Saturday, August 03, 2024

people are asleep, when they die, they wake up

Who's asleep? When do we wake up?

Nadim sends article. From it: 

According to Sufi teachings, humans are in neglect (ghaflat) and consider this world and life as real. An allegory that is used in the Sufi literature to say that we are in neglect about the real world is comparing this life to sleep. There is a famous hadith that says: “People are asleep, when they die, they wake up”11 (Mulla Sadra 2004, p. 325). However, some people die in this life and wake up from the ignorance of sleep. This insight is probably the meaning of a hadith that calls, paradoxically, for people to “die before dying!” (Mulla Sadra 2004, p. 458).12 It means then dying from the material and shadow life. This insight is expressed beautifully by replacing “die” with “life” in the Gospel when Jesus says to a man named Nicodemus:

“Very truly I tell you, no one can see the kingdom of God unless they are born again.” When Nicodemus asks: “How can someone be born when they are old? Surely they cannot enter a second time into their mother’s womb to be born!” Jesus replies: “Very truly I tell you, no one can enter the kingdom of God unless they are born of water and the Spirit. Flesh gives birth to flesh, but the Spirit gives birth to spirit” (Gospel of John n.d.).

...

The education that is here supposed is, as Heidegger calls it, ‘ontological education’ (Heidegger 1988, p. v; Thomson 2001). The epistemological, political, psychological, and ethical dimensions of the allegory are, this paper holds, sub-dimensions and results of the ontological transformation that the allegory discusses. The allegory indeed depicts the humans’ condition that is prisoned by their desires in the dark material life. They can only see the shadow beings until they free themselves from material affairs, escape the cave, become enlightened and see the eternal Good and Truth.   

(--Escaping Plato’s Cave as a Mystical Experience: A Survey in Sufi Literature by Heydar Shadi, in MDPI, 2022)

We think we know. We suspect that what we perceive is what is real. We cling to the life we know and recede from life itself the unknown.

There's something to this notion of death.

We think 'there is death'. We think 'there is no death.'

What we don't think is that life/death and death/life are sustaining correspondences beyond our comprehension.

There is an ontological transformation that permeates and suffusis our emergent and participatory movement through this existence.

The term 'sleepers awake' makes an immediate and intriguing invitatory antiphon..  

to be unmasked

 Doris sends Kafka:

“You do not need to leave your room. Remain sitting at your table and listen. Do not even listen, simply wait, be quiet, still and solitary. The world will freely offer itself to you to be unmasked, it has no choice, it will roll in ecstasy at your feet.”

― Franz Kafka

How kindly of her. 

like this without wavering

Last evening's conversation touched on payback, or paying back. Also, belief. 

Does belief blind? Is it possible to live without belief? Why would one want to?

And what does this mean? “Disorder is simply the order we are not looking for.” (Henri Bergson)

Who owes whom what? And why?

New issue of Journal of Religion arrives. From first article:

Over the past few decades, Anselm of Canterbury’s late-eleventh-century text Cur Deus homo(Why God Became Man) has become a fixture in discussions of the relationship between theology and economy.1 Breaking with so-called ransom models of atonement, Anselm’s description of Christ’s sacrifice remains perhaps the single most influential account of human redemption in Roman Catholic Christianity and serves as a key point of departure for many of its Protestant inheritors. Famously, Anselm presents the Christian drama of redemption as an accounting problem: a transaction played out on the books of a divine creditor working on behalf of his delinquent debtors. According to Anselm all creatures owe God a debt of honor and obedience, and with the exception of the heavenly host, all are in a state of structural default.2 A debt left unsettled, he claims, will continue to hold the borrower in its sway.3 And so, rather than simply forgive and forget, God must find a way to settle the deficit that humans cannot settle for themselves. Taking on the coincidence of humanity and divinity, God makes himself both a means of payment and a measure of value, converting himself into a kind of “divine currency” in the person of Jesus of Nazareth, ontological tender for all debts public and private.4 God, in effect, pays the past-due balance of human merit and restores humanity to solvency by paying himself with himself on humanity’s behalf.

In the aftermath of the 2008 global financial crisis, a great deal of critical attention turned toward the question of the moral economy underpinning the idea that debts must be repaid.5 Debt, after all, entails a relationship in which it is difficult, even impossible, to decide in advance whether the lender approaches the borrower as a friend or an enemy.6 Credit offers borrowers access now to money they expect to make in the future; it offers the promise of liquidity.7 But credit also threatens to turn predatory. If the interest on a loan outstrips borrowers’ ability to pay it, borrowers may find themselves in a position where they will have to reorganize their lives around the demand to service the loan; the loan term may even threaten to extend itself into perpetuity. Anselm’s choice to portray God himself as constrained by the necessity of paying down the debt thus seems to bend the moral arc of the universe to the side of the predatory lender. As a result, some have argued that Anselm’s theological drama foreshadows—perhaps even prepares the way for—the “neoliberal” common sense that it is debtors, rather than creditors, who bear final responsibility for their debts and that it is thus debtors, rather than creditors, who must be made to bear the costs of widespread credit collapse.8

This reevaluation of Anselm’s economy of redemption has drawn attention to important and underappreciated implications of his text. But in the rush to establish homologies between Anselm’s economy and our own, the full significance of a crucial feature of his presentation has often been obscured. Unlike the subprime borrowers that serve to underwrite this analogy, the figure around which Anselm’s economic imagination turns is not the “free” debtor but the fugitive slave or serf. Rather than as parties to contract who have taken on a loan voluntarily, Anselm depicts humanity on the model of people held as property: bound to the land on which they live and obliged to furnish rent in cash or in kind.  

(--in, On the Fall of the Angels: Economic Theology after the Middle Passage* by Sean Capener, Journal of Religion, vol.104, no.3, July 2024) 

 I temporarily take the stance that belief is unnecessary. What is necessary is clear gaze. To see what is there -- without prejudice, illusion, or belief. 

Perhaps to merely observe, to appreciate, and to practice. 

A few of the men we converse with at prison are studying economics. It is an alien universe to me.  

Still, as debtor people, someone always owes someone something. (cf John Wick marker.)

So our philosophers and theologians posit a God who is owed something by God's creation, especially the human-kind, following the mythic narrative of apple-biting.

Hence pain and suffering. Hence Godly second-thoughts. Hence ransom/redemption by Jesus, the Christ, sacrificing himself (with quick follow-up resurrection) for the good of creation, if not specifically, humankind.

It cheers me that such a narrative has become nearly impossible to affirm. It is a good story. But, hard to affirm.

Given the landscape of religious folklore over the centuries, I nod my head, and say, "Yup, I see the thinking there."

But the belief in the thinking escapes me. It goes around the curve, down the hill, and off into the thick unfollowable silage, airtight and packed away in dense fields.

In prison on Friday morning, then again on zoom Friday Evening Practice, we looked at the following about the Mahamudra:

In the following verses, tantric yogini Niguma (10th-11th century India) writes about Mahamudra as empty bubbles in a translucent ocean.


‘The Natural Abiding’

            By Miranda Shaw, PhD


Don’t do anything whatsoever with the mind—

Abide in an authentic, natural state.

One’s own mind, unwavering, is reality.

The key is to meditate like this without wavering;

Experience the great reality beyond extremes.

In a pellucid ocean,

Bubbles arise and dissolve again.

Just so, thoughts are no different from ultimate

        reality,

So don’t find fault; remain at ease.

Whatever arises, whatever occurs,

Don’t grasp—release it on the spot.

Appearances, sounds, and objects are one’s own

        mind;

There’s nothing except mind.

Mind is beyond the extremes of birth and death.

The nature of mind, awareness,

Although using the objects of the five senses,

Does not wander from reality.

In the state of cosmic equilibrium

There is nothing to abandon or practice,

No meditation or post-meditation. Just this. 

 

        —Niguma, translated by Miranda Shaw

(--Excerpted from Passionate Enlightenment: Women in Tantric Buddhism by Miranda Shaw, in Tricycle, June 2024)

When "just this" is what is here, does it fall to us to practice the integrity internal to what is emerging into appearance, perhaps God-Self, wherein no debt is recognized, and what is free is the nature of reality when seen, loved, and compassionately engaged? 

here of a saturday afternoon

 I don't know if I have to be here.


I don't know "if." 

I have to be here.


I don't know if I have

"to be"

here.


I don't

know

if I 

have

to be

"Here."


(But if I did know, and I was so obligated to be therein and thereas, would it be in that place that I would find myself?)

cutting through ephemeral illusions

Good conversation at Friday Evening Practice. 

 When the mind is always as clear and bright

As ten suns shining together,


Detached from views and beyond feelings,


Cutting through ephemeral illusions


Of birth and death,


This is what is meant by the saying,


“Mind itself is Buddha.”



--Yuanwu, dailyzen


One of the women said "Language creates Being."

Or, as my Nana used to say, "Mind yourself, Billy!"

Friday, August 02, 2024

already too much

 Reality, this, is beyond belief.

When you are deluded and full of doubt,
Even a thousand books of scripture
Are still not enough.
When you have realized understanding,
Even one word is already too much.
Zen is communicated personally,
Through mental recognition.
It is not handed on directly by written words.


--Fenyang

We need not believe in one another.

We do have to practice being present to and with one another. 

Thursday, August 01, 2024

ask lao tzu, ask chuang tzu

How odd to have no

self — a room where everything 

is root emptiness

cf—PHILOSOPHY OF NOTHINGNESS AND LOVEkiyokazu nakatomi, 2015

sooner or later we'll return there

We think enlightenment is difficult.

How can we describe the selfless state of mind then? Shortly, it is absolute nothingness. According to 'Knowledge rambling in the North', to comprehend absolute nothingness is not just to experience the selfless state, but to step further into turning all existence into nothingness, every tiniest manifestation of the existent into inexistent and consequently turning nothingness itself into the inexistent as well. Chuang-tzu thinks that it is impossible to stay in the selfless state of nothingness while deliberating existence and its opposite. Such a state of mind would not allow the realization of the void. Among those who reached that state are those who experienced enlightenment and those who gained knowledge about the Way. In 'The Great and Most Honoured Master' we found that experiencing enlightenment means abandoning scholarly knowledge like Confucius along with human intelligence in order to gain the real wisdom. For a man aiming at enlightenment, success in life as well as working and contributing to the society rather stand as obstacles. The consequences of such an attitude of lack of attachment are no fears, when having climbed a high place, dry, even under water and no burns when in the fire. No dreams while asleep and no worries in the morning after waking up. No joy of life and no fear of death. He would not delight the fact of being born and would not loath death even though life was just a step to it. He entrusts all to nature; everything that comes and goes. Neither he would try to avoid the beginning (life), nor demand the end (death). If granted life, he would take it with gratitude, if taken it away, would obediently return to the origin. The enlightened stays calm facing life and death entrusting everything the Way. He understands that he came from the Way and sooner or later he'll return there. In other words life and death is all about a cycle being a creation of the Way, which means it's all one. The enlightened (true man) is the one who understood that oneness. As far as his appearance is concerned, he is tall and of gentle disposition. Avoiding any extravagant decorating, he creates the atmosphere of openness and spaciousness wherever he goes. Overflowing with joy, his composed aura makes people feel calm and spirited. People surrounding him feel peace and the need to mend their ways while experiencing liberation from desires and desperation. Instead, they are filled with hope. We may call it spiritual awakening. Such a selfless state, Chuang-tzu called it the state of trance, Zabo or Zabu later on had a tremendous impact on the development of Zen in Japan. 69 


(--in Philosophy of Nothingness and Love, by kiyokazu nakatomi, 2015)


Maybe we shouldn't believe that enlightenment is hard.


Maybe belief is hard.


And we need something softer.


Like open gaze.

naked of even ourselves

I finish Fernando Pessoa's The Book of Disquiet (which he called a "factless autobiography").

I'd just as soon begin it again.

In it, Pessoa, writing as Bernando Soares, writes this:

“To know nothing about yourself is to live. To know yourself badly is to think. To know yourself in a flash, as I did in this moment, is to have a fleeting notion of the intimate monad, the soul’s magic word. But that sudden light scorches everything, consumes everything. It strips us naked of even ourselves.”

Obrigado, Fernando!

not deceiving oneself

God is learning to speak within us, 

through us, as us and is coming 

to be Heard

The limits of my language means the limits of my world.

-- Ludwig Wittgenstein


As we are

coming to be 

Existent

Whereof one cannot speak

thereof one must be silent.

--Wittgenstein


And so, we are not yet 

capable of being heard

not yet human, Not Yet 

Nothing is so difficult

as not deceiving oneself.

--Wittgenstein


Offspringing 

through

Divinity 

If we spoke a different language,

we would perceive a somewhat different world.

--Wittgenstein

Joseph, stopping by, said: let's translate 'repetitio' as willingness to read

 1.


Repetitio est mater studiorum.


Repetition is the mother of learning.


2.


Experientia est magister stultorum.


Experience is the teacher of fools.


non-elective surging

He's a great teacher

modeling how not to be

tedium non-speak

he shows us nonsense non-think

the obsession of revenge 

Wednesday, July 31, 2024

no prayer is said for him

 I have no whiskey

I have no wine, only hurt 

heart watching brother

Grow uglier each day — see,

He thinks that ugly is fine

none the worse for wear

Watched an obnoxious man 

belligerently lie 

and lie, exaggerate and besmirch, 

during an interview.

Nobody punched him in the face.

But you could imagine it.

He diminishes everyone.

living with summer

 Visitors, black flies

Mosquitos, brown tail moths, ants

Humidity — (sigh)

franciszen

 Never occurred 

To me

To want to be

A Jesuit 


Didn’t think

I’d be

Smart 

Enough


So i became

A franciszen 

Hermit

 Instead

Tuesday, July 30, 2024

a love that knows no, bounds

 Only reading books. Only watching history documentaries. Only perusing articles on hiccups of current events. 

Only walking meditation. 

Only divine office from France. Only naps and breathing awareness. 

Only looking out window in themeless contemplation.

Meetingbrook Hermitage is a fictitious episode in the life of an aging man. He prefers solitude.

 He refrains from the drama of other fictitious concepts about contemporary culture and society.

 He views conversations as sacred scripture study. He is, at best, a charlatan.

But, it is only Tuesday. Redemption might be on the horizon. 

A breeze blows through screen door. He's learning about Vietnam. Lt. Calley's death is announced. 

William Calley was the only soldier to do anything wrong in Vietnam. No one else. What a remarkable thing!

The world becomes a quieter place when one learns the value of opinions. No value.

The kitchen is remarkably still.

I'm not sure that I am actually here.

I look around. Nope, I'm not.

It's quite a thing, fading away.

Don't try it at home.

You'll be confounded by the ease with which nothing is recognizable. 

Unrecognizable as things are, they resemble nothing but themselves. 

Unsullied by description, metaphor, or regaling narrative undertaken to amuse, impress, or single out.

I love my brothers and sisters.

With a love that knows no, bounds. 

a compassion worthy of being human

How fascinating to think that, at bottom, the very air that we breathe, is part and parcel of the original creative energy that some have come to call "God" or "The Creator."

And the suspicion that we are, each of us, rooted in the original mud and muck of nascence while at the same time rising up to break the surface of appearance into the flowering obvious of clear seeing. 

How mysterious!
The lotus remains unstained
By its muddy roots,
Delivering shimmering
Bright jewels from common dew.


(--The Monk Henjo, dailyzen)

It is incumbent on us to look at, to look deeply at, what is appearing before us. 

And while looking, to see what is there.

Thus, seeing what is there, to recognize what is presenting itself. 

Clearly seeing.

Not being fooled.

Observing what is there.

And when what is presenting itself is sweet and noble, to recognize it as sweet and noble.

And when it is vile and ignoble, to recognize vileness and ignobility.

Seeing it.

Not judging it.

Seeing it.

Then acting accordingly.

Not being fooled.

This is a prayer worth praying.

An activity worth our attention.

A compassion worthy of being human. 

Monday, July 29, 2024

zen at last

 If you observe what is actually there, you are free.

politics, kamala harris

 She’ll do a good job as president.

politics, joe biden

 It's good he is stepping aside. He seems, and is, old. Just a little behind him, I can't imagine keeping anywhere near the schedule he does while having to withstand the vile and venom of detractors.

It's been hard to watch him, listen to him, read about him.

Still, I like Joe Biden. He's done a good enough job, in my opinion. There seems to have been a decency about him and his leadership.

It's good he is stepping aside.

politics, donald trump

 It is difficult to decide how much of political speech is performative -- done just for effect -- and how much is authentic -- meant to persuade and advance discussion toward effective resolution.

Especially with Trump. He seems more intent in being outrageous and inflammatory than he does in creating meaningful dialogue.

I've known guys like him. They do not inspire confidence or trust. Rather, a f**k-you attitude like some schoolyard braggadocio who takes your spalding, walks away and sneers over his shoulder.

It’s a new york think. It's a prison yard thing. It's a trump family fling.

Its not much to my liking.

As little of political theater is to my liking.

late-arriving haiku

           (for Susan Smith-Hudson, R.I.P. 8nov23)

Our sangha sister

Faded into Florida --

Fondly, your fruit loops

Sunday, July 28, 2024

like balancing on log floating down river


The Guest House


This being human is a guest house.

Every morning a new arrival.


A joy, a depression, a meanness,

some momentary awareness comes

As an unexpected visitor.


Welcome and entertain them all!

Even if they're a crowd of sorrows,

who violently sweep your house

empty of its furniture,

still treat each guest honorably.

He may be clearing you out

for some new delight.


The dark thought, the shame, the malice,

meet them at the door laughing,

and invite them in.


Be grateful for whoever comes,

because each has been sent

as a guide from beyond.



(--Poem by Jalāl al-Dīn Rumi, 1207-1273; 

    Translation by Coleman Barks)

sunday morning court

Hoops in France, running

shooting, banging, leaping -- ball

with funny stripes -- cheers

perigrination

 Wandering circles

There’s no door open, I walk

Happy to pass by

Have you ever wondered — is

God each step each breath each sight