no sé nada.

 It’s nearly 2AM.

     I know.

Go to bed.

     I know.

Do you?

     No

so laufen diese dinge nun mal.

My body doesn’t want to leave the house anymore.

It loses its taste for food.

It sits in chair by window

Drinks seltzer in evening. Tea these mornings 

A student’s first task should be to abandon your idea of your self. To abandon your idea of your self means that you should not be attached to this body.

Even if you have understood the sayings of the ancients and sit all the time like iron or stone, if you remain attached to this body, it is impossible to attain the way of the buddhas and enlightened ancestors, even in myriad eons over a thousand lifetimes.

Dogen (1200-1252)

My body gets ready to disappear.

It’s ok.

It’s how these things go.