Saturday, July 05, 2025

we must love one another or die defenseless under the night

 W.H. Auden was kind enough to write this poem for us.

September 1, 1939

                                        --W.H. Auden, 1907 - 1973) 


I sit in one of the dives

On Fifty-second Street

Uncertain and afraid

As the clever hopes expire

Of a low dishonest decade:

Waves of anger and fear

Circulate over the bright

And darkened lands of the earth,

Obsessing our private lives;

The unmentionable odour of death

Offends the September night.

Accurate scholarship can

Unearth the whole offence

From Luther until now

That has driven a culture mad,

Find what occurred at Linz,

What huge imago made

A psychopathic god:

I and the public know

What all schoolchildren learn,

Those to whom evil is done

Do evil in return.

Exiled Thucydides knew

All that a speech can say

About Democracy,

And what dictators do,

The elderly rubbish they talk

To an apathetic grave;

Analysed all in his book,

The enlightenment driven away,

The habit-forming pain,

Mismanagement and grief:

We must suffer them all again.

Into this neutral air

Where blind skyscrapers use

Their full height to proclaim

The strength of Collective Man,

Each language pours its vain

Competitive excuse:

But who can live for long

In an euphoric dream;

Out of the mirror they stare,

Imperialism's face

And the international wrong.

Faces along the bar

Cling to their average day:

The lights must never go out,

The music must always play,

All the conventions conspire

To make this fort assume

The furniture of home;

Lest we should see where we are,

Lost in a haunted wood,

Children afraid of the night

Who have never been happy or good.

The windiest militant trash

Important Persons shout

Is not so crude as our wish:

What mad Nijinsky wrote

About Diaghilev

Is true of the normal heart;

For the error bred in the bone

Of each woman and each man

Craves what it cannot have,

Not universal love

But to be loved alone.

From the conservative dark

Into the ethical life

The dense commuters come,

Repeating their morning vow;

“I will be true to the wife,

I’ll concentrate more on my work,”

And helpless governors wake

To resume their compulsory game:

Who can release them now,

Who can reach the deaf,

Who can speak for the dumb?

All I have is a voice

To undo the folded lie,

The romantic lie in the brain

Of the sensual man-in-the-street

And the lie of Authority

Whose buildings grope the sky:

There is no such thing as the State

And no one exists alone;

Hunger allows no choice

To the citizen or the police;

We must love one another or die.

Defenceless under the night

Our world in stupor lies;

Yet, dotted everywhere,

Ironic points of light

Flash out wherever the Just

Exchange their messages:

May I, composed like them

Of Eros and of dust,

Beleaguered by the same

Negation and despair,

Show an affirming flame.

 

        From Another Time by W. H. Auden, published by Random House. Copyright © 1940

ゆっくり急ぐ (hurry slowly)

 Some phrase arrives:

“No gaining idea, no following thought.”

It’s a phrasing I recall from somewhere.

Something zen.

It escapes me.

I look around.

I’m alone.

No idea, no thought.

Not a trace.

few happy returns of the day

 Candles dripped out

Streamers torn down

Cake fallen to lawn

Friday, July 04, 2025

weeds outside the door

I have never been so embarrassed by my country, by the Senate, the House, the Supreme Court, the presidency.

Just because a dank depression covers my spirit, it doesn’t mean I do not continue to search out a breakthrough.

It is embarrassing to say that this July the Fourth is a victory for intolerance, illegality, racism, fascism, authoritarianism, and bland cruelty.

I don’t think we've begun to see the chaos that lies ahead.

I’m sure the folks with guns, including ICE and the military, are releasing their safeties to aim at their targets.

I’m equally sure the so-called lone-wolf assassins are scoping out opportunities to murder those they think are enemies and traitors.

I fear for our public officials.

I fear for our elected politicians.

I fear for you and for me.

Actually, I fear you. 

(I think I’ll pour a cup of coffee. Eat the fried egg. Bite into an Entenmann donut. Weep for my country) 

shoshaku jushaku

One continuous mistake. 

And by our errors, a chance to learn and grow.

It’s the Fourth of July.

National Relearn Day. 

The phrase "one continuous mistake" in the context of Zen Buddhism and Shunryu Suzuki, refers to the idea that life, and especially Zen practice, can be viewed as a series of errors or missteps, but that these are not necessarily negative. Instead, they can be seen as part of a continuous process of learning and growth, and even as a path to enlightenment. It's a concept rooted in the Shōbōgenzō of Dōgen Zenji, where "shoshaku jushaku" translates to "succeeding wrong with wrong" or "mistake with mistake". (—AI overview)

As we face-plant, as we sport abrasion and contusion, we have a chance to recalculate and recalibrate.

If we want to.

With hats, kazoos, and humbled hearts — still — a good birthday to us all!

Thursday, July 03, 2025

from seventeenth century

 Finish reading Experiencing the Depths of Jesus Christ, 1685, (by Jeanne Guyon, aka Madame Guyon, 1648–1717.)

Then I read it again. (Falling asleep during audiobook will do that.)

Surprised how good it was.

Never judge an author by her time in prison.

After a number of secret conferences held at Issy, where Tronson was detained by a sickness, the commissioners presented in thirty-four articles the principles of Catholic teaching as to spirituality and the interior life (four of these articles were suggested by Fénelon, who in February had been nominated to the Archbishopric of Cambrai). But on 10 October 1694 François de Harlay de Champvallon, the Archbishop of Paris, who had been excluded from the conferences at Issy, anticipated their results by condemning the published works of Madame Guyon. She, fearing another arrest, took refuge for some months at Meaux, with the permission of Bossuet who was the presiding bishop there. After placing in his hands her signed submission to the thirty-four articles of Issy, she returned secretly to Paris. At Paris, the police, however, arrested her on 24 December 1695 and imprisoned her, first at Vincennes, then in a convent at Vaugirard,[11] and then in the Bastille, where on 23 August 1699 she again signed a retraction of her theories and promised to refrain from spreading them further. From that time on she took no part, personally, in public discussions, but the controversy about her ideas only grew all the more heated between Bossuet and Fénelon.

Madame Guyon remained imprisoned in the Bastille until 21 March 1703, when after more than seven years of her final captivity, she went to live with her son in a village in the Diocese of Blois. There she passed some fifteen years surrounded by a stream of pilgrims, many from England and Scotland, and spending her time writing volumes of correspondence and poetry.[12] She continued to be revered by the Beauvilliers, the Chevreuses, and Fénelon, who communicated with her when safe and discreet intermediaries were available. Among the pilgrims, Milord Chewinkle stayed in Blois with Guyon for 7 years. One visitor, Pierre Poiret, went on to publish many of Guyon's works

 https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Jeanne_Guyon

how do I pray, their eyes asked

 Watch!

(and pray)


Is that

It


Yes

It is

if you answer me

 It all goes quiet

As if silence could be heard

The empty unsaid

Wednesday, July 02, 2025

the quiet of it, verition

We think we know God

worse, we think we’d like to know God;

we don’t; we want God to be our thoughts 

and feelings, something clear and concise

a theology treatise with footnotes --

that’s not God

God is nowhere to be found

it’s always been like that

only, people make up stories that further

their agendas, tell lies that benefit themselves

Wear hats with “make america god’s address"

the pope (god bless him) is not god on earth

the president (god-no) is not god in Washington DC 

billionaires are not archangels with wings --

Bereft, God hides in Its “becoming-to-be-realizeable”

God is not yet here, God is “what-we-are-not-yet” 

(Love) 

in that, seeing god is loving god

And we do not see and god is not seen without

(Love)

and we are liars saying we've sat for tea

walked the mountain, sat in silence

calling these things God’s traces --

desolate dispossession disappointing

the quiet of it, mute veracity mute 

verition (taking a turn)

got geyt mir nokh umetum *

He wrote two volumes about The Prophets. I studied them in the 1960s. I still have them. They still speak.

The Hebrew Prophets were born into a world of desperate power politics, and their message was, to put it quite simply, that power politics don't matter. The flamboyant wealth and cruel power of Egypt and Assyria, and the enormous impact of their religion on western Asia, were firmly and decisively rejected by the Prophets: salvation lies not in power and wealth but in doing justice and loving mercy, in looking after the widow and the fatherless, in turning to God and doing His will. 

https://www.commentary.org/articles/david-daiches/the-prophets-by-abraham-j-heschel/

Now here are three of his poems: 

Poet: Abraham Joshua Heschel (1907-1972)

GOT GEYT MIR NOKH UMETUM

God follows me everywhere— 

Spins a net of glances around me, 

Warms my sightless back like the sun.

God follows me like a forest everywhere. 

My lips, filled with wonder, are fully numb, dumb 

Like a child who blunders upon an ancient holy place.

God follows me like a shiver everywhere. 

The desire in me is for rest; the demand within me is: Rise up,

See how prophetic visions lie neglected in the streets!

I wander with my reveries as with a secret

In a long corridor through the world— 

And sometimes I see, high above me, the faceless face of God.

[God follows me in tramways, in cafés.

And it is only with the backs of one’s eyes that one can see 

How secrets ripen, how visions come to be.]

 

KHOYVES

Hours demand payment, hours cry out:

When will you pay the debts for your dreams?

Every hour leaves me a last will and testament. 

Days cry out as if they were years.

Words have seduced me, intoxicated me with their range.

I am heroic only in waiting, mighty only in ardor.

I have not rewarded the world for even one breath. 

Oh, how dare I borrow time from a new future?

Dreams are debts, songs are oaths. 

When will I pay for the dreams, for the debts?

 

GOT UN MENTSH

Not for Your own sake do You want sacrificial gifts

Only for those disappointed in Your love.

I don’t value Your mercy for honor’s sake; 

Only for those abandoned by all.

Rape shames You less

Than people’s tears, than screams of woe. 

Blasphemy pains You less 

Than people’s despair.

He who blasphemes people, the world— 

Shames You, Almighty; 

He who loves people— 

Brings joy to You, Holy One

...   ...   ...

Liner Notes

The group of settings of poems by Abraham Joshua Heschel (1907–1972), one of the most influential and original theologian-philosophers of the 20th century, stand among the most profound achievements of Lazar Weiner’s creative life. In these three songs—Got geyt mir nokh umetum (God Follows Me Everywhere), Khoyves (Debts),and Got un mentsh (God and Man) (1973)—the poetry examines the relationship between God and man and explores man’s anguished efforts to live a life worthy of the compassionate force that created him. The songs are uncompromisingly sober, and in Got un mentsh a contrapuntal web of independent lines, tonal but highly dissonant, is woven around an eloquent parlando line. The intensity of expression is embodied perfectly in the technical language.

By: Yehudi Wyner

https://www.milkenarchive.org/music/volumes/view/the-art-of-jewish-song/work/three-poems-by-abraham-joshua-heschel/ 

 * If "God Follows Me Everywhere", I am not alone. Rather, and perhaps more troubling, I am alone with The Alone. Which makes me wonder whether I am anywhere at all?

I look out screen door to yew bush.

I see nothing but yew bush and, somewhere, on other side, St Bernard/Border Collie I suspect is dug in near broken statue of St Francis near deck alongside downhill driveway dooryard.

a brief history of white religious heresy

“Hell is empty and all the devils are here.”

            --William Shakespeare, The Tempest


 This too shall pass

Four wise words as

Half the population

Arrests, deports and

Imprisons the other half


As a few rich people

Toss Pennies to the many

Below them, Gaza is

Bombed, Kiev is bombed

Los Angeles is occupied


In Maine summer opens

Roads to those from away

Grass grows, bird feeders

Receive foreclosures, no

Seeds needed, lush greenery


Provides, young ones learn

The sun and stars burn bright

Billions and billions of them

Floating in vacuous bobble

Earth, of course, alone has


Humans, that rare example

Of moral compromise, setting

Rules for the whole universe

Do not honor the weak, do

Not help the poor, imprison


Your inferiors, kill those who

Oppose your ego, mock all

Be strong, learn the benefit

Of hate

I have been so foolish


So unsophisticated so

Naive, someone taught

About Jesus and Buddha

And I believed them, that

Love and compassion 


mattered — they don’t, not

In America, not on earth

Not in this cosmos

What’s left? 

Follow MAGA, 


That’s it for now —

And when they commit

Suicide after intense shame

Overwhelms their conscience

Lawmakers and neighbors will


Claim to be converted and redeemed

Shriven and enfolded back into their

Republican crudity for Christ congregation

May those sinful leaders find mercy, amen

And amen, pass me my immunity, get lost

Tuesday, July 01, 2025

to our neighbors to the north

 We love you Canada —

Stay strong, independent, and 

Unapologetically good

to be really outside it

Reading about Ludwig Wittgenstein on God, religion and theology (Joost Hengstmengel), I find these two initial quotes. 

A little philosophy inclineth man's mind to atheism; but depth in philosophy bringeth men's mind about to religion. (--Francis Bacon)


“[T]he next best thing to being really inside Christendom is to be really outside it.”

(--G.K. Chesterton, The Everlasting Man, 1925)

I have fallen off the balance beam. I stand next to it. But I am not on it. I don’t seem to have any desire to get back up, swaying left and right, arms flailing wide, trying to find stasis while exercising the small loft of accomplishing small accomplishments.

I didn’t fall off; I suppose I jumped down. I don’t remember.

I suspect my mind might be more balanced if I were to be lying flat on ground arms and legs splayed as in DaVinci depiction of Vitruvian man circled, squared, and triangled.

The popular way of speaking of such things these days is -- spiritual, not religious. But that doesn’t say it for me.

It’s more like saying --religious but unchurched. 

I seem to have little interest in the denominations or enclosures of christian, jewish, hindu, islamic, buddhist, or atheistic persuasions. In fact, I’m allowed to enter meetingbrook’s chapel/zendo only with reluctant permission offhandedly waved through by screen door, threshold, and four walls within. 

I enter, light incense, candles, turn hourglass for sandslide, sweep the handiwork of small critters burrowing through roof insulation and droppings of meditating mice at midnight, then,  sit.  

I reside with itinerant insouciance wandering through cosmotheandric monastery of unsubscribed belonging.

All points of view are both relevant and irrelevant. All enclosures both salvific and stifling. I stagger through overgrown weeds and off-latch gates arriving at strange hospitality and feel welcome.

I kiss the mezzuza, sign the cross, bow to seated thusness, pronounce the shahada, knock on tree, respond tat tvam asi to every inquiry for identity papers, and join antiphonally with French monks and nuns when they chant Deus in adjutorium meum intende!

My balance seems to be no balance, but the spin of a wavering top soon to lean over on its side, full stop.

This is pas de probleme.

Everything says Grüß Gott -- and leaves you alone.

what’s the cruelty to do this

Something dark this way comes.

One of the Maine Senators: 

“This bill is a farce,” said Senator Angus King (I-ME). “Imagine a bunch of guys sitting around a table, saying, ‘I've got a great idea. Let's give $32,000 worth of tax breaks to a millionaire and we’ll pay for it by taking health insurance away from lower-income and middle-income people. And to top it off, how about we cut food stamps, we cut SNAP, we cut food aid to people?’... I've been in this business of public policy now for 20 years, eight years as governor, 12 years in the United States Senate. I have never seen a bill this bad. I have never seen a bill that is this irresponsible, regressive, and downright cruel.” 

“When I worked here in the 70's,” King said, “I had insurance as a…junior staff member in this body 50 years ago. Because I had that insurance that covered a free checkup, I went in and had my first physical in eight years…and the doctors found a little mole on my back. And they took it out. And I didn't think much of it. And I went in a week later and the doctor said, ‘You better sit down, Angus. That was malignant melanoma. You're going to have to have serious surgery.’… And I had the surgery and here I am. If I hadn’t had insurance, I wouldn’t be here. And it’s always haunted me that some young man in America that same year had malignant melanoma, he didn’t have insurance, he didn’t get that checkup, and he died. That’s wrong. It’s immoral.” 

Senator King continued: “I don’t understand the obsession and I never have…with taking health insurance away from people. I don’t get it. Trying to take away the Affordable Care Act in 2017 or 2018 and now this. What’s driving this? What’s the cruelty to do this, to take health insurance away from people knowing that it’s going to cost them…up to and including…their lives.” 

In fact, the drive to slash health insurance is part of the Republicans’ determination to destroy the modern government.

(--from, LETTERS FROM AN AMERICAN, June 30, 2025, HEATHER COX RICHARDSON)

If someone came into your house and put a gun in your face saying “Give it over!” -- you’d probably conclude some crime was being committed against you.

What is the obsession and cruelty operative in the Republican House and Senate?

It couldn’t just be fear of this president, could it?

No, it must have to do with something else.

What would that be?

That not everyone is worthy? Not everyone is created equal and deserves the necessities of life?

And how did they get so far up into our personal health and financial well-being so as to wound so many going forward?

imagine the end of hate

 People are writing

Ugly dark things about

NYC primary winner


“Not me” each hateful

Post says, “he’s not me”

Revealing nothing


I’m glad he won

Good for him

Pray for light


Every imagined

Decency wholeness

Brings it closer