Amid the noise, a calm wisdom, with a perfect name, Jane Goodall:
https://bsky.app/profile/cajunblue.bsky.social/post/3mbck5q65qs2s
cheers!
Amid the noise, a calm wisdom, with a perfect name, Jane Goodall:
https://bsky.app/profile/cajunblue.bsky.social/post/3mbck5q65qs2s
cheers!
Walking harbor
After hugging man
whose wife just died
Brings me to Quaker sitting
Hands gassho and clap
Enfolding obscurity
A play in four lines:
Let’s pretend god exists.
Pretend?
Yeah, pretend.
Who do you think you're talking to?
[long pause]
[nothing else is heard]
Critics will love this work. They’ll compare it to Sartre and Ionesco. It will probably have only a brief run off-broadway, then on to the college theatre circuit. The costs these days are staggering.
It’s the final stage direction that will fill columns in daily newspapers. They’ll ask — how is it possible to hear nothing else?
You, you in your 3rd floor walk-up in Chicago— you tell them!
Doris, our elder, sent this Merwin poem yesterday:
To the New Year
With what stillness at last
you appear in the valley
your first sunlight reaching down
to touch the tips of a few
high leaves that do not stir
as though they had not noticed
and did not know you at all
then the voice of a dove calls
from far away in itself
to the hush of the morning
so this is the sound of you
here and now whether or not
anyone hears it this is
where we have come with our age
our knowledge such as it is
and our hopes such as they are
invisible before us
untouched and still possible
—W.S. Merwin
He might be writing about the new year, his true self, or, perhaps, God. Poems are like that. Once they leave home, they are both homeless and belong to everyone.
I ask God:
Who do people say you are?
You talking to me?
Yeah, you.
People think the damnedist things.
Like?
Like I'm breath.
Are you, breath?
Yeah, I am.
What else?
Some say I'm everything.
Are you?
Yeah, I am.
What else?
Nothing.
Are you?
Yeah.
Talking to God is awkward. I know God doesn't talk out loud, that I make it up, phrase whatever comes to mind. I know that I'm probably just having an inner dialogue with myself.
Merwin wrote
from far away in itself
to the hush of the morning
so this is the sound of you
I like that.
God and my self and the new year -- each sounds that way.
Saying nothing other than distant hush, stillness, sunlight reaching down.
In 1957, as I entered high school, I read Allen Ginsberg in a poem saying "Poet is Priest." It was a line in his "Death to Van Goth's Ear".
It caught my attention. I'd just turned twelve. It's when I began my love of poetry. It had a sacramental implimentation. The implication for me was an exclaustrated creativity that cycled through my years, then decades, into a lifetime of being just outside the monastic cell of religious horarium, just outside the monastic enclosure whose signage seemed to say -- "stay away, but stay close."
Consecration is an inner act of reverence to all that belongs.
When the priest at mass echoing Jesus used to say "Hoc est corpus meum" (This is my body) -- I heard also "per omnia secular secularum" (through all ages of ages, now is forever, all is what is here). My bastardized translation and odd understanding threw me into the scripture of prophecy, poetry, and projective verse.
In developing his poetics, [Charles] Olson drew from a wide array of influences, including mythology, the history and geography of Gloucester, and the process philosophy of Alfred North Whitehead. Olson believed that the act of poetic creation should be connected to a primordial dimension of human existence. He wrote in his landmark essay “Projective Verse” (1950) that poetry was a form of “energy transferred from where the poet got it” to the reader. In distinction from the “closed form” of conventional poetic meter, Olson proposed an “open field” that “projects” organically from the poem’s content—i.e., the perception of the poet who interacts with and yet is an integral part of the poet’s immediate environment. Olson used the duration of a human breath, a basic human function that conveyed a poet’s vital energy, as the measure of a poetic line.
https://www.britannica.com/biography/Charles-Olson#ref1106576
I would read Olson, Creeley, Williams, Merwin, Ginsberg, Rich, Snyder, Antoninus, Kinnell, Eliot, Pound, Duncan, Empson, Edson, Harjo, Hirshfield, Paston, Basho, Issa, Buson, Takahashi, Sakaki --among many others.
Poet was priest for me.
Poems, scripture.
The poetic, my monastery.
Today, in this cell, this poetic -- i.e. "an imaginative sensitive emotional thoughtful expression" (dictionary) of what is revealing itself -- is the muted vocation that cloisters me in daily practice.
This by Takahashi:
Destruction
English version by Lucien Stryk and Takashi Ikemoto
Original Language Japanese
The universe is forever falling apart --
No need to push the button,
It collapses at a finger's touch:
Why, it barely hangs on the tail of a sparrow's eye.
The universe is so much eye secretion,
Hordes leap from the tips
Of your nostril hairs. Lift your right hand:
It's in your palm. There's room enough
On the sparrow's eyelash for the whole.
A paltry thing, the universe:
Here is all the strength, here the greatest strength.
You and the sparrow are one
And, should he wish, he can crush you.
The universe trembles before him.
Sander-plow slowly
Passes toward town
Icy road
Not even deer
Chance
The footing
Wind
Blows hard
Ice clenches
Itself
As prayer
Might hope
Year slides
To end
Dont break
Bones or heart
Heartshine
Let’s call it
That, or
Heart-hue
When inner
Feeling embraces
Outer appearance
With emotion
These rare
Times you
Are not there
But love is
some think
the oddity
of current
presidency
will have to
come crashing
down under
weight of
criminality
cruelty, and
crushing lies --
but not me
I think it
will continue
until the end
of my time, that
liminal passage
from awfulness
to absolute abuse.
Absolve us our
awful thoughts
the pessimism
after watching
the cutting gutting
no, it will continue
and I will capitulate
join the crazies
praising the grand
mufti of mayhem --
all hail to himself!
not having
to go anywhere
or do
anything
my life
becomes wide
with silence
stillness
the way water
leaks through
roof into
front room
collected in
buckets on bed
behind swivel
chair, my life
Mostly I remember Richard Burton and Peter O’Toole on horseback (Thomas à Beckett and King Henry II) on a beach discussing the absurd fate landing on them and their friendship in a political time.
Now is my way clear, now is the meaning plain:
Temptation shall not come in this kind again.
The last temptation is the greatest treason:
To do the right deed for the wrong reason.(--T.S. Eliot's Murder in the Cathedral)
The awkward calculus of ethical and moral clarity in a troubled time weighs on the human heart. Every assassin somewhere believes that are doing the right thing. The world is shocked at their action. Commentators endlessly discuss the rationale, the mental illness, the antagonistic motivations for their murderous act. Sides are taken. If he is handsome, a mythology forms. If foreign, a renewed hatred arises.
Beckett is murdered in the cathedral. The troublesome priest has been rid. Henry submits his back for the lash. He is penitent. But he is king. He rules on.
Human history is an unsatisfactory thing. Justice is seldom the outcome of dispute and political maneuvering. The cunning and clever, i.e. the rich and powerful, seldom are held accountable for despicable acts and cruel behavior.
It seems to go that way.
Our fate, if you will.
If you are a fatalist.
I prefer to think of it as simple, uncomplicated ignorance. Side-skirting the clamor to label bad behavior “evil,” I prefer to see it as a deficient heart and a disinterested mind.
I begin to sense that the inner creates the outer. Then, if maturation continues, the inner becomes the outer. (Our mythology of the christian incarnation follows this process.)
To give the benefit of the doubt, I imagine when our evangelical fundamentalist friends blithely ask if I’ve accepted Christ as my personal lord and savior, they are asking from a deep unconscious place whether I understand that unless the clear and undivided inner wholeness that centers all of creation is seen and accepted, the outer expression of the world will remain and be the chaotic divisive confusion of ego-fractured separation and unfeeling dominance it is and has been since its origin.
“Christ,” in this mythology, is that which ‘saves’ us from the delusion of hostile difference and cruel indifference. Christ is the manifestation (some say in human form) of what might be called loving wholeness in particular expression purposed to heal the illusion of fragmentation and to assist in effectuating harmonious peace and attentive presence encouraging meaningful interconnection and compassion amid and within all creation.
The shorthand for this might be -- to take away sin.
If we were to take away institutional hubris and political machination, is “Christ” that which is meant to guide humanity (vide all creation) through chaos and despair into harmony, stability, and peace?
The christ reality, rather than being the proprietory patent of institution and church management, is open source intercommunion of all being, all beings, seeking nourishing existence and loving service one unto the other.
The wrong reason is to have everyone join your belief system. The right deed is to allow love to appear in the inner and outer world on its own, in its own way.
For Sunday Evening Practice:
As year ends, I revisit my roots and invite you to look in.I am enthused that genuine spirituality is everyday life, everyday encounters, everyday things.
"The greatest discovery was that the heart of Celtic spirituality was simply living the life, following the Way, traveling the journey in the everyday ordinariness of life –the pain and the pleasure, the heartaches and the hopes, the disappointment and the dreams. This is of great importance because this is essentially what spirituality is.” (—Trevor Miller)
It intrigues me that (it is soberingly possible) what we’ve seen as our need of scriptures, gurus, clergy, shamans, masters, or the panoply of spiritual teachers, is a fading and diminishing need, giving way to an associative inner self-reflection and community intercommunication as our exploration and supportive correctivity/connectivity.Are we (mercifully) being thrown back to ordinary experience and conversational intuition with all beings and things, here and now, to reveal our shared worth and our material/spiritual direction?Cheers,s&b
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Celtic Spirituality – A Beginner’s Guide
Trevor Miller reflects on Celtic Spirituality.
https://www.northumbriacommunity.org/articles/celtic-spirituality-a-beginners-guide/
... ... ...
to them that serve
who pledge to protect
from foreign and
domestic enemies
with gratitude and
respect for what you do
for your country
above board and unshy --
you know your duty
you know what honor is
legitimate and courageous --
be faithful and respected
Why sit
Why be still
Why not know
Silly questions
Silly unmoving
Silly awareness
I once wanted
Something, anything —
Now, nothing, suffices
I’m amazed
To be alone
With nothing else
The end of things
Driven by some intelligence
Beyond our ken
Proves, says Thomas
There is an intelligence
Beyond our grasping
The fifth proof of
An existing God
That tumbersault mind
Happily lands on two feet —
Taking applause
Arms outstretched
Bowing from waist
Bouquet arriving at stage —
Design, the end
Precedes beginning
You are because what
You are doing adds up.
Go ahead, factor origin
Divided by duration
Equaling destination halved
And how’d by quotient
Division without a divide
Positing a whole over parts
I was never good at math
Nor logic, the good is
Only only as good as the
Included bad, embracing
Choicelessness, unknown
Whims, necessary faults
All (it is said) of a piece
(Pieces broken on ground)
God, they say, will reconstruct
Refashioning integrity despite
Shards and pieces and debris.
The compute, the calculation
Factors back within the scattered
Pieces— all of them, regathered.
The ergo, as Cummings wrote,
what do you mean
you are different
not the same
different
day is cold
eight bells
snow tightens
light darkens
perhaps we should
abandon who we think
we are, the purity of
our preferences, let
what is passing
pass, without comment
the way the thought
of peace is not peace
and a prayer is just
a preference thrown like dice
'Better a diamond with a flaw than a pebble without.' (Confucius)
Of course John Prine wrote
a song called “Christmas in Prison”
the day comes, the day goes
people start talking about new year’s
no wrapping paper, no candles
just wary greetings from second tier.
and it's over, same old same old
voices loud and Christ got born and all
back in his home with steel door closed
night does its job putting day to sleep
Yes
One day follows
Another
Three hundred
Sixty three days
Until Christmas
It’s beginning
To look
A lot like this
Zen is the practice
Of no barriers;
Contemplation the practice
Of no boundaries.
May we (mais oui)
Practice well!
there are a few of them on the mountain
hangers-on, shimmying in brutal cold
staying put, watching friends fall away
willy nelson has his say, says it just right
No prison conversation today
Education department closed
Just well-wishes
To all of us
In our prisons —
May we be released
Soon
by which the rising sun will come to us from heaven
79 to shine on those living in darkness
and in the shadow of death,
to guide our feet into the path of peace.”
—Luke 1
Think about
Solitude
You’re
Alone
Thing about
Prayer
You’re
In God
Thing about
Being human
You’re alone
With God
“The eternal birth of the word takes place in the ground of the soul.”
(--Meister Eckhart)
“It is the awakening of the pure I am in each of us as each of us.”
(--Rupert Spira)
https://youtu.be/oUVQBuEtrM8?si=f2pZoiqX3iI6L69H
Prosit!
To believe is not a belief, it is an act of faith
It is not to understand, but to affirm, to consent
If I believe in God, I can say yes. Saying yes does
not mean I comprehend what yes implies, only
that I step forward, or sit on cushion, or look in eye
while unable to say anything but please and thank you
Putting my solitude into perspective, coming off Tuesday Evening Conversation about the good and the not-good, about cruelty and diseased self-aggrandizement, this from Edward R. Murrow on Buchenwald, April 15, 1945. I was eight months old.
https://youtu.be/YlhQvPfYSXk?si=6o2PIBnFLBdRWhb-
Robert Lowell wrote in his poem “Epilogue” --
All’s misalliance,
Yet why not say what happened?
It seems to me, today, that remembering the suffering of others is suitable impetus to long for the awakening in oneself and others (both of whom, obtuse and cruel), which awakening is the coming to earth of a new vision, a new expression, and a new embodiment of what it could mean to be human.
The Jesus story, now subsumed under Christmas lights and tinsel, gets pushed into the corner of living rooms and church carols. Instead of being seen as a radical invitation to love and transform the very nature of personal self into an interpersonal and inter-cosmic re-evaluation of existence itself, we have continued on our familiar holiday routines of gifts, goodies, and grousing.
(Remember, these words from someone solitary and reclusive during these days of culmination of a calendar year and the festivities of theological sensationalism. These words are suspect and aperspectival.)
The cats have been fed and there’s more coffee in the kitchen
I’ve begun to consider the incarnation as the revelation of things as they are.
When we abstract all the folklore, myth, and metaphor, we look at desert people under the thumb of formidable and merciless rulers.
These rulers have replicated this impulse to dominate and control those living within the ambiance of their authority throughout history.
This is the way things are. The question is -- is there something afoot, something not-yet, that pierces the facts of human existence as it is and has been -- so that a transformation, a going beyond how things have been, a devastating realization/penetration into a new reality, a new character, a new revelation is available and presenting itself?
I don’t know.
Are we so damaged by narcissistic self-absorption that the invitation to incarnate a new aseity, auto-generative, wholistic, autodidactic -- the unfiltered inchoate creative imagination of that-which-we-have-called-God?
I don’t think I have fully understood this “story” this offering of incarnation and its universal imagination infusing all of creation and each being therein.
I don’t think we have understood this.
But the invitation to sit inside it, to contemplate it from within, and to empty out what no longer serves us toward some sort of moksha, some variant understanding of redemption...
Some arrival that recognizes both those who knew Buchenwald and those willing to embody the transforming ecstatic liberation remembering who we really are, who we are not-yet, becoming.
We are poor passing facts,warned by that to giveeach figure in the photographhis living name.
(--Robert Lowell, ibid)
(Or, as it might have played out in the neighborhood where I grew up:
What’s your name?
Don’t worry about my name.
What’ll I call you?
Don’t call me anything.
How will I know it’s you?
You won’t.
[silence]
What should I say?
Say thank you, then shut up and go away!
[exeunt]
When you can’t grasp something, don’t. When you can’t hear something, stay silent. When you have no idea what to say or do, practice MU!
I’ll be on my cushion if you want me.
Plow passes
Quiet
Bald and Ragged
Stillness, mountains
Look out
As I do
At what is
Coming to be
Cuppa chai tea.
Waiting on snow.
Bread order picked up from Rockland.
Provisions stocked.
Dog and his mistress packed up and drove off.
Bird feeders filled.
Till now you seriously
Considered yourself
To be the body and to have a form.
That is the primal ignorance
Which is the root cause of all trouble.
--Ramana Maharshi (1879-1950)
My primal ignorance turns to look at me.
My body sits in chair by window.
Banana bread.
Coffee milk.
“Huh...What trouble?” Jeremiah Johnson answered the old trapper who asked him if it all was worth the trouble.
The vitriol
Against this president
Becomes unproductive
Let him go
He is meant to go
Let, instead, love
Pray to become
A better person
In his absence
Faggin says he will soon be able to prove that a tree has consciousness, that it has no need of a brain, but has consciousness.
Entanglement took over thirty years to prove that entanglement exists after the first experiment showed that it exists because scientists didn’t want entanglement. ...It connects everything from the inside. It’s what allows the world to be holistic. (--Frederico Faggin)
In prison today we looked at Joseph Brodsky’s poem:
December 24, 1971
For V.S.
When it’s Christmas we’re all of us magi.
At the grocers’ all slipping and pushing.
Where a tin of halvah, coffee-flavored,
is the cause of a human assault-wave
by a crowd heavy-laden with parcels:
each one his own king, his own camel.
Nylon bags, carrier bags, paper cones,
caps and neckties all twisted up sideways.
Reek of vodka and resin and cod,
orange mandarins, cinnamon, apples.
Floods of faces, no sign of a pathway
toward Bethlehem, shut off by blizzard.
And the bearers of moderate gifts
leap on buses and jam all the doorways,
disappear into courtyards that gape,
though they know that there’s nothing inside there:
not a beast, not a crib, nor yet her,
round whose head gleams a nimbus of gold.
Emptiness. But the mere thought of that
brings forth lights as if out of nowhere.
Herod reigns but the stronger he is,
the more sure, the more certain the wonder.
In the constancy of this relation
is the basic mechanics of Christmas.
That’s what they celebrate everywhere,
for its coming push tables together.
No demand for a star for a while,
but a sort of good will touched with grace
can be seen in all men from afar,
and the shepherds have kindled their fires.
Snow is falling: not smoking but sounding
chimney pots on the roof, every face like a stain.
Herod drinks. Every wife hides her child.
He who comes is a mystery: features
are not known beforehand, men’s hearts may
not be quick to distinguish the stranger.
But when drafts through the doorway disperse
the thick mist of the hours of darkness
and a shape in a shawl stands revealed,
both a newborn and Spirit that’s Holy
in your self you discover; you stare
skyward, and it’s right there:
a star.
Copyright Credit: Joseph Brodsky, "December 24, 1971" from Collected Poems in English, 1972-1999. Copyright © 2000 by the Estate of Joseph Brodsky.
One of the men wanted to be sure I made a note of what he was about to say in final circle: “Love is the action of removing within for the sake of without.”
Earlier a staff member engaged in playful banter with three of the men and said to one of them a sentence that also bears some thought: “They’re always together and I’m not.”
This notion of disappearing into the reality at hand resonates the holiday called Christmas coming up in three days.
One says the ‘why’ of incarnation and crucifixion has to do with love, “not to be devoid of his presence.”
An entering and an absenting?
I wondered if the “inside/outside” should be switched in his words on love. “No,” he said.
And I take it to my meditation seat.
"There are no questions to a machine. There are only answers to a machine." (---Federico Faggin)
Trumpism is a machine.
It has only its own answers
unhearing any questions asked
Yes
If what is
Real and true
Whispers in darkness
So too the holy
Like morning mist
In spray of trees on mountain
Yes
If pale blue light
Brushstrokes upper left
Of northeast window pane
Yes
I say yes, this spiritual life
Of noticing and listening to
What longs to appear and sound
Yes
Let me out
I will go
Into emptiness there —
Yes
It is consciousness that creates mathematics, not mathematics that creates consciousness. (---Federico Faggin)
there it is
beyond mathematics
consciousness itself
if you love me
become flesh
if you love what-is
become human
otherwise,
remain invisible
otherwise
utter no sound
darkness and silence,
she said, the feminine --
light and logos shine through,
he said, nothing
Cat occupies swivel chair
Curls in corner of it by window
She thinks catching mouse in
Middle of night gives privileges,
Bah, phooey, I toss it from window
Sit in another chair
Whoa, (pulling on reins)
Good gal, ease up, (comes to stop)
Good goin’, my dark beauty
.(snorts, scrapes ground, stands still)
Far enough, steady girl, rest a beat
We’ll be turning back, (stands unmoving)
Wintah' balances on front legs,
Darkness at its end, beginning, still,
It is time to turn, (gently pulls
head to left) looks down moonless trail
Starts ahead, slowly, easy, carrying
Light in saddlebag, as tired darkness,
Dismounted, on solid ground, is left behind—
Now each step inch by inch urges toward light
Winter’s cold rehab through stasis looks ahead
Each step inch by inch getting lighter
Deep darkness changed us, pausing, lets up,
Look inside, we hear from little way, do you feel it?
Yes, yes (we think) we do. (Turning, turning),
new dawn, new light. Right here, just now, turning
I attended a Christmas party tonight
The place was green and red
All the people that were there
We’re sweet and kind and dead
I didn’t attend a party
Only headlights on the road
I’m told soon it will be Christmas
I’ll wander this abode
Incorporeality.
God has no body (from Latin, incorporale), or is non-physical. This is a central tenet of monotheistic religions, which insist that any references to God’s eyes, ears, mind, and the like are anthropomorphic. Christian belief in the incarnation is a unique case in which God takes on human form in Christ.
While some regard God’s incorporeality as true analytically (that is, true by the very definition of the word “God”), others derive it from one or more other attributes. Accordingly, God cannot be corporeal because that would preclude his being eternal, immutable, and simple, for example. Furthermore, if God were corporeal and omnipresent, it would seem that all physical things would be part of God. Others derive divine incorporeality from an apparent incorporeal element of human nature, termed the soul or spirit.
So, what do you think about this?
Me? I dunno.
It’s early yet. Take your time.
Ok. Thanks. I will.
[end scene. lights dim. curtain falls. audience leaves]
One small boy looks at his mother and asks “What does it mean?”
She smiles at him, takes his hand, and, immediately, they disappear with whatever meaning they might have found.
Camera centers in to volunteer usher off to left who says: “Don't let the uncertainty turn you around. Go on and make a joyful sound.” (Quoting For a Dancer, from Late for the Sky, by Jackson Browne)
Or, perhaps, if something further is necessitated, Hymn before Sun-rise, in the Vale of Chamouni, by Samuel Taylor Coleridge.
Poems, and corporeal beings, don’t just appear and disappear, you know! There’s more to it than meets the eye or is contained in our philosophy,
Act 1 Scene 5 of Shakespeare’s play, Hamlet, Hamlet says to his friend: “There are more things in Heaven and Earth, Horatio, than are dreamt of in your philosophy.”
Sigh!
[Exeunt omnes]