but man as personality who answers His call and with whom communion of love is possible.” ~ Slavery and Freedom

Consciousness which exteriorizes and alienates is always slavish consciousness. God the Master, man the slave; the church the master, man the slave; the family the master, man the slave; Nature the master, man the slave; object the master, man-subject the slave. The source of slavery is always objectification, that is to say exteriorization, alienation.” ~ Slavery and Freedom

Man can be a slave to public opinion, a slave to custom, to morals, to judgments and opinions which are imposed by society. It is difficult to overestimate the violence which is perpetrated by the press in our time. The average man of our day holds the opinions and forms the judgments of the newspaper which he reads every morning: it exercises psychological compulsion upon him. And in view of the falsehood and venality of the press, the effects are very terrible as seen in the enslavement of man and his deprivation of freedom of conscience and judgment.” ~ Slavery and Freedom


Men not only need the state and cannot do without the services it renders, but they are seduced by it, they are taken captive by the state, they connect their dreams of sovereignty with it. And there lies the chief evil and a source of human slavery.” ~ Slavery and Freedom

Then by Marguerite Porete (1250-1310):

Marguerite Porete, though she wrote around 700 years ago, has a completely different way of looking at the nuptial metaphor. In The Mirror of Simple Souls she draws a picture of a love relationship between the Soul and God that is completely mutual in both self-giving and satisfaction. In this work Porete creates a dialogue between the soul and a host of characters such as Lady Love, Reason, The Supreme Lady of Peace, and The Spouse of the Soul. In the middle of this dialogue, the Soul comes to Lady Love in utter despondency. She has thought that the love between herself and the Divine was without “Lordship” but has found that she has nothing and the Divine has all. This creates an imbalance in the relationship and the Soul is heartbroken to think that she has nothing to offer to the one she loves. 

Lady Love immediately reassures her that she herself is enough and that her lover is wholly satisfied with exactly what she has to give. In fact, the Divine is happy to give all of Godself in return for the soul’s gift of self. This is a totally different relationship from that which we see in the theology of recent popes and other theologians. In this relationship there are no set roles of “giver” or “receiver,” rather both have their turn in giving and receiving. This is a relationship that allows Marguerite to write of the soul, 

“She swims and flows in joy, without feeling any joy, for she dwells in Joy and Joy dwells in her. She is Joy itself…”

https://www.womensordination.org/blog/2020/03/07/a-mutual-nuptial/ 

We wonder about the soul.

We try to suss what union or unity means in our everyday meander through both solitude and communality. What are the borders? Are we separate? What intercourse or spontaneous generation emerges into itself-reality, what the rational intellect can only interpret as a dualistic cause and effect.

Active in the 6th and 5th centuries BCE, early Greek philosophers, called physiologoi in antiquity (Greek: φυσιολόγοι; in English, physical or natural philosophers), attempted to give natural explanations of phenomena that had previously been ascribed to the agency of the gods.[8] The physiologoi sought the material principle or arche (Greek: ἀρχή) of things, emphasizing the rational unity of the external world and rejecting theological or mythological explanations.[9] 

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Spontaneous_generation

 Are we, as some suggest, mired in illusion fabricated by an anachronistic archaic consciousness that thrives on notions of division and separation? Or as a man in prison conversation said on Monday "We're addicted to divisiveness."

Can we imagine (like Berdyaev) a seeming interspersion, an advaitic non-twoness emerging as itself, not measurable as distinct or divided, but a fluidic swirling appearance of hardly recognizable reality?

In other words (my mother's favorite phrase) the appearance of non-appearance in its true nature, one and the same, within-itself/without-itself, of a piece, might we say, as peace?

Can we say we will never be at peace with the mind that drags us behind it?

Rather, to dwell within mind-itself is to abandon leading or following, resolving to dwell in what leather-worker philosopher from Ellsworth expressed as the true meaning of "anarchist?"

I wonder if he'd have agreed (annoyingly dying a few years ago) with the AI description:

Being an anarchist means believing in a society without rulers, hierarchies, or coercive authority, advocating instead for voluntary cooperation, mutual aid, and individual freedom, often through dismantling the state, capitalism, and other oppressive structures, though specific methods and focus (individual vs. collective) vary. It's a political philosophy opposing all forms of domination, envisioning a self-organized society based on free association and consensus. 
(--search, anarchist)

Nuptiality. Essentially and existentially -- two-become-one. Or, perhaps, one-not-become-two.

Of course wording wears its awkwardness.

Men and women, men and men, women and women, God and humanity, creation and creator, this and that, you and me.

What is there to see? And if wholeness is the sole reality, is there any seeing at all?

Perhaps that's the terror of death for many of us. 

No seeing. 

Nothing other to see. 

Just Being-Within.

As Itself.

Whole and impartial.