Thursday, November 28, 2013

The word becomes you pronouncing it

What are you . . . saying? 

"Every creature is a word of God." (Meister Eckhart)

Yes!

“If the only prayer you ever say in your entire life is thank you, it will be enough.” (Meister Eckhart)

Fine words!


Passing observation


Wind winds through
bare brown branches 
blown smooth 


empty 
after rain

Wednesday, November 27, 2013

As dawn so death

Cat and mouse debate Wednesday morning under window by bed as sound of rain, low growling, and unfinished argument patter over motley colored rug.


If I were to die today, like mouse having wandered from walls to open space, would I know the difference between anything? Or would I not be there to consider anything, having fallen into the open with no boundaries or references to suggest anything other whatsoever?


Two cats, agents of no-othering, prowl the contours of steel shelving for signs of what seems to be considering itself still other.

Tuesday, November 26, 2013

Walking where once I walked


Every day twice a day.

Thirty two years ago this was my daily sojourn.


Today is that time by means of place.


We are never that far from whence we've been.

Monday, November 25, 2013

What is...your being...seeing


If every year is a marble, how many marbles do you have left? How many sunrises, how many opportunities to rise to the full stature of your being?     
     --Joy Page




 After an eternity of seeking the sudden threshold of seeing and finding leaves one filled with a strange paradox of ecstasy and grief. I was born to see.
        -- Joy Page

Seeing Through Illness is spiritual practice and community engagement with one another


MEETINGBROOK STILL,MARBLES CENTER: An Initial Invitation

Twitter post, Sunday 24Nov2013:  We’d like to begin: STILL,MARBLES. (Seeing Through Illness, Meetingbrook at Ragged Bald Life Experiencing Spirit.) Interest in investing?
hermitage@meetingbrook https://twitter.com/meetingbrook/status/404615625135640576

ABSTRACT:
We learn that the property across Barnestown Road is on the market. We’ve walked it. We were shown it by a broker. Several members of the wider meetingbrook community have also walked and thought along with us. It consists of 50 acres, an animal barn, an extended house, open lawns, woodland, a pond, two streams, and our own rise of mountain. It is ideal for an extension of meetingbrook hermitage

We are inviting investors to support the purchase of this property to be used as a center to see through illness, for learning, conversation, groups, support, therapeutic meditation, movement, soul-friend interaction, community outreach, gardening, creative projects, various re-entries, and an open place for quiet visits, prayer, reading, solitude, hiking, or just sitting.

STILL,MARBLES CENTER 
The name is an acronym signifying: Seeing Through Illness, Meetingbrook at Ragged Bald Life Experiencing Spirit.

The goal is to focus on the oftentimes difficult navigation individuals experience through illness, be it cancer, heart condition, or other unsettling emotional, spiritual, mental, or physical issues. Particular interest will be extended to those making the journey through illness to share their attendant steps and views in communal conversations.

The Center would consist of a Meditation Room, a Community Room, a Hospitality Kitchen, a Chapel, Meeting rooms, Respite Rooms for overnight stays, and lovely grounds with streams, pond, trails, woods, mountain, and decks for quiet enjoyment of nature’s healing gifts.

Those in transition, caregivers, family members, healthcare personnel, friends, veterans, and other interested folks looking to learn and experience simple care and presence would be invited to STILL,MARBLES to enjoy the ongoing conversations, groups, respite, arts, poetry, films, talks, seminars, ordinary hospitality and relaxation.

MEETINGBROOK HERMITAGE is a place of collation and recollection between Ragged & Bald Mountains. Our personal practice, which for 20 years we’ve done at the hermitage, in the marketplace bookshop and bakery (for 13 years), state prison, hospital, libraries, nursing home, with the dying, hospice volunteers, university students and church communities, and an idiorhythmic extended meetingbrook community, is a practice that is open to and responsive with all traditions both East and West, all denominations, faiths, or none of the above, those who are looking to find their way through life with its difficulties and joys. We are not alone. Meetingbrook is committed to seeing through illness, wherever the individual is, however their path winds its way.

Please consider investing to acquire the property and invest your spirit in being of service to others at MEETINGBROOK STILL,MARBLES CENTER.

Best,
Saskia Huising, Bill Halpin
Meetingbrook Hermitage, Camden, Maine, 04843  207-236-4346

Sunday, November 24, 2013

STILL,MARBLES


Three hours before dawn thinking about possible use of neighboring property.


If a man does not think too much, he rejoices at rising in the morning, and at eating and drinking. He finds satisfaction in them and does not want them to be otherwise. But if he ceases to take things for granted, he seeks eagerly and hopefully during the course of the day for moments of real life, the radiance of which makes him rejoice and obliterates the awareness of time and all thoughts on the meaning and purpose of everything. One can call these moments creative, because they seem to give a feeling of union with the creator, and while they last, one is sensible of everything being necessary, even what is seemingly fortuitous. It is what the mystics call union with God. Perhaps it is the excessive radiance of these moments that make everything else appear so dark. Perhaps it is the feeling of liberation, the enchanting lightness and the suspended bliss that make the rest of life seem so difficult, demanding and oppressive. I do not know. I have not travelled very far in thought and philosophy. However I do know that if there is a state of bliss and a paradise, it must be an uninterrupted sequence of such moments, and if this state of bliss can be attained through suffering and dwelling in pain, then no sorrow or pain can be so great that one should attempt to escape from it.
                          (--Hermann Hesse, in Gertrude, as translated by Hilda Rosner)        http://dshenai.wordpress.com/2013/02/08/


STILL,MARBLES


Seeing Through Illness, Meetingbrook at Ragged Bald Life Experiencing Spirit.

Saturday, November 23, 2013

Friday, November 22, 2013

President Kennedy's death

It showed us something we'd never recover from.

Mistrust.

Georg Friedrich Handel gives us, as consolation, this St. Cecilia's Day Ode.

Thursday, November 21, 2013

What we no longer see passes us by


Train tracks no longer carry sidetracked caboose shorn of yellow paint.


And yet, golden prayer wheel sounds like the clickity clack round iron discs along spiked rail as it spins homage to what is within everything.

Thursday afternoon long miles from home.

Wednesday, November 20, 2013

Stirb und werde


After film Wit in class, Ikkyu concludes the evening:
I won’t die.  
I won’t go anywhere.  
I’ll always be here.  
But don’t ask me any questions.  
I won’t answer.  
                          (– The Death Poem of Ikkyu)
 From death mask, a brief pause, to eternal face.

Tuesday, November 19, 2013

Sometimes


When walking


Everything seems

So

Spacious

Om mane padme hum


See what is revealing itself within!




Some days Emanuel feels closer than others.

(Hebrew: עמנואל, God is with us)

Peace and good will.

As well.

Monday, November 18, 2013

Spiegel im Spiegel


Meditation is presence looking as, not at, itself.

Mirror in the mirror.

A never-ending reflection with no beginning.

Sunday, November 17, 2013

Arriving home; nowhere else


No closing this gate.


On its way becoming gateless.


Moo!

The end sound as religion


The koan "Mu," the story of Adam and Eve in Genesis, and Philippians 2:6-11 are the same teaching.

No stretching out hand to reach for or ask for what is already there, what is already true, what belongs as you.

As, not to.

Perhaps "I am!" finds contemporary translation in "I as!"





Saturday, November 16, 2013

Moonrise, Camden, Saturday


No peapod bobs
Harbor, only white sphere
Looks at nothing there


Low tide


Friday, November 15, 2013

6:18am


Not only are we not alone, we are what alone would be if it were us.


Alone, the Alone is alone.

We are what longs to be alone with the Alone.

As first light morning is to day, you and I are nascent presence to Inchoate Presence Itself.



So arrives 6:23am.

3:16am


Vigils.

Nothing.

Emptiness surrounds solitude.

Until stillness in vast open space.

Looks in as itself.

Gazing 

Thursday, November 14, 2013

One last observation


Just before I die I expect to be breathing.

What happens after that is anybody's guess.

Wednesday, November 13, 2013

Bowdoin soccer field



The day is chill gifted with sun. Leaves play tumble at center field.


Score: wind two, grass one.

Tuesday, November 12, 2013

read this many ways


No fear is now here.

Monday, November 11, 2013

Do you remember?


I remember.

11 Nov, world over

Remembrance Day includes all hurt and dead after war, after resistance to war, after longing for peace.



Sunday, November 10, 2013

Time to see the teaching


View from morning window.

This is my simple religion. There is no need for temples; no need for complicated philosophy. Our own brain, our own heart is our temple; the philosophy is kindness.-- Dalai Lama
View from a lovely teaching. 


ཐུགས་རྗེ་ཆེ་།
(tujay-chay)
ཐུགས་རྗེཞེ་དྲག་ཆེ་།.           
(Thank you!)

Saturday, November 09, 2013

A good lad


Atop stone tower on small mountain above Montpelier Vt we talked about many things.

Friday, November 08, 2013

Note


There will be no conversations nor formal practice this weekend. (8Nov13 -- 11Nov13)
The bookshed and cabin are, as usual, open for use.

In the middle of the night

We find ourselves wondering.

That's how philosophy begins.

As well, we, as well.


Thursday, November 07, 2013

Some sounds have nothing to do with silence.


We listen to John Cage’s 4’33” performed by London orchestra at beginning of class.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zY7UK-6aaNA

A wonderful way to begin.

His words: Following
1. What right do I have to be in the woods, if the woods are not in me. (John Cage) 
2. The highest purpose is to have no purpose at all. This puts one in accord with nature, in her manner of operation. (John Cage) 
3. I have nothing to say / and I am saying it / and that is poetry / as I need it. (John Cage)

Some sounds have nothing to do with silence.

Now I am uncaged.

Wednesday, November 06, 2013

De-voted Haiku


Wednesday morning 

after quiet election day --

Country still stands.
     
                 (-wfh/nunc ipsum)


Monday, November 04, 2013

Dom-in-us; Vo-bis-cum (That which is Lord in us; Calling twice-with)


Twice-with is reflective manifestation of inner/outer. Twice-with is the coming-into-being of undifferentiated suchness, the unconcealing wholeness of non-dual community attentive and responsive to one-another.

Being with God is the contemplative life.

The prayer, "God be-with you," is tripartite meditation of a holistic representation, mirrors of one another, that is, of reality. Each of the three terms presents the whole; God is being-with you.

God is Being With you.

God is being-with you,

God is, being-with. You.

Perhaps we might say that you are not god, I am not god, god is not god, 

But you are being-with god.

As is god being-with you.

The reality of this existence is an ontological mystery. It includes presence presencing what is here.

Presence presences the presentable.

God bewith you!





Today, if you hear the voice, harden not your hearts!

We are invited.

Sunday, November 03, 2013

Breathing in silence

In "Blackrobe" dream is proleptic, life is unreal.


The historical obsession with converting the heathen seems so absurd. The history of power and control by church seems one of the mental illnesses if western civilization. And contemporary factionalism mixed with catatonic belief that specific versions of realities and formulation of pseudo-aporic statements about deity and divinity seem the stuff of mental asylum and cuckoo bin.

Christianity is in death knell. But Christ, whatever that is, whoever that is, suffuses and perdures. In silence.

Silence is the name of Christ. Act is the movement of this truth. Stillness is the revelation of this compassionate reality.

No religion comes close. Religion is incapable of promoting anything other than its own survival, dominance, and correctness.

Earth is the body of Christ.

Who or what is Christ?

You are.

Just don't let anyone tell you what you are who you belong to what you stand for; don't let them worship you kill you make you the reason for suffering persecution redemption salvation or the future of mankind.

You are the earth. Christ is the earth come aware of itself. God is that awareness available for all to all in 10,000 names and shapes and sounds and absences.

Awareness Gods.

Silence is the sound of awareness.

Practice silence. Practice awareness. 


Practice earth.

Saturday, November 02, 2013

Can you see the other side?

Endings and passings.

All souls and sensibilities.

We're looking at next year's new soil scattered colorfully into rust brown all through woods and mountain.
Say Yes Quickly
 
Forget your life. Say God is Great. Get up.
You think you know what time it is. It’s time to pray.
You’ve carved so many little figurines, too many.
Don’t knock on any random door like a beggar.
Reach your long hands out to another door, beyond where
you go on the street, the street
where everyone says, “How are you?”
and no one says “How aren’t you?”

Tomorrow you’ll see what you’ve broken and torn tonight,
thrashing in the dark. In side you
there’s an artist you don’t know about.
He’s not interested in how things look different in moonlight.

If you are here unfaithfully with us,
you’re causing terrible damage.
If you’ve opened your loving to God’s love,
you’re helping people you don’t know
and you have never seen.

Is what I say true? Say yes quickly,
if you know, if you’ve known it
from before the beginning of the univer
se.
(Poem by Mevlana Jalaluddin Rumi )

Friday, November 01, 2013

holiness

Holiness consists of being oneself.

Happy All Saints' Day!

Be what, who, how you are!

Thursday, October 31, 2013

no cell is not waiting


Time of the Thin Place.

Saints and Spirits preserve us!
Against Certainty                 
There is something out in the dark that wants to correct us.
Each time I think “this,” it answers “that.”
Answers hard, in the heart-grammar’s strictness. 
If I then say “that,” it too is taken away. 
Between certainty and the real, an ancient enmity.
When the cat waits in the path-hedge,
no cell of her body is not waiting.
This is how she is able so completely to disappear. 
I would like to enter the silence portion as she does. 
To live amid the great vanishing as a cat must live,
one shadow fully at ease inside another.
  (Poem by Jane Hirshfield)
Time to disappear.

Taking away certainty, only what is real remains.

Wednesday, October 30, 2013

Baseball season ends in Boston

Learned meetingbrook alumnus died last Saturday.
He mumbled to himself.
We wish him rest

Tuesday, October 29, 2013

Sam's question


Hello anger my old friend.
Because we imagine anger is never a good thing, it is easy to think we should practice simply not being angry. But that approach is too general and abstract. It’s important for each of us to be precise, to be real, to be personal and honest, to find out exactly what my anger is. To do that we need to ask ourselves lots of questions about its actual nature.   (--Nancy Baker, “Precious Energy” in Tricycle)
Anger visits often. But it doesn't arrive kicking and sputtering and punching. That's what occurs when it is not received and welcomed as a stranger, invited to sit a while, brewing tea or coffee, asking What's up? How have you been? What are you working on these days?

Anger is the remedy for realization something is being violated. It is first responder first out the door making present the demand for attention the need for something to happen.

Anger is not by nature violent. Not irrational. Not cruel. Not ipso facto destructive. Anger is alarm clock calling us into stark show-up.

Many people dress up their anger in costume. They paint smiley faces on masks and pretend to be sweetness or reasonableness or, noblesse oblige, a superior view patronizing or posturing.

Some people go all religious and righteous and forgive you or themselves before even addressing why anger has shown up and what it wants. The don't want equilibrium, they want exceptionalism.

Others pretend there is no anger, only correction of erroneous attitudes and perceived injustice by means of vigilante psychological or physical violence. These are dangerous members of our human family.

These days anger sips coffee from Canada and waits for English muffin to darken in toaster. 


In the sipping silence I hear Sam Manning's signature question: "So, what are you working on these days?"

Sam always cheers me. As does his question. So does the chance to listen quietly to the dialogue ensuing.

Dwell poetically! 

Invite each stranger into the conversation. 

Feast together.

Monday, October 28, 2013

This is what is happening; let us be glad and rejoice in it(self)


Sounding morning from cat in litter box bus on Barnestown bird in dooryard. There is a space we call world a time we know as today a sense that complexity of personage and perception is unfolding continuity from this to this to this.

Each person falls from sleep into mythology that carries them from covers to contradictions to bathroom functions to considerations of next and next and next.

Whether empty house empty cardboard box empty narrative or empty mind, each moves into stare of morning back from night.

If you plot revenge if you plan to get somewhere on time if you pray toward some mystery or watch from window the coming to be of chilly autumn air we are just this moment attending the disclosure of light in an unknowing time.



As October so November the naming distinctions that seem to collect recollection and storyline for busy and engaged people off to do or meet or plan or fix or stare into nothing other than what is what is what is. 

Coffee. Yes brew coffee. Try to recall what you used to think used to think was the purpose the end aim the meaning of waking in the morning. Does coffee help? Meaning no longer does.

Does anything replace meaning?

No.

Absent meaning comes bare attention to what reveals itself.

What reveals itself?

Only bare attention only wondering attention only mere attention only alert attention only loving gaze without expectation without knowing.


Morning belongs to itself. Day belongs to itself. Morning is itself. Day is itself.

Once, a very long time ago, people longed to be favored by god to be helped by god to be allowed to look on god and be free of cares woes fears and disease.

Today is once become itself.

Today is itself becoming once upon a time.

Today is upon us we are upon today.

"Itself" finds itself in everything it sees feels tastes smells hears.

Only itself is nothing else.

Only itself is nothing else is.

Find itself musician and you will be what you in ended search playfully see.

Seeing perhaps God as mystery is mystery itself something difficult or impossible to understand or explain. Nor needing to.

Itself is mystery of god present without knowing otherwise.

To be otherwise is to be what you see without thinking it or you to be other.

Wisdom resides in nothing other.

Than this.

Itself.

Sunday, October 27, 2013

finally


Night

Darkens,

Quietly.

then, is heard, no more


Evening nears.

I realize, like most everybody,  I am insane.
C. G. Jung once had a patient who believed she lived on the moon. So Jung met her there. As she realized he took her experiences as valid, she told a sad tale of vampires and isolation. Eventually, this woman who'd been abused as a girl made her way back to earth. Patients like her had taught Jung that the fact of a person’s madness did not in any way invalidate the richness and authenticity of their personal mythology. 
(--Craig Chalquist, PhD, from Amazon Review of documentary film, Jupiter’s Wife, {1995}, by Michel Negroponte, about Maggie Cogan)
That’s not it exactly. Not merely insane. Rather, caught inside a story.

Told by a fool.

Full of sound and fury.

You know the rest.
MACBETH 
She should have died hereafter;
There would have been a time for such a word.
To-morrow, and to-morrow, and to-morrow,
Creeps in this petty pace from day to day
To the last syllable of recorded time,
And all our yesterdays have lighted fools
The way to dusty death. Out, out, brief candle!
Life's but a walking shadow, a poor player
That struts and frets his hour upon the stage
And then is heard no more: it is a tale
Told by an idiot, full of sound and fury,
Signifying nothing. 
(--from Act 5, Scene 5, The Tragedy of Macbeth, by William Shakespeare)  
 As Shakespeare elsewhere writes, the rest is silence.

gathered, then, dispersed


Morning becomes afternoon.


Quakers come.
The greatest achievement of humanity is not its works of art, science, or technology, but the recognition of its own dysfunction, its own madness. In the distant past, this recognition already came to a few individuals. A man called Gautama Siddhartha, who lived 2,600 years ago in India, was perhaps the first who saw it with absolute clarity. Later the title Buddha was conferred upon him. Buddha means “the awakened one.” At about the same time, another of humanity’s early awakened teachers emerged in China. His name was Lao Tzu. He left a record of his teaching in the form of one of the most profound spiritual books ever written, the Tao Te Ching. 
To recognize one’s own insanity, is of course, the arising of sanity, the beginning of healing and transcendence. A new dimension of consciousness had begun to emerge on the planet, a first tentative flowering. Those rare individuals then spoke to their contemporaries. They spoke of sin, of suffering, of delusion. They said, “Look how you live. See what you are doing, the suffering you create.” They then pointed to the possibility of awakening from the collective nightmare of “normal” human existence. They showed the way. (--from chapter 1, The New Earth, by Eckhart Tolle) http://res.allpdftools.com/allpdftools/pdf-download-resources/A_New_Earth.pdf
Quakers go.

Blessed be the name of silence!

Sunday morning; the songs they were, singing


Sunday morning.
“The beginning of love is the will to let those we love be perfectly themselves, the resolution not to twist them to fit our own image. If in loving them we do not love what they are, but only their potential likeness to ourselves, then we do not love them: we only love the reflection of ourselves we find in them” 
(― Thomas Merton, No Man Is an Island)
A good time to step outside our demands.
“Do not depend on the hope of results. You may have to face the fact that your work will be apparently worthless and even achieve no result at all, if not perhaps results opposite to what you expect. As you get used to this idea, you start more and more to concentrate not on the results, but on the value, the rightness, the truth of the work itself. You gradually struggle less and less for an idea and more and more for specific people. In the end, it is the reality of personal relationship that saves everything.”     
 (--Thomas Merton, The Letters of Thomas Merton)
A good time to sit inside life's suchness.