as is

Epiphany is the contemplation of the word “as”.

“As” is the word used to embody “is”.

And so, today we see “as is” in a whole, new, light.

to visualize or interpret as, epiphany

    Epiphany as . . .

At times, words speak for themselves.

From Merriam-Webster Dictionary:

Definition of epiphanyplural epiphanies1capitalized  : January 6 observed as a church festival in commemoration of the coming of the Magi as the first manifestation of Christ to the Gentiles or in the Eastern Church in commemoration of the baptism of Christ 2: an appearance or manifestation especially of a divine being  

3a (1) : a usually sudden manifestation or perception of the essential nature or meaning of something  

(2) : an intuitive grasp of reality through something (such as an event) usually simple and striking  

(3) : an illuminating discovery, realization, or disclosure

b : a revealing scene or moment
https://www.merriam-webster.com/dictionary/epiphany 

Origin and Etymology of epiphany
Middle English epiphanie, from Anglo-French, from Late Latin epiphania, from Late Greek, plural, probably alteration of Greek epiphaneiaappearance, manifestation, from epiphainein to manifest, from epi- + phainein to show — more at fancy
Definition of fancyfancied; fancyingtransitive verb1: to have a fancy (see 2fancy 1) for : like  

• He's all right, I suppose, but I can't say that I fancy him.
 

2: to form a conception of : imagine  

• fancyour embarrassment
 

 

 
• Just fancy my surprise when I heard that he was getting married.
 

 

3a : to believe mistakenly or without evidence 
b : to believe without being certain  

• she fancied she had met him before
 

 

 
• real or fancied wrongs
 

4: to visualize or interpret as  

 
• fancied myself a child again

https://www.merriam-webster.com/dictionary/fancy

facts

-2°

10:47pm

Winter,

Maine

to dwell as what we are

We make of nihility one more thing to conquer, substitute for, or use as means for profit.

From Keiji Nishitani's perspective a culture of self-centeredness has developed out of the inability of many people to move beyond a sense of nihilism in their lives.
(—in, Keiji Nishitani and Karl Rahner: A Response to Nihility, by Heidi Ann Russell)

Nishitani would have us consider falling through relative nihility into absolute nihility where we’d come to dwell in nothing other than what is itself.

Instrumentality, substitutive retrieving, and mechanistic manipulations would be set aside in favor of abandoning ourselves through the empty fullness of coming to dwell as what we are — nothing other.

Imagine; nothing other!

res ipsa loquitur — listening to what is taking place

 It is a tense time for the republic of America.

res ipsa loquitur, (rayz ip-sah loh-quit-her) n. Latin for "the thing speaks for itself," a doctrine of law that one is presumed to be negligent if he/she/it had exclusive control of whatever caused the injury even though there is no specific evidence of an act of negligence, and without negligence the accident would not have happened. Examples: a) a load of bricks on the roof of a building being constructed by Highrise Construction Co. falls and injures Paul Pedestrian below, and Highrise is liable for Pedestrian's injury even though no one saw the load fall. b) While under anesthetic, Isabel Patient's nerve in her arm is damaged although it was not part of the surgical procedure, and she is unaware of which of a dozen medical people in the room caused the damage. Under res ipsa loquitur all those connected with the operation are liable for negligence. Lawyers often shorten the doctrine to "res ips," and find it a handy shorthand for a complex doctrine.

http://dictionary.law.com/Default.aspx?selected=1823 

It is the time of bricks and nerves.

They are falling and fraying.

Be careful!

wording trump

Words matter.

What’s the matter with Trump?

No words about him come near truth.

No words by him appear to have any stability.

His words don’t matter.

They are less than noiseless phantasm.

They are anti-matter.

“Stable antimatter does not appear to exist in our universe.” (New Oxford American Dictionary)

I can’t hear what he is...

(just) saying...

I can’t hear him.

jitai, じたい

Absolute nihility, according to Keiji Nishitani, is when everything is empty of anything other than itself.

I have nowhere to go with this.
copied  Russell, Heidi Ann. “Keiji Nishitani and Karl Rahner: A Response to Nihility.” Buddhist-Christian Studies, vol. 28, 2008, pp. 27–41. JSTOR, JSTOR, www.jstor.org/stable/30152926.

and then it is tuesday

What is alone?

Is God the Alone?

“Bells are meant to remind us that God alone is good,”  (-Thomas Merton, Thoughts in Solitude) 

That God, alone, is good.

No wonder so many fear God!

Who wants to be alone?

Who wants to be with the alone?

Hmmm...

I do. 

new year night

moonlight on

clear white snow

squeaks stepping cold

start again

New Year’s Day!

ANTHEM

                                 by Leonard Cohen

The birds they sang
at the break of day
Start again
I heard them say
Don't dwell on what
has passed away
or what is yet to be.
Ah the wars they will
be fought again
The holy dove
She will be caught again
bought and sold
and bought again
the dove is never free.

Ring the bells that still can ring
Forget your perfect offering
There is a crack in everything
That's how the light gets in.

We asked for signs
the signs were sent:
the birth betrayed
the marriage spent
Yeah the widowhood
of every government --
signs for all to see.

I can't run no more
with that lawless crowd
while the killers in high places
say their prayers out loud.
But they've summoned, they've summoned up
a thundercloud
and they're going to hear from me.

Ring the bells that still can ring ...

You can add up the parts
but you won’t have the sum
You can strike up the march,
there is no drum
Every heart, every heart
to love will come
but like a refugee.

Ring the bells that still can ring
Forget your perfect offering
There is a crack, a crack in everything
That's how the light gets in.


Ring the bells that still can ring
Forget your perfect offering
There is a crack, a crack in everything
That's how the light gets in.
That's how the light gets in.
That’s how the light gets in.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6wRYjtvIYK0

Then, like some Zen master, Christian mystic, or Tibetan Rinpoche insinuating reincarnation, rebirth, or resurrection, the artist poet Leonard Cohan says to the assembled: “Thank you so much for your kind attention! We’ll be back in a few minutes.”

And so

it is ...

what is

itself 

goes on

to, with, as

At hospital

as patient visitor

this afternoon

Each one

speaks the here

of their being there.

From book tonight at practice:

Creation is the voice of God!

The crisis of the Word is a crisis of theology -- literally -- “God talk.” We have lost a Christian theology that adequately conveys the idea that creation is God speaking to us.”
  (--p.9, Care For Creation, [a franciscan spirituality of the earth], by Ilia Delio, Keith Douglass Warner, and Pamela Wood

We grow despondent as

a people, not knowing

what we are to be

listening

to, with, as

saturday night

Buttermilk.

That’s what she sipped.
Ice water too.

Did I want coffee, she asks?
No, thanks, I say

Just someone rounding eights,
Warming her hands in mine

In hospice room

coldest before dawn

Wood fire went out by time I come down at 4:50AM 

Two hours to practice.

Citta steals a sit on lap.

Red glow from brown wood-stove.

It, too, practices.

without ideals or violence

Two car batteries frozen at -4°F this morning. 

AAA arrives. He says I’ll be needing a new battery, rather than his returning daily this cold snap.  (He didn’t say that last thing, I did.)

You wonder how the trees stand it.

Winter Trees
     by, William Carlos Williams, 1883 - 1963 

All the complicated details
of the attiring and
the disattiring are completed!
A liquid moon
moves gently among
the long branches.
Thus having prepared their buds
against a sure winter
the wise trees
stand sleeping in the cold.

Couldn’t go into prison today, nor did I plan to, but couldn’t if I wanted to. A vacation day. Submitted three change-of-grades for last spring’s students yesterday. Felt like I did something. Read a bunch of papers that reminded me how students make the best of questionable teaching.

The slim cat is bored. She jumps on my stretched legs. Her throwing up exercise is over. The dog won’t play with her. The cellar door is closed.  The porch is now at 6° and is off limits except for the tree with white lights standing stiffly.

End of year nears. The post Christmas feasts I used to note carefully (Stephen, John, Innocents, Becket) arrive and depart with cold appraisal. Faces and artwork of deceased compañeros glance desultorily onto the room. From dining room repeated beep of voiceless message perseverates its meaningless notification.

I’ve been up since before dawn. I learn the drug war is endlessly promulgating itself, the political do-si-do spins tirelessly across landscape, and song birds seem grateful for sunflower seeds on bitter days at foot of mountain.

A four-line stanza attributed to the founder of Chinese Zen, Bodhidharma (6th century A.D.),  tells of Zen:

A special transmission outside the scriptures
No dependence upon words and letters;
Direct pointing at the soul of man;
Seeing into one’s own nature and the attainment of Buddha-hood.  

Merton, in Mystics and Zen Masters, tells:

A disciple once asked a Zen master: “I wish to read the sutras, and what would you advise me to do about it?” The master replied: “Do you think a merchant who deals in millions would bother about making a few pennies?” (p.220) 

When I think of current tax legislation and the millionaires authoring it, there’s not much confidence they care about the nickel and dime constituents to whom they pander, but rather, seek their own gold-bar relief and that of their patrons dealing from the top of the deck with Kings, Queens, Jacks, and Aces.

My love she speaks like silence / Without ideals or violence                                                                                (--from, Love Minus Zero/No Limit,WRITTEN BY: BOB DYLAN)

That’s closer to it.

Maybe Satchmo Armstrong playing blues. He’s got a right to sing the blues. Like the men and women selling and shooting heroin in Baltimore and Oakland, the ones preying and praying on each other. The off-rhythm of our lives.

What do you think we’d see once direct pointing at the soul realized its aim?

Woodpile diminishes.

from Greek, monos, alone

Political, the word, is rooted in Greek polis: a Greek city-state;  broadly  : a state or society especially when characterized by a sense of community. (Dictionary)

When used as a derogatory epithet, is it because someone is attempting to speak for a particular segment of the community and not the particular segment of community someone else wishes to represent? 

And who speaks for the community as a whole?

We are not attentive to the whole.

Fragments are easier to attend to. It is easier to fragment than it is to whole.

The first line in John Fowle’s novel, Daniel Martin, is WHOLE SIGHT; OR ALL THE REST IS DESOLATION. It has been a koan for me. 

Elsewhere,

In Daniel Martin Fowles explores the concept of “whole sight” in a variety of ways. Sometimes he uses direct discourse. At one point the character Anthony tells Daniel,

"I'm still defeated by the conundrum of God. But I have the Devil clear."
"And what's he?"
"Not seeing whole."

From this we might infer that “seeing whole” can be linked to God, godliness, or the divine
(cf http://www.fowlesbooks.com/forum/viewtopic.php?f=5&t=49)


If such an interpretation is valid, it could be argued that the majority of people might not be interested in seeing things whole. We might not be interested, therefore, in God. God as wholeness. Not the “God” appropriated and trademarked by established religions as mandated focus of fragmented doctrine and moral positioning.

E. M. Forester in Howard’s End is quoted:

She might yet be able to help him to the building of the rainbow bridge that should connect the prose in us with the passion. Without it we are meaningless fragments, half monks, half beasts, unconnected arches that have never joined into a man. With it love is born, and alights on the highest curve, glowing against the grey, sober against the fire. Happy the man who sees from either aspect the glory of these outspread wings. The roads of his soul lie clear, and he and his friends shall find easy-going.

• Ch. 22

• Only connect! That was the whole of her sermon. Only connect the prose and the passion, and both will be exalted, and human love will be seen at its height. Live in fragments no longer. Only connect, and the beast and the monk, robbed of the isolation that is life to either, will die.

• Ch. 22

• In these English farms, if anywhere, one might see life steadily and see it whole, group in one vision its transitoriness and its eternal youth, connect — connect without bitterness until all men are brothers.

• Ch. 33.        https://en.m.wikiquote.org/wiki/E._M._Forster

Mono, in Greek, means one. (From Greek, monos, alone).

It is a choice, some say, to be alone. Alone by oneself, alone with others, alone with the Alone.

At meetingbrook the descriptive we use is “monastics of no other.”

Perhaps we should add: alone with all the fragmented.

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Trump: Makes America Grate Again

if you must weep

Then there are the days the bear eats you.

Not often, but sometimes, it feels like something large and unstoppable fills the trail ahead.

The blustering and mendacious president and his obsequious opportunistic Republican Congress feel like looming bear who’s caught scent of traveler in middle of forest as last daylight looks to crawl behind darkening trees.

Night arrives. Whiff of fear like cold weather carbon monoxide spreads.

He is, it appears, a rapacious devouring golemesque anomaly. His devotees fill the public square with smug menace. Names like Hannity, Limbaugh, Beck, Hatch, Pence, Nunes, McConnell, Bannon, and other voices make you want to follow Lao Tzu out gate of despondency into obscurity.

A poem by Stanley Kunitz offers sanctuary:

Benediction
BY STANLEY KUNITZ 

God banish from your house
The fly, the roach, the mouse 

That riots in the walls
Until the plaster falls; 

Admonish from your door
The hypocrite and liar; 

No shy, soft, tigrish fear
Permit upon your stair, 

Nor agents of your doubt.
God drive them whistling out. 

Let nothing touched with evil,
Let nothing that can shrivel 

Heart's tenderest frond, intrude
Upon your still, deep blood. 

Against the drip of night
God keep all windows tight, 

Protect your mirrors from
Surprise, delirium, 

Admit no trailing wind
Into your shuttered mind 

To plume the lake of sleep
With dreams. If you must weep 

God give you tears, but leave
You secrecy to grieve, 

And islands for your pride,
And love to nest in your side. 

--Stanley Kunitz, “Benediction” from The Collected Poems of Stanley Kunitz.Copyright © 2002

Suddenly, after long meandering, again listening to David Foster Wallace’s Infinite Jest this morning. 

He cheers.

The gritty Boston AA descriptive, prose raw and melodic, a hand on slumping shoulder, balm to terrible time. 

don't mind me

It is the inner, contained, space for which we have no name.

Eventually I came to understand that the Runa do not have vocabulary for the edges that we perceive separating one element from another. This reflects their social structure and their perceptions of the physical world and even their political status. (from novel, The Sparrow, by Mary Doria Russell page 233)

We know edges, and we traverse edges. Walls, ceilings, floors -- these we name and dwell between. Gates, borders, property boundaries -- these we guard and protect with fierce determination.

It seems to be how we are. It seems our vocabulary shapes our mental and physical space.

Now that there is nothing left to say, perhaps everything will disappear.

Where did I leave my mind?

what is between silence and poetry

When words become real they are known as acts.

If words sound true enough they likely become facts.

Ultimately for a word to become a body it must be what it attracts.

When it is time to create and realize what it means to be human, God, with silence and poetry, interacts.

one body at a time through now into here.

The one who is to come is the one that is here. Source moving forward and beyond what we can think.

Let me seek, then, the gift of silence, and poverty, and solitude, where everything I touch is turned into a prayer: where the sky is my prayer, the birds are my prayer, the wind in the trees is my prayer, for God is all in all.   ~ from THOUGHTS IN SOLITUDE  by Thomas Merton"  

At Sunday Evening Practice last night, after video excerpt from Ilia Delio, Catholicity, Cosmology and Consciousness: Why Wholeness Matters, followed by fish and linguini, and chocolate lovers torte, someone caught the thread of conversation with the observation — “We are source looking back at itself.”

In Maine, snow.

We wonder about this incarnation.

With gratefulness.

As wood stove needs feeding and coffee heating, white dog jumping up to abandoned bed.

And from the future God draws us forward one body at a time through now into here.