I'm Catholic in the same way I am just shy of 6'3". It's just a fact. I don't give up being nearly 6'3" because I can't reach some things. Nor do I say I am no longer 6'3" because I no longer believe in such a height. And I certainly do not allow someone to say I can no longer be 6'3" because other people of other heights hold certain beliefs about conforming factors of height that my height seems to stand outside of.
I am a discovering Catholic -- one willing to transcend yet include what history, tradition, and scriptural exegesis plus hermeneutic have posited up til now. It is at this place, at the Now-Here of encounter experience, that originating Catholicity begins again the ever-present contemplation, conversation, and
correspondence of each individual 'I Am' with 'What Is' in the geography of 'Being Here.'
We are invited to be what we are to become by abandoning everything and remaining open within an inchoate incarnate instantiation of emerging awareness centered in this immediate moment with all it's revelatory realization.
I am not someone who belongs to a belief or organization. I am the inclusion and
interiority of each original intuition within the origination experience at core of what in time becomes belief organized. I am as I am inside and outside the belief or organization -- fully appreciative of, but not easily impressed by, artificial borders and boundaries based on criteria external or internal to the very factual reality of the individual.
If Christ is, I am. If I am, you are. If you are, we share the simple reality of being-in-the-world with one another with the One we call God, and with the very earth, cosmos, and mystery of existence. The only illusion is not to be what we are.
The old Catholic ceremony of Benediction was among the most beautiful acts of devotion that had evolved in the Church over the centuries. It was a triumph of ceremonial craft that blended light and incense and chant, a sweet celebration of Christ's continual union with His Church by his bodily presence.
(pg. 79, in Vatican, A Novel, by Malachi Martin, c.1986)
Rules are usually clasped tightly by those who cannot abide the immense potentiality and infinite possibilities open before us. We seem to be more inclined to limit and sanction, exclude and divide -- rather than seeing the world as a transparent portal of access to every extension of space and duration of time. It's something we're unfamiliar with -- the singularity of
throughness -- the way we are diverse and diffuse, limited only by our limited perceptions, beliefs, and lack of faith.
He was in the world, and the world was made through Him, and the world did not know Him.
(John 1:10, New American Standard Bible c.1995)
To know is to resound and permeate, without reservation or restriction, what is real. Perhaps we do not 'know' God because we do not resound and permeate, unreservedly and
unrestrictedly, the revelation and presence of what is most real in our midst.
To be unstained in all environments is called no-thought…If you stop thinking of the myriad things, and cast aside all thoughts, as soon as one instant of thought is cut off, you will be reborn in another realm. The Dharma of no-thought means: even though you see all things, you do not attach to them, but, always keeping your own nature pure, cause the six thieves of the senses to exit through the six gates. Even though you are in the midst of the six dusts, you do not stand apart from them, yet are not stained by them, and are free to come and go.
(- Hui Neng)
Of course, saying I am Roman Catholic (perhaps, '
Ronin' Catholic) includes being also Buddhist, Jewish, Hindu, Muslim, Confucian, Taoist, Jain, Shinto, Pagan, and the innumerable variations, Christian and
Neo-Pagan, Atheistic and Agnostic, Theistic and Deist, Secular Humanist and Scientific Skeptic, Shamanic Visionary and none of the above -- that the world in all its multiplicity and grand nascence/
nescience offers as paths to the
mysterium tremendum et fascinans. My root tradition offers me a strong meditation:
'Those who humble themselves will be exalted' is not a promise of future prestige to those who have no prestige now or to those who have given up all reliance upon prestige. It is the promise that they will no longer be treated as inferior but will receive full recognition as human beings. Just as the poor are not promised wealth but the full satisfaction of their needs -- no one shall be in want; so the little ones are not promised status and prestige but the full recognition of their dignity as human beings. To achieve this a total and radical re-structuring of society would be required.
The kingdom of God,then, will be a society in which there will be no prestige and no status, no division of people into inferior and superior. Everyone will be loved and respected, not because of his education or wealth or ancestry or authority or rank or virtue or other achievements, but because he like everybody else is a person. Some will find it very difficult to imagine what such a life would be like but the 'babes' who have never had any of the privileges of status and those who have not valued it will find it very easy to appreciate the fulfillment that life in such a society would bring. Those who could not bear to have beggars, former prostitutes, servants, women and children treated as their equals, who could not live without feeling superior to a least some people, would simply not be at home in God's kingdom as Jesus understood it. They would want to exclude themselves from it.
(--from pp. 57-58, Ch.8, THE KINGDOM AND PRESTIGE, in Jesus Before Christianity, by Albert Nolan, c.1978)
I long for such a home.
There -- (wherever 'there' might be).
Or, here.
Where you and I mostly long to be.
Completely with.
What is.
Here.