Saturday, December 07, 2024

one’s own country

  What was that line in a Philip Whalen poem? 

            “Invisible & in complete control of everything” 

From a book of poetry shown me by the stone mason poet John M. over fifty years ago? (Yes, it was in his On Bear's Head, c.1960 by Philip Whalen in an unremembered title.)

I wasn’t fond of the word “control.”

2. Dómine, opus tuum, 

       2. Lord, your work, 

  

in médio annórum vivífica illud: 

       in the midst of years, revive it.  

 

3. In médio annórum notum fácies: 

       3. In the midst of years, you will make it known.  

 

cum irátus fúeris, misericórdiæ recordáberis.

       When you have become angry, you will remember mercy.       

 (--Hab.3) 

Habakkuk in 7th century BC:

A reference to "the prophet Habakkuk" appears in Bel and the Dragon,[17] which is part of the deuterocanonical Additions to Daniel. Verses 33–39 place Habakkuk in Judea; after making some stew, he is instructed by an angel of the Lord to take the stew to Daniel, who is in the lion's den in Babylon. After Habakkuk proclaims that he is unaware of either the den or Babylon, the angel transports Habakkuk to the lion's den. Habakkuk gives Daniel the food to sustain him, and he is immediately taken back to "his place" or "his own country".[18].    (—wikipedia)

I’ve been wondering where I really am

No need to worry

It’s just a wandering wondering

Controlling not a thing

Completely visible

Obvious and nowhere to be found

Stewing

sti ll l if e

 Barking in his dream

Ensō sounds from other room  —

Hall boxes cat-shred

infamy

 Torpedoes sank ships

It is, they say, what war does —

Thrives insanity

Friday, December 06, 2024

as the fawning day approaches

 It's not surprising we're tired of the ponderous sloughing off burdensome rules and regulations in our governmental apparatus grinding slowly in the nation's capital.

So the populace in their ponderous wisdom elects an administration promising to dismantle that apparatus and replace it with trickle-down billionaire interests that will free wealth to rule and determine what will be the ethos of economic proprietary governance.

We'll have to see how that fares.

The promise is to dismantle the whole government and replace it with the whims of the monied class doing what the monied class does, namely, rule by self-interest and proprietary control. This extends not only to money and wealth, but also to appropriation of women's bodies for the greater good of the monied dominant minority.

We'll see.

Women, I suspect, in the eyes of our Christian Nationalist brothers, have had it too loose and easy with their self-determination. Better, to help them return to greater days gone by. Help them fit back into the ideology of headship and subservience and proprietary sexuality under proper control.

So, let us welcome the returning chief executive with his band of monied men to the America that wants to be great again.

How do you think it will go?

One can neither be optimistic nor joyful. 

Our civilization teeters with excruciating excitement as the fawning day approaches.

empties all of heaven and earth

Help me see. Take my blinders off. Yes, that's it. Wait, I'll open my eyelids soon. Just now, it's too bright.

I like the idea of seeing. Soon, perhaps, I'll lift lids. But, be patient with me, there's a lag in my readiness. 

Very high this mountain,
And few find their way up here.
Only puffs of cloud
Drift up and past.
As I meditate, my original self
Empties all of heaven and earth
Not at all like the lantern
In broad day.


Muso Soseki (1275-1351) dailyzen

I used to think there was something to enlightenment. Maybe a badge, a certificate, a robe and bowl, a room with a view. But things changed.

Everything seems so far away. Zen monasteries or practice centers, Trappist monasteries or retreat houses. The grocery store. 

The only thing that seems close is the prison we converse at, the harbors we visit drinking coffee eating muffins or breakfast egg concoction. The tackle on fishing boats, the USCGC Abbie Burgess at Coast Guard Station, the cold northeast gale cutting through gaps in buildings churning harbor water where one small remaining sailboat and one loon don't seem bothered.

Recalling Carmelites in their convent monastery (in video), these old gals cutting vegetables, reading psalms, trimming branches, washing pots fresh from emptying soup, sitting their version of shikantaza in wood stalls with eyes closed in their awakened state. 

The only thing near are words that empty themselves of meaning, retaining their inner light, not pointing to anything anywhere, secure in their vacant openness holding openhanded what seems to be nothing, gazed at with a tender smile.

Empty barrels, it goes, make the most noise. But vacated words reside in soundless silence. Listen! Again, listen! There, just there, the sight of it!

What are we looking at?

"...the lantern / in broad day"?

Red squirrel runs across wood walkway under bird feeder rocking in wind. Dog snorts on other side of rug.

Blue Jays quarrel in yew tree.

Icy crusting snow in dooryard.

I'm not looking for anything.

I'm content to see what is passing.

And contemplating, yes, 

this is, yes, what is . . . 

yes . . . here. 

Thursday, December 05, 2024

if you asked them they would cry

 Woman killed on road

In wheelchair — neighbor has dent

In van right panel

sisters of the holy gtound

 Carmelite women

Know stillness, prayer, silence —

That which is at root

si vocem ejus audiéritis

Seems simple, "if you shall hear his voice."

But the voice of what we call "the creator" is silence.

Such a voice becomes a conundrum for us.

What does it mean to possibly hear the unhearable?  

Are the works "seen" the same as the voice "heard."

Is "seeing" "hearing"?

Hódie, si vocem ejus audiéritis:

        Today if you shall hear his voice,  

 

Nolíte obduráre corda vestra,

        harden not your hearts:  

 

sicut in exacerbatióne secúndum diem tentatiónis in desérto:

        As in the provocation, according to the day of temptation in the wilderness:  

 

ubi tentavérunt me patres vestri:

        where your fathers tempted me,  

 

probavérunt et vidérunt ópera mea.

            they proved me, and saw my works.


                           (--from psalm 94)

semblance dissembling any other

 No light, no matter

My death has not been noticed

Hmmm, now where am I —

Listening to morning rain

Clearly I am not . . .  This sound!

Wednesday, December 04, 2024

without cushion or mat

 We practice sitting

(walking, sleeping, eating) — zen

mind — no difference

out through barn door

 Cold night at mountain

Buddha statue wears watch cap —

Bird feeders seed full

sheltering

To shelter and conceal could be said to be one of the functions of language. 

It is proper to every gathering
that the gathers assemble to
coordinate their efforts to the
sheltering; only when they have
gathered together with that end
in view do they begin to gather.

        --Martin Heidegger, Logos 

When we gather we invite language to open and reveal what it has been holding -- for a brief while -- as we ask into the hidden reality that is covered by our semi-attentive indolence.

The inspiration of gathering is to let emerge that which craves the open but worries what purpose it will be put to by those who receive it.

To come-to-word is to respect the sheltering while revealing that which has taken shelter in our midst.

So, let's speak of the gathering as presence.

And speak of presence as grace.

Gather well! 

regret requires perspective

We learn how to see through. 

As an outsider going in, I've spent many years in conversation with men in prison.

Two things:

  • When circumstances surrounding them permit, they are real, insightful, and good company;
  • and, they come to understand the difference between stupidity and evil.
Not all the guns in the world will ever eliminate stupidity or evil.

But as Mr. Blackwell has well written, we learn skills and some wisdom as to how to dwell alongside these banes in our lives.

            (--in response to a NYT opinion piece) 

We learn how to live with what we have seen through. 

Tuesday, December 03, 2024

through one’s own eyes

Eyes are arbiters of what is passing through

From the infinite within, out. From the infinite without, in.

The nature of the one Reality must be known by one’s own clear spiritual perception; it cannot be known through a learned person.

Similarly, the form of the moon can only be known through one’s own eyes. How can it be known through others?


—Shankara

Eyes see without thinking, let pass through without interpreting or judging.

What you see is what you are — within and without. 

ensō is good company

 Practicing zazen

Nothing happens — I don’t know—

Stars are whispering

yes

Just yes.

That's it.

Nothing else.

Monday, December 02, 2024

presence of the sacred, revisioned

The reminder should be resurrected as often as needed.

After all, she's writing about you, isn't she?


I’m Nobody! Who are you?
Are you – Nobody – too? 
Then there’s a pair of us! 
Don’t tell! they’d advertise – you know!
 

How dreary – to be – Somebody!
How public – like a Frog – 
To tell one’s name – the livelong June – 
To an admiring Bog!

                   (—poem by Emily Dickinson 1830 – 1886)

Are we meant to be nameless?

Unsounding our presence?

Content to say what is near us without identifying our personal location?

Is there something sacramental about presence without nomenclature? While we're at it, just when did naming things begin? Was the creator in Genesis just joshing with Adam and Eve when he told them to name everything? Pulling their leg, so to speak. (Pulling their leg by suggesting they should speak?)

Presence without name. 

An interesting thought.

Before moving on to a close reading of our novelists, however, I wish to mention one other contemporary philosopher–Julia Kristeva–who also has had much to say on the sacramental imagination, especially as it relates to what she explicitly calls an aesthetic of “transubstantiation” in Proust and Joyce. As a linguist and psychoanalyst by formation, Kristeva adds new perspectives to the phenomenological vision of Merleau-Ponty which she also espouses. In particular she ventures rich insights into the workings of unconscious tropes and associations in modernist writing about sense and sensibility. In Time and Sense, Kristeva offers this example, amongst many others: 

A sensation from the past remains within us, and involuntary memory recaptures it when a related perception in the present is stimulated by the same desire as the prior sensation. A spatio-temporal association of sensations is thus established, relying on a link, a structure, and a reminiscence. Sensation takes refuge in this interwoven network and turns into an impression, which means that sensation loses its solitary specificity. A similarity emerges out of all these differences, eventually attaining the status of a general law in the manner of an idea or thought. The ‘general law,’ however, is no abstraction, for it is established because the sensation is immanent in it ... This process keeps the structure from losing its sensorial foundation. Music becomes word, and writing becomes a transubstantiation in those for whom it creates ‘new powers.’11 

Kristeva links this aesthetic of transubstantiation, which she finds in Joyce and Proust, back to the writings of the later Merleau-Ponty, which she calls “mystically significant.”12 Indeed her notion of a “general law” of ideational sensation is surely not unrelated to Merleau-Ponty’s reference to a “momentary law” cited above. Most specifically, Kristeva relates the eucharistic aesthetic to the chiasmic relation between the visible and invisible, the inner feeling and outer expression that Merleau-Ponty describes as a reversible interpenetration of flesh. Refusing the dualistic division of spirit and body into two separate substances, both Kristeva and Merleau-Ponty counsel us to rethink flesh more phenomenologically as an “element, as the concrete emblem of a general manner of being.”13 And in this respect, Kristeva keenly endorses Merleau-Ponty’s claim that “no one has gone further than Proust in fixing the relations between the visible and the invisible,”14 though she (like us) would want to add Joyce to the list. Indeed identifying Merleau-Ponty’s model of reversibility with the notion of “transubstantiation” in Proust and Joyce, Kristeva sees this miracle of the flesh as a model both for therapeutic healing and for reading literary texts. 

            (--pp.246-7, from, Sacramental Imagination: Eucharists of the Ordinary Universe, by Richard Kearney, 2009, Analecta Hermeneutica)

The thought arises that terms like transubstantiation and sacramental imagination are not necessarily proprietary to what we might consider established churches or traditional religions. Even my Catholic background glances at a widening inclusion of concepts once thought to be exclusive to liturgical theological spirituality. Perhaps absent the reverential piety accustomed to such themes, now quite secular poets, writers, filmmakers, and scholars are foraging through hithertofore overgrown fields of transferable philosophy and spirituality.

Put differently, God isn’t owned by anyone.

--    transubstantiation, in Christianity, the change by which the substance (though not the appearance) of the bread and wine in the Eucharist becomes Christ’s real presence—that is, his body and blood. In Roman Catholicism and some other Christian churches, the doctrine, which was first called transubstantiation in the 12th century, aims at safeguarding the literal truth of Christ’s presence while emphasizing the fact that there is no change in the empirical appearances of the bread and wine. See also consubstantiation.  (--Britannica)


Sacramental imagination refers to the ability to perceive and interpret the world as infused with divine significance, where everyday experiences and objects serve as visible signs of deeper spiritual realities. This perspective connects the material and spiritual realms, suggesting that through ordinary things, individuals can encounter and experience the presence of the sacred. The concept is crucial in understanding how literature can reflect and express theological ideas, especially in the context of devotional writings and novels that explore complex moral and philosophical questions.    https://library.fiveable.me/key-terms/religion-literature/sacramental-imagination

 Fact is I have heard during weekly conversations in two prisons over thirty five years enough spiritually sound and mystically concrete expressions of mind and heart — thoughts and words, telling interactions and experiences— coming from men charged and found guilty of any and all the crimes you could imagine — to convince me something is going on beyond the standard narrative usually associated with felons, inmates, prisoners, residents of maximum and minimum security prisons. As though monastery and university were masquerading as carceral confinement and committed conversation. Something's going on that is easily confused with something else.

They, along with the dozens and dozens of civilians in the larger community for whom  conversation and meditation practice are respite sanctuaries over time, become  representatives of a territory that might be called transubstantial and sacredly imaginative -- an inner and outer landscape -- dwellers in an evolving place where holiness is air breathed and awareness the very ground on which each stands.

It is the allowing of transformation and transcendence that whispers freedom through our soul. 

Who are we, really, in one another’s presence?

What inner reality is being birthed in our midst?

What daily death and miraculous resurrection takes place in our everyday surround?

What unknowing faith and trust germinates our inner infinity and outer boundless creation?

more and more, so soon again

After last few rainy days the Hosmer brook runs strong. 

How many hundreds of years has it sliced into mountain pushing rocks and tree roots into obvious appearance?

Like thoughts covered by silt and uncertainty arising through silence from dusky bed of archeologist sleep.

The mind seeking for truth

Begins, like a stream, shallow 

At first, but then 

Adds more and more depth 

While gaining greater clarity.



Saigyo (1118-1190)

Brook streams through consciousness taking it down winding turns with icy fingers stitching early skim out from fabric stones under crossing planks by dog and cat cemetery just beyond rusted 1930’s denuded Buick farm truck.

It is, after all, December.

It might be me — but wasn’t it just…?

if you make it they will come

 They’ve begun making

Snow over to the Snow Bowl —

There goes neighborhood

Sunday, December 01, 2024

the quest for

 What-Is-One-Alone

Is

Being-Singular-Eremetic

from some other side

 Three houses 

across road

This twilight

Have front lights

Lasting night

Lighthouses

In grey blanch


Three deer cross

Barnestown road

From Sally’s old land

To where the Gibbs lived

As if they knew firearms

Hunting ended six hours ago

They weave and scramble


Over to the bald mountain rise

This Maine Sunday morning

First Advent December 1st

Beginning final month of year —

It never occurred I’d live this long

Figured why get teeth fixed

Who cares about my opinion


But those deer and house lights 

The end of season and beginning

Of another one, the rituals

Like coffee, English muffins

Morning, peanut butter, jam

Donut holes from Canada 

Looking out at feeding birds


It’s possible I’m already dead

Writing this from some other side

Or I am a deer looking up at 

bedroom window where cat

Rises, turns, stares out window

Where tired night lights yawn

Urging filament to disconnect

seven twenty seven pm friday evening

…if nothing


is to be


said




and we have 


said it


well…




it is grace


to have so


accomplished




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